#6

islelily

So the light spotting yesterday turned into heavier spotting today.  We'll see where this is headed, but I believe its AF and the beginning of my 6th cycle post-m/c.

6 cycles!  At my d&c follow up appointment, the OB was going over the normal information of when we could start trying again, asking if we had any questions.  And then she told me that my pap smear and pelvic exam were good and up to date until May 2009.  She then said I shouldn't worry about the next exam, since I'll probably be pregnant by then.  I let out a nervous laugh and said, "hope so!"

And I know May is still 6 months away, but its been 6 cycles since the m/c.  I'm going over the hump, I guess, splitting the time after my m/c to the time I have left until its 1 year since.

In all honesty, I didn't think I'd have any trouble getting pregnant again.  Sigh.  How do you get by a big marker like this?

beaner628

I am sorry hon. It is almost 9 months for me and its tough. My EDD is December 4. My sister is getting married May 1 and everyone keeps telling me I will be PG by then but its hard to think that when its been almost 9 months already. I am going for the dress fitting on Thursday and a few people said to me you probably wont need a bigger size so just order whatever you are. I was like what does that mean? They were like oh well you are tiny and at this point you would only maybe be 4 months or so and not showing too much.

I wish I had better advice. It is not easy and I feel your pain. I am grateful for this board because it is tough but its nice to know that there is always someone on this board that has been trying just as long or going through something similar so you know you are not alone. Big hugs!

SaraBobby

((HUGS))

TheEnglishgirl

Oh massive ::hugs:: out to you girl. I think every cycle whether it is the first or the thirty first hurts when you want a baby, some more than others, but they all hurt.

You just have to breath, take a moment to acknowledge, accept the AF and then LET GO. As much as we would love to control all of it, we cannot. I find comfort that our baby is picking when it wants to come into our lives and just try and trust and hope.

And once last thing, there will be a day when we are pregnant and we will be holding our babies, and I don't want to look back on this time (ALL this time TTC) and realize that I was sad and bitter, because none of it will matter.

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islelily

Thank you for all of your comfort, ladies, it really does mean so much.  I am going to try my best to think positively and know that our baby is waiting for us.  Thank you!