PPD coming back?

Ewoods2911

Hi everyone! I used to be on the bump boards a while ago under a different e-mail address and always found such good support here. I have never visited this board before but I feel I have to now. I was diagnosed with PPD right after the birth of my second daughter last August 2011. I was put on anit-depressants and was on them for just shy of a year. I felt so much better so I took myself off of them this past July. I felt okay for the first couple of months I was off of them but lately, things have been bad. I have horrible, extreme anxiety and am angry all of the time. I have zero patience for my kids and have days where I wish they weren't here. Then I feel so guilty for feeling that way because I know I'd be just lost if something ever happened to them. The littlest things overwhelm me and I just can't stand myself. The past 6 months have been rough anyways with my husband and I both losing our jobs earlier in the year and then my husband struggling to find a permanent job. Then I decided to add to the chaos and go back to school in December for cosmetology. At first I though the way I was feeling was just stress from all of the changes and everything. But now I feel so out of control, I'm thinking it's more. Could my PPD be coming back? Or is it just regular depression? I don't want to feel this way anymore but I don't even know wher to begin to get help.  Any advice is so appreciated!