Well today marks 38 wks 4 days that Sydney has been gone, she was here with me the exact amount of time. Tomorrow she will have been gone longer than she was here and that hurts so much. I have been crying all morning. I know it is just a number to others but to me that was all I had was those 38 wks 4 days with my sweet baby. This sucks and isn't fair. I am not even sure that anyone else in my family even realizes this. DH gets sad but he isn't one to think of numbers. He wouldn't think of this like I do. He misses her but it truly is different for men.