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It's Ten Things Tuesday!  What've you got?

2moms2b

1.  I am tempted to start my leave next week.  I am hoping on Friday the doctor encourages it as M will be there.  I know this will be one less week I have home with the boys or one more week unpaid but I am going crazy working from my bed.  I cannot focus, I am behind and I feel like a complete mess.

2.  I'm going to tattle on myself.  M took me out of the house yesterday.  Granted it was only to pick up dinner and we were gone like 15 minutes (and I never had to get up) but it felt glorious to be out of the house and not at the doctor.  Thank you drive through for making my night!

3.  I'm in Texas (South) and it's been in the 30's... WTF?

4.  My older sister called me last night about BF the boys... again.  I politely listened then explained that I am not sure exactly what I want to do.   She then got on her soap box and I told her I had to go.  Not what I need right now. M told me next time explain it's my body, our kids so what I decide will be best for us and I am done discussing it. 

5.  I had a mini freak out this morning.  This very likely will be our last weekend without the boys or best case scenario... second to last.

6.  I need to bust my ass this week with work to finalize my promotions that will kick off and run while I am on leave and here I am doing TTT...

7. I finally have healthy quick food for while at home!

8.  I made a banana protein smoothie this morning and I must say it's amazing! 

9.  Not only is it cold, it's raining so that is making it feel colder.  Thank goodness I have no reason to go out in that today!

10.  I have learned I can waste hours on you tube.  I feel very sad and embarrassed over this but hey when bored you discover all sorts of things about yourself. 

clairmeij

1. I called in sick today. I woke up with a weird pain in my solar plexus area and was exhausted. I've since been to the bathroom a few times and feel better. I'm wondering if this has something to do with pregnancy slowing down digestion.

2. I was up worrying for much of last night. A woman on the June 2013 board posted a 20 week a/s scan loss story and it really rattled me.

3. I'm now lying here concentrating hard to feel little reassuring flutters.

4. I'm still not convinced that I've felt the baby move, every time I feel something that I 'know' is the baby I doubt it seconds later.

5. Impatiently waiting for those definite little kicks and punches.

6. After spending too much at A Pea in the Pod a couple of weeks ago, I found an outlet of their sister store Motherhood Maternity and found a few great things.

7. I now have some great AG corderoy jeans, two pairs of blue jeans, a pair of dress pants and a good mix of formal and casual tops. Luckily my office is very Colorado so I can mix up my wardrobe with jeans.

8. I'm hoping that I can get through most of my maternity phase without buying much more.

9. I'm trying to stop sleeping on my stomach and training myself to get on my left side. I keep waking up on my back and then snuggle with my snoogle on my right side. Not helpful, body, not helpful.

10. I'm waiting for this rush of 2nd tri energy to arrive. Hopefully soon!

viciouskittie

1. I have a GoTo meeting in twenty minutes and nothing to do in the meantime. Sounds like the perfect excuse for TTT!

2. I am about two heartbeats-per-minute away from a full-blown anxiety attack. Who knew it would be so hard to decide what constitutes as "spotting", "light flow", "full flow"... etc. 

3. I left a message with my clinic to PLEASE call me back today so that I know whether or not I should be counting today and the last two days as my cycle - since I have to take clomid CD3-7 today would be my first dose.

4. I work in an office with some really great people, but the person I would consider my closest friend here has become suddenly a stranger to me. Her mood swings are extreme and hard to predict and her professionalism has taken a big dip lately. Even those around us are noticing.

5. #4 has been upsetting me greatly for the last month but to be hoenst, now I'm just tired of it and have too much else on my mind so I'm just letting go.

6. Sadly, I have very few friends in the town we live in. M and I moved clear across the country 4 years ago and while I have some co-workers that I am friendly with and sometimes see outside work, I wouldn't say I've made any real friends here. It is weird for me - as I've always been extremely social with a large circle of friends - and pretty lonely.

7. There has been so much good news and excitment on this board lately - it makes me genuinely happy and gives me hope that I can get there too.

8. I've been increasingly unhappy with my job lately - the usual stuff, they don't pay me enough, they don't see the hard work I do, etc - and fantasizing about starting my own business. I know exactly what I would love to do, but I also know that it is not really realistic for us right now, or maybe ever.

9. I think I might actually look at making a signature/ticker sometime soon, lol. I never did before because I was such a lurker but I'm making an effort to lurk less so it seems logical.

10. Alright, finished with time to make a tea before my meeting. Have a good day everyone!

2brides

1. I have my 3rd cold sore in 2 weeks. WTF? The first 2 were from the stress of my dad's visit. This one? I have no idea.

2. L is still home sick. She was out Tues-Fri of last week with flu like symptoms (aches/fever) but seemed much better this weekend. She started feeling crummy again yesterday and this morning woke with stomach pain and nausea. Oh no. This isn't boding well for a dissertation that needs to be turned in in 3 weeks.

3. Because of #2, I had to go to the grocery store at 6:45 this morning to pick up diet ginger ale and Saltines. I may or may not have gotten the kids and myself HUGE donuts for breakfast. And it may or may not have been DELICIOUS!

4. I was out last night and because L has been sick, she didn't read the homework e-mail. So, this morning at 7am, I was quizzing 2 half asleep children on Pilgrims. I don't have high hopes for this test.

5. I have a meeting at 2pm re: a new career ladder at work. I am intrigued and a bit nervous.

6. My fax server isn't working. Sigh.

7. I am so excited to see CT and her family on tv!

8. I went to dinner with a friend last night to a nice steakhouse and spent way too much money on dinner.  But damn, it was good.

9.  A co-worker's husband was killed in an accident while they were on vacation last week. His service is this weekend and I'd like to go, but L will (hopefully) be writing and I don't want to take the kids.

10. We are day of cold and rainy. I HATE this. I need sun.

mollykelley

Happy Tuesday!

1. I'm on my way to clinic now, wife is driving, and we will do IUI 6 at noon!

2. I'm struggling with asking for time off for these appointments. I've started being vague with crazy boss and using the proper HR procedure. It still makes me very nervous. Last year she got on me about missing hours and I had to come in on Saturday to make up hours. I've since learned that that is illegal since I am a salaried employee. Unfortunately she knows I am TTC bc I told her when I was Pg for work related reasons. Now she resents the hell out of me and is jealous, as she has told me openly. Ugh.

3. We had our department travel meeting and I found out where I will go in the next few months. Seattle, Boston, LA, San Francisco! Yay! No international travel this time and K will come with me on some to spend weekend in nice hotels. This is a perk of my job, and usually makes up for the rest!

4. I also planned travel around my ov schedule, but I hope it won't be necessary as this is the month!

5. I freaked out while watching Jodie Foster's golden globe speech on Sunday! She is so amazing! K is making fun of me nonstop and saying it is bc of that that I grew a big 27mm follicle. She says the baby is going to come out looking like jodie foster and I'm going to be in big trouble. Lol!

6. I love Jodie Foster.

7. I'm going to spend the rest of the day with my feet up. And going out toy favorite lunch with my love.

8. I'm boycotting HPTs. We'll see how long that lasts! Must make it to beta day!

9. I'm eating a bagel and so happy right now.

10. Do I really have to give up coffee if TTC or Pg? That hasn't happened.

butterflygrooves

1. Waiting to be called back for Owl's MRI.

2. The receptionist here said she cried when she read Owl and Apple's story in the court order, then she commended me on loving them and raising them to be better than what they came from.

3. I am lucky to have these kids.

4. Trial to determine reunification services or TPR is in a week. I am not going, I can't listen to why bio thinks she is capable of caring for the girls now, I just want a this.what's.happening.now call when it's all decided.

5. I didn't bring a snack, I'm going to be very hungry by the time we leave, I didn't eat breakfast either.

6. Duchess, I got the seeds, thank you.

7. Cheer starts next week, this session ends with a competition, the girls are so excited.

8. Why is meat so much cheaper at the Mexican market?

9. I happened across manga while googling an image recently and I've been reading one for the last week, I don't like comics but this has caught my interest.

10. I need to pee but have a feeling they are going to come out to call us back while I am using the restroom, I will hold it a bit longer.

Manada

1.  I'm so excited for our iui tomorrow, even though we have to be at the clinic for the ungodly hour of 7am!

2.  I am SO behind at work I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off today!    I have an article to write for my boss's approval this afternoon and it's just not flowing!  Argh!

3.  I took half an hour today to talk with one of our (queer) student staff about LGBTQ issues in our community - and LOVED it.  I totally get geeked out by talking about that stuff with them.

4.  H. packed me breakfast this morning and I haven't even gotten to eat it yet.  I'm so hungry but I haven't had time!

5.  I just realized I am doing TTT instead of eating, my priorities are totally skewed I think.

6.  H. and I have been talking about taking Feb off from TTC and spending the month talking about injectables, IVF, and our plan from there in....  all the variables are on my mind.

7.  I am not eating wheat this month and am craving GOOD pizza so bad!

8.  H. bought me books on cloth diapering, pregnancy and babies as a surprise and they came yesterday -- I'm STILL heartwarmed!

9.  I still haven't taken our new sewing machine out of the box.  I need a DIY project... suggestions welcome.

10.  I'm so tired, I may fall asleep at my desk if given half an opportunity... bah!

2moms2b

Manada:

9.  I still haven't taken our new sewing machine out of the box.  I need a DIY project... suggestions welcome.

TMM has the best sewing suggestions as she is a rock star on her sewing machine.  

I have found some great project ideas from this site though.

Also I love to look around our house and find things I want to accent, add or change and set out to find an easy pattern to complete my task.   Things can be throw pillows, curtains, new kitchen linens, etc.  Or I will go to the craft store and just browse the fabrics.  They can sometimes pop out to me and I think oh I can do this.  

Oh another suggestion to get easy cheap fabric is to go to good will and buy table clothes, curtains etc for like $1 each and use those to craft with or re-purpose.  My last big project was I found a set of 4 chairs at goodwill for next to nothing but didn't like the fabric so I bought them and made chair covers to match our house.

jeannkerricotober09

1.  N's incision from his surgery is so, so big. His surgeon said it would be 'tiny' but it's over an inch!  And an inch on a tiny 15 month old (he's tiny.  In the 12th percentile for weight) is like half his belly.  We took his bandage off last night, and oh my aching heart. 

2.  We're spending the next 4 weeks playing vaccination catch-up.  We decided to sign him up for swim and tumbling lessons end of Feb so he needs to have everything in his system as soon as possible.  He's not too far behind.  MMR, chickenpox, polio and I think a HIB booster (due yesterday but we held off because of his surgery, it was mandated). 

3.   I'm taking him to a toy store and buying him a toy dyson vacuum when he wakes up from his nap.  He is vacuum obsessed.

4.  My second tri starts on my birthday and is also the day of my NT scan.  I haven't looked forward to my birthday like this since I was 9!

5.  I told K all I want is a big g.c. for maternity clothes.  Last time I bought 1 pair of jeans and wore them almost every day, including to the delivery room.  I couldn't justify spending a lot since I was 'just' a housewife.  But now that we have play groups and lessons, I'm going to splurge a little!

6.  I am driving 7 hours round trip to a funeral tomorrow, alone.   I am a little worried because a) its a really long time for N to entertain himself in the backseat alone and b) it sounds like it might snow and I'm going pretty deep north in MA where they get hit the hardest.

7.  I'm tired

8.   I have piles of stuff to return but I going to the p.o with a little boy is about as much fun as...well it's not fun.  so on my dining room table, it sits.

9.   My dog hates me.  It's really getting to me.  For years I felt bad for her but it's gotten so bad that it's making me feel like a bad, bad person and I don't know what to do.

10.  Since that's too vague to leave alone - she's from Georgia was severely beaten and starved and 24 hours to be put down when we adopted her.  She would only walk backwards and wouldn't eat.  She was all bones.  K really doesn't like dogs, but I love them and begged for one and we got a big house with a nice yard, she relented. I did everything for Grace. Bathed, walked, fed, played, you name it and she never took to me.  I figured, we just needed to give it time.   I don't know why, I must remind her of her abuser but every time I walk into the room she cowers and shakes.  It is awful and the weird thing is it's getting worse.  I never raise my voice, I'm small (her abuser was a man, we assume because she won't go anywhere near men) and quiet.  Nothing has changed.   I've tried everything, professional help included and she just can't get past it.  We're going on 4 years and I think it's seriously time to consider rehoming her.  Its an awful way for her to live and it's really starting to eat at my soul. Every time I walk into the room she shakes, pretty badly.  It makes me feel like a horrible, horrible person and it's seeping into my brain that I am the one that did this to her.  Like I beat her.  It's horrible.  It makes me hate being in my house.

healz413

jeannkerricotober09:

9.   My dog hates me.  It's really getting to me.  For years I felt bad for her but it's gotten so bad that it's making me feel like a bad, bad person and I don't know what to do.

10.  Since that's too vague to leave alone - she's from Georgia was severely beaten and starved and 24 hours to be put down when we adopted her.  She would only walk backwards and wouldn't eat.  She was all bones.  K really doesn't like dogs, but I love them and begged for one and we got a big house with a nice yard, she relented. I did everything for Grace. Bathed, walked, fed, played, you name it and she never took to me.  I figured, we just needed to give it time.   I don't know why, I must remind her of her abuser but every time I walk into the room she cowers and shakes.  It is awful and the weird thing is it's getting worse.  I never raise my voice, I'm small (her abuser was a man, we assume because she won't go anywhere near men) and quiet.  Nothing has changed.   I've tried everything, professional help included and she just can't get past it.  We're going on 4 years and I think it's seriously time to consider rehoming her.  Its an awful way for her to live and it's really starting to eat at my soul. Every time I walk into the room she shakes, pretty badly.  It makes me feel like a horrible, horrible person and it's seeping into my brain that I am the one that did this to her.  Like I beat her.  It's horrible.  It makes me hate being in my house.

This makes me so sad. I'm so sorry to hear this is your experience and that your dog is so scared all the time. What a difficult situation for you. I wish you the best in figuring out what to do.

viciouskittie

jeannkerricotober09:

10.  Since that's too vague to leave alone - she's from Georgia was severely beaten and starved and 24 hours to be put down when we adopted her.  She would only walk backwards and wouldn't eat.  She was all bones.  K really doesn't like dogs, but I love them and begged for one and we got a big house with a nice yard, she relented. I did everything for Grace. Bathed, walked, fed, played, you name it and she never took to me.  I figured, we just needed to give it time.   I don't know why, I must remind her of her abuser but every time I walk into the room she cowers and shakes.  It is awful and the weird thing is it's getting worse.  I never raise my voice, I'm small (her abuser was a man, we assume because she won't go anywhere near men) and quiet.  Nothing has changed.   I've tried everything, professional help included and she just can't get past it.  We're going on 4 years and I think it's seriously time to consider rehoming her.  Its an awful way for her to live and it's really starting to eat at my soul. Every time I walk into the room she shakes, pretty badly.  It makes me feel like a horrible, horrible person and it's seeping into my brain that I am the one that did this to her.  Like I beat her.  It's horrible.  It makes me hate being in my house.

This breaks my heart, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I can relate in a way - our dog (Roman, a rotti) was also a rescue and came from not one but TWO abusive homes. It's made him racist (he hates men of colour between about 16-60 years old, like his abusers) and he never took to me. If he and I are home alone, he'd rather go sleep by himself than in the same room as me. I'm happy because he did take to my wife but it just breaks my heart that he doesn't seem to trust me for some reason.

healz413

1. I had to write back to jeankerricotober09's dog post separately; otherwise my feelings about that would have clouded my full 10 things.

2. Tomorrow is insemination day! I'm nesting again. I bought pork tenderloin at the grocery store. We eat at least 95% vegetarian at home. I don't cook meat. But for some reason it seemed like the right thing to buy today.

3. I'm not looking forward to our early start tomorrow (have to be at the clinic by 6:45 so M can be at work in time for her meeting), but I am excited for IUI #2.

 4. I liked giving M the trigger shot last night. It was a concrete, physical, baby-making job that I got to do. 

5. When we do our ultrasounds for the cycle monitoring, I always look at the monitor while M is getting vagic-wanded so that I will know the follicle numbers and sizes to report to her while we're waiting for the doctor. But yesterday we were in a new ultrasound room and there was no way I could see the screen. I didn't like not getting to do my job. 

6. As M reported on TTC check-in yesterday, my hysteroscopy went well yesterday. I was worried about the pain when I found out they were doing conscious sedation instead of general (my HSG was sooooo painful), but it was fine and when it hurt a lot they gave me more pain meds in my IV (or upped my sedation level or something--it made it better).

7. I was not nauseated after my procedure so I got to eat what I wanted! Cheetos on the way home (to tide me over and make sure that I wasn't going to get nauseated) followed by chicken nuggets for a late lunch. Then M got us wings and cheesy tater tots for dinner.

8. I have put on about 10-15 pounds during the TTC process and the holidays. I would like to do something about that. 

9.  Our Love Party is 5 months exactly from today.

10. I hope that in 5 months people make lots of jokes about it being a "shot gun" love party, because even though I think that's silly (for lots of reasons) it would mean we were pregnant.

mollykelley

healz413:

that.nbsp;9.nbsp; Our Love Party is 5 months exactly from today.10. I hope that in 5 months people make lots of jokes about it being a "shot gun" love party, because even though I think that's silly for lots of reasons it would mean we were pregnant.

Healz and Manada! We are getting married the SAME DAY! June 15, 2013! We had a legal ceremony in Boston with our mutual best friend. This June we are having a traditional ceremony with 100 guests at a resort in Montana over a 3 day weekend! I'm so excited and hope to be sporting a bump by then. I love following your progress, maybe we should be friends on Facebook? PM me!

ball.and.chain

mollykelley:

10. Do I really have to give up coffee if TTC or Pg? That hasn't happened.

Nope.  My RE said up to 200mg of caffeine a day is fine and I believe that is what most OBs recommend as well.

1. I had my post-D&E follow-up appointment with the OB today.  I was nervous but it turns out everything is "back to normal."  I honestly don't know how he can tell since all he did was some kind of swabby thing and a manual exam, but I'm not an OB so what do I know?  I guess I am just used to vag cams all the time.

2. I still don't have my period though, so it feels like time is standing still.  And I can't do my FET until my second period, so it will be a while.

3. My emotional state is much better than it was 5 weeks ago, but I am still having a really hard time with pregnant women.  And I am crazy bitter.

4. My wife bought a new 40" flat screen Smart TV and it arrived today.  She is currently setting it up and is sooo excited.  We have been using a big old TV from the 90s for years because it worked fine and I couldn't wrap my head around the cost of a new one, but she saved up enough Amazon gift cards that we didn't have to pay a cent for it.

5. I started running again this week and so far so good.  I am taking it really easy to start since I haven't run since September, but I feel OK.

6. Tomorrow marks 2 weeks of WW too.  I've been good and I hope I lost a little more.  Not 7 lbs but 1 would be fine!

7. OMG the Smart TV is amazing.  It knows which episodes of 30 Rock we have watched.

8. We are planning a couple of trips, and it is nice to have something fun to look forward to.  We haven't gone anywhere fun for a while, partly because of TTC crap.

9. I am trying to figure out if I think acupuncture is worthwhile for our FET cycle.  The scientific articles I have found are not overwhelmingly positive and that sh!t is expensive.

10. I haven't done TTT in a while.  I made it!

JoySeattle

It's still Tuesday so I'm going to play:

1. Preparing for a road trip while working, taking an online college class and being pregnant is stressful.

2. I went and got a pedicure this evening. It was such a splurge but so relaxing!

3. I'm not sure when to tell my mom. She was supposed to come down tomorrow, but isn't feeling well. Now I'll have to tell her by phone and I'm thinking of waiting until Monday to reduce the odds that she'll tell my sister by phone before I do in person on Tuesday.

4. I'm sad I won't get to tell her in person; I was looking forward to seeing her reaction. But phone is better than her hearing from my sister and feeling like the last to know.

5. I had a total face.book faux pas and a few of my colleagues know I'm pregnant. They were all sweet and said they'd keep it quiet until I intentionally share publicly.

6. Tomorrow is going to be full of errands, appointments and more errands.

7. I'm looking forward to a walk with a friend. She's one of the colleagues that knows now so it will be nice to be able to talk to her about the pregnancy.

8. I'm hoping that will help me sleep tomorrow night before a long day, including our first day of driving and no nap, on Thursday.

9. I'm going to miss my dog. I've left him for longer periods before, but for some reason I'm feeling more sensitive about leaving him this time.

10. Hopefully I'll sleep well tonight since we're waking up early tomorrow so C can get out early for our second home birth midwife consult. Off to bed!