Sylvie's angelversary is on Sunday. It is so difficult to believe that it has been almost a year. The day we got home from the hospital after Sylvie's birth I began keeping a journal. Writing to Sylvie helped me tremendously with the grief process. I've been afraid to look back at the first few entries. Tonight I decided to read them. With a cat on my lap, the tv on mute, and DH holding my hand I read aloud the entry from the first day post-loss. Wow. It was difficult and emotional but I am thankful that I wrote it and have the reminders from our experience. I didn't think I would ever forget anything about that day but it is interesting how only certain parts of the experience make their way to the front of your memory and how others fade.
No real point to this post other than I wanted to share.