I was diagnosed with chronic depression 3 years ago after a few suicidal thoughts and plans of it. I was put on lexapro and then changed to Pristiq because of nausea. When I got pregnant I stopped taking the medicine but realized that I wasn't feeling depressed or sad often at all.
There have been a few moments of hysterical crying (which I thought was just baby blues) but along with that there are all those bad thoughts I remember having 9 months ago. no suicidal thoughts or actions, but I just feel like I'm starting to hate myself again... I feel like my daughter would be better off without me and I am just a horrible person.
My c-section went fine and I was great (minus the pain) until about a week ago.. when I was just suddenly started completely doubting my ability , I figured it was just baby blues but I constantly feel like I'm not fit..
Could it be possible that my chronic depression has mixed with my hormones and become ppd?