PhillyGal?

gollywollypog

Any update on your little one?  Lots of us here are thinking of you and your sweet boy! 

Bemyselfandi

Agreed.

bellag8212

I hope all is well!

babyike

T&Ps for you and baby boy  Hope everything is going well for you both!

bsschroeder

KLilley:

Any update on your little one?  Lots of us here are thinking of you and your sweet boy! 

 

FYI, saw this on BF board and thought i remembered someone asking about her recently..

 https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/66660318.aspx

PhillyGal34

Sorry guys!! (and thanks bs for letting me know about this, I missed it!) 

 

I'm up pumping,,,, you'll all get to enjoy these 3:30 am feeds too ;-) Evan is doing great. He's been putting on weight and is up to 3 lbs 8 oz as of yesterday. We've started letting him explore breast feeding and he seems to know what to do but doesn't have the strength to do it yet. It's only a matter of time though.  They are thinking of trying to let him regulate his own temp today or tomorrow and if so he'll be out of the isolette! 

 

Im doing well, yesterday was tough not having him home for fathers day. Every day is a little easier because I know it's one day closer to him coming home.  But it's still hard. Physically I feel "normal" and like I was never pregnant. Which is a weird feeling.  

 

Ill try to keep you all posted more often but if I miss a message and someone can let me know that's great.  It's hard to read all the posts about pregnancy when I keep thinking "that should be me" ... Im so happy for you all and wish the best for you all but I still struggle with feeling ripped off a lot. I barely got to feel him kick before it all ended. I never got my big pregnancy belly. I will never see his foot come through my belly or feel his hiccups.  Dh doesn't think he wants anymore kids because he's horrified I'll be hospitalized again and we will end up in nicu again so I may never get to experience those things.  So im sort of mourning the loss of my pregnancy if that makes sense. Don't get me wrong. Holding my son makes it all worth it but I struggle. So if I'm not around a lot that's why.  It's also tough to see people complain about being pregnant when I wish I could still be. 

Sorry if this was a bit of a downer :-( we really are both doing awesome and I will keep you updated and try to post on my good days because I think of you all frequently!!!