When I was pregnant with my son I would cry to DH balling, scared to death that I would resent my son cause I'd miss my old life too much when it was just me & DH...now that he's here & he's 8 weeks old I feel so stupid & silly for even worrying about it or even entertaining the idea....and I've come to learn there is only ONE thing I miss about pre-kids life...being able to run out the door at any given time in 10 minutes or less... now add an hour to that! But even that my son makes it TOTALLY worth it! Did anybody else have those prebaby worries??
And another thing I've learned all the cheesy/corny things friends with kids use to tell me..."kids make life worth living" etc.. Now I totally get it...I love my son so incredibly much...I didn't think it was possible to love somebody this much! I just feel like my heart is going to burst with love for him...
Re: Feel really silly for even worrying about it!
That's so sweet!
Isn't it funny how you can't truly understand it until you're a parent? Kinda makes you annoyed that friends with kids and all their obnoxious one-liners were right, hey?
I was never super upset that my life was going to change because we waited until I was ready to have my life change to have kids (which meant waiting until age 34 to TTC and then 36 to have our first). However, I was so not prepared for the depth of the love that I had for my son when he was born. I mean, I knew I would love him, but the love I feel for him is overwhelming at times and I marvel at the fact that I actually felt like I had to be prepared to "give up" my prior life. I now live with the regret of not having children sooner, I really wish I hadn't waited.
With DD, the feeling wasn't as overwhelming because I knew how much I was going to love her. But, I love her just as much as her brother.
So yes, I totally get where you are coming from and believe me it only gets better. I am in absolute awe of DS as he is learning to talk and exploring his world. Doesn't mean I don't want to kill him at times because he is testing his boundaries, but there have been several nights when after the kids are asleep, I say to my husband "I love our kids so much!"