~?*??*?~Ladies In Waiting Check In~?*??*?~

buckeyebaby814

rachaelhudson:

Update: waiting, waiting, waiting.Waiting on test results, waiting on endometrial biopsy, waiting to TTC. My moods are really up and down lately.So down that I'm considering going bck to therapy. Not that it's a bad thing. Ikm actually in grad school for counseling so I believe in therapy anyway. Blahhhhh. That's how I feel. 

QOTD: I worked a double and didn't pay much attn to today. I did make myself reach out to a few friends and be honest about my sadness and anger bc I've been trying to hold it in and be strong I guess. Grief is tricky.  

Sorry you're feeling down  Big ::HUGS:: 

buckeyebaby814

s.alarie:

DS Mentioned 

Update: I'm waiting to test. Gatorbaby, Daylights, cg and Nikki: looks like we are all cycle buddies. BFPB hopefully?!?! I'm 7DPO, so **hopefully** I can hold out until at least 10DPO. If history repeats, however, I'll be testing in a day or 2. : /

 

QOTD: I had a nice Mother's Day. I did not get to sleep in (DH had just returned from the west coast late the previous night, so he got to sleep late). I did nap though, and he deep cleaned the house. In the evening we had a nice dinner with friends in DC.

Good luck this cycle!! 

buckeyebaby814

MeganS313:

buckeyebaby814:

MeganS313:

*** ds mentioned** Update: still TTA until AF shows up. Since my dr removed the large clot, my bleeding has become more brown and mucousy so I'm hoping that's a step in the right direction. I have another beta draw on tuesday and a thyroid panel since I have a strong family history. Also since bf DS for 1 year my cycles have been kinda wonky so checking thyroid as a precaution. My betas were 98 last week so since we removed the large clot we have our fx for zero. QOTD: I had mixed emotions today. I was sad for my loss of baby but overjoyed to spend the day with my DS. We had planned on telling extended family (aunts,uncles etc) today as I should have been 10.5 weeks so that put a damper on things. Overall it was a good day and reminded me to be thankful for what I have.

I hope your OB removing the clot did the trick.  When do you go back for betas? 

Going on Tuesday am for blood work.

I hope it comes back at or close to zero! 

buckeyebaby814

besoul:

Hi,

I'm new to the ladies in waiting check-in. DH and I are actively TTC at this point ( CD 9). I'm using OPK, so I'm waiting for the smiley face to appear!

Mother's Day was pretty good for me. To be honest, the anticipation of the day was much worse that the actual day. I had a nice brunch with family, no one mentioned my losses or acknowledged me as a mother. And honestly? I'm okay with that. It actually made the day a little more normal. 

(((HUGS))).

Welcome to LIW!  Good luck TTCAL this cycle  

buckeyebaby814

kwilson158:

AF finally arrived for me last week....Now hubby and I are now able to TTC....Just going to see what happens...

My Mother's Day was good....I did really good until I logged on to FB and the first post was a "see what I get for Mother's Day...and it was a picture of a Postive Pregnancy Test"

Talk about a punch in the gut...

Yuck on the fb post.  I've blocked 99% of women in reproductive age!

buckeyebaby814

ktsnshn:

Hi ladies! My update is that I am 8dpo today. I am waiting to test until I am 14 dpo, so I am hoping AF does not show up before the weekend. I am using progesterone suppositories and so I have had MF symptoms since I started them. Today I go in for my cd21 testing and I am keeping my fingers crossed for good numbers! QOTD: After a rough week, I had a really nice day yesterday. We had brunch with my side of the family and the a quiet afternoon at home. My DH did a great job of pampering me and made a yummy dinner on the grill.

Did you get your results back yet?  I hope they were good- keep us updated  

buckeyebaby814

Sterling13:

Hi LIW! I ducked out of the LIW check in last cycle because we weren't really trying for a month, but now I'm starting the 2WW and I know it's going to be a rough one. I finally feel like I'm ready for a baby for the first time since our loss. I'm still scared, but scared is finally outweighed by this other peaceful feeling. Needless to say, I really hope this is our cycle! So let the waiting begin!

 QOTD: My mother's day went fine. Like BEB, I got to enjoy the company of some amazing other ladies on Saturday, and that experience was wonderful. Sunday was blah, but nothing good or bad really happened. I guess I'm glad it just came and went. 

Hi!!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad you're TTCAL again... your chart has been making me sad though... hard to chart stalk  

buckeyebaby814

Smootiepie:

I *think* I Oed yesterday, so I guess I'm back in the dreaded 2WW...

QOTD:  I got to spend the day with my mom (who lives 6 hours away) and my grandma (who lives 14 hours away), so I was way too happy being able to spend time with the 2 of them to focus on sad I am, which I will be eternally grateful for!

I'm glad you had a good time visting with your mom and grandma! 

buckeyebaby814

Bethelgal42:

Buckeye, it sounds like you had a great weekend with friends.  My husband would have love to have an excuse to go to Ohio.  I wonder if there are any Northern Indiana people on here.  I hope af shows up for you quickly.

 Good luck to everyone in their 2ww. :0)  Sending you prayers and happy baby dust.

Update: My af finally decided to show up on Wednesday. It's nice to have a new start and to finally feel some sort of "normal" again. Now, we get to TTC again after it's over.  I'm nervous, excited about that.  We are meeting this week with a friend from college that lost a baby at 10 weeks in February.  It will be nice to talk to someone IRL that is going through the same thing, but it's probably going to be very hard.  It could be healing too though.

Question of the day:  How was your Mother?s Day? 
Sunday was rough.  I should be nearing the third trimester of the first or about 13 weeks for the second and possibly announcing to our families on Mother's Day that we were expecting.  Instead, I'm looking at 2 losses since Christmas and in the middle of af and starting TTC over.  Actually the whole weekend was pretty hard. I knew it was going to be, but I had no idea it would be that hard.  We did go to church and through small group I was "ok", even though there was a newborn (born on Tuesday) in our class.  The small group leader told me Happy Mother's Day, even though he doesn't know about our losses. That was strange.  But once the regular service started and the pastor prayed for all mothers, even those that lost a child, I knew I wasn't going to make it.  I had to go outside and I just lost it.  My DH and I went for a walk around the church through the whole service.  I was completely broken.

After church, I went to work for a few hours then dinner at my moms.  That went well.  My family doesn't know about our losses either and amazingly my mom did not ask us when we were going to have kids.  She usually does.  It was a very emotionally exhausting day.

I knew that I always loved Mercy Me, but I found this song this morning that is completely my thoughts today. So I thought I would share it.
https://youtu.be/vwIloJeilQc

Northern Indiana is not too far from me!  I've driven to Fort Wayne area before and it took about 3.5 hours.  I'm sorry Mother's Day was difficult for you, but I'm glad that nobody asked about you having kids, I hate that question.  ::HUGS:: and thanks for sharing that song!  I also enjoy Mercy Me  

buckeyebaby814

Atleighdan:

I am on CD8 on our last TTA cycle, so anxiously counting down the days until AF arrives again!

QOTD: We went to Cedar Point (an amusement park) for Mother's Day yesterday. We left DS with my in-laws and rode big ol' rollercoasters all day! This worked our really well and I did not see one single big pregnant belly! I was so busy being anxious and excited about the rides, that I hardly thought about what I was missing out on this Mother's Day...no new little one or new pregnancy.

Woo-hoo for last TTA cycle!!  I used to go to Cedar Point all the time growing up, it's about an hour or so from my house  

buckeyebaby814

minicheezburg:

T&P's csuperstar02!

Welcome to any new comers, I hope you find some peace and comfort here.

Update: Still have no clue what the F is going on, no confirmed O and  I may be in the 2WW. My temps look like a crazy rollercoaster. I don't know if it has anything to do with us leaving the window open and it getting down to the high 40's at night or not. Time will tell. I plan to test on May 25th regardless since that is my doctor appointment. I know he will make me test that day because he will probably want to start me on Provera to jump start my cycle.

Question of the day:  Eh DH stayed home from work to be with me but we went to his dad's house and worked on putting the new boat back together we got a lot done but it was not my idea of how I wanted the day to go. The only good thing is for the most part I was occupied.

I definitely don't think you've O'd... have you considered using OPKs (cheap Wondfos)?  It may help some  

buckeyebaby814

Bethelgal42:

buckeyebaby814:

Bethelgal42:

Buckeye, it sounds like you had a great weekend with friends.  My husband would have love to have an excuse to go to Ohio.  I wonder if there are any Northern Indiana people on here.  I hope af shows up for you quickly.

 Good luck to everyone in their 2ww. :0)  Sending you prayers and happy baby dust.

Update: My af finally decided to show up on Wednesday. It's nice to have a new start and to finally feel some sort of "normal" again. Now, we get to TTC again after it's over.  I'm nervous, excited about that.  We are meeting this week with a friend from college that lost a baby at 10 weeks in February.  It will be nice to talk to someone IRL that is going through the same thing, but it's probably going to be very hard.  It could be healing too though.

Question of the day:  How was your Mother?s Day? 
Sunday was rough.  I should be nearing the third trimester of the first or about 13 weeks for the second and possibly announcing to our families on Mother's Day that we were expecting.  Instead, I'm looking at 2 losses since Christmas and in the middle of af and starting TTC over.  Actually the whole weekend was pretty hard. I knew it was going to be, but I had no idea it would be that hard.  We did go to church and through small group I was "ok", even though there was a newborn (born on Tuesday) in our class.  The small group leader told me Happy Mother's Day, even though he doesn't know about our losses. That was strange.  But once the regular service started and the pastor prayed for all mothers, even those that lost a child, I knew I wasn't going to make it.  I had to go outside and I just lost it.  My DH and I went for a walk around the church through the whole service.  I was completely broken.

After church, I went to work for a few hours then dinner at my moms.  That went well.  My family doesn't know about our losses either and amazingly my mom did not ask us when we were going to have kids.  She usually does.  It was a very emotionally exhausting day.

I knew that I always loved Mercy Me, but I found this song this morning that is completely my thoughts today. So I thought I would share it.
https://youtu.be/vwIloJeilQc

Northern Indiana is not too far from me!  I've driven to Fort Wayne area before and it took about 3.5 hours.  I'm sorry Mother's Day was difficult for you, but I'm glad that nobody asked about you having kids, I hate that question.  ::HUGS:: and thanks for sharing that song!  I also enjoy Mercy Me  

I'm about 90 minutes north west of Fort Wayne.  We drive through Fort Wayne sometimes to visit my in-laws in the Lima area.

That would be quite a haul to make it to Ohio then  

buckeyebaby814

Sterling13:

buckeyebaby814:

Sterling13:

Hi LIW! I ducked out of the LIW check in last cycle because we weren't really trying for a month, but now I'm starting the 2WW and I know it's going to be a rough one. I finally feel like I'm ready for a baby for the first time since our loss. I'm still scared, but scared is finally outweighed by this other peaceful feeling. Needless to say, I really hope this is our cycle! So let the waiting begin!

 QOTD: My mother's day went fine. Like BEB, I got to enjoy the company of some amazing other ladies on Saturday, and that experience was wonderful. Sunday was blah, but nothing good or bad really happened. I guess I'm glad it just came and went. 

Hi!!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad you're TTCAL again... your chart has been making me sad though... hard to chart stalk  

Haha! My chart is sad! I think I'll go back to temping next month if this one isn't our BFP cycle. I had just bought a VIP cycle before we took a little break, and had to create this other account so I didn't use all the VIP goodies while we weren't actively TTC.  The only thing on my chart now is the BD marathon we had this month though... Oy, I'm exhausted.

Ha!  The chart in your siggy is different from the ticker on the LIW blog!!!!  Your siggy chart is a lot more stalkable!  What a marathon... it's a wonder you even made it out Saturday

My VIP is gone in 20 days.  When I bought the subscription, I'd also had a few people sign up after clicking on my chart (gives you extra VIP days) so I had about 400 days.  400 freaking days have gone by!  Boooo! 

neesie3173

Soooo....nothing too exciting to report. I haven't been this anxious for AF since high school! Hope she shows up soon so we can get down to business around here!

QOTD: Mother's Day was bittersweet. We were supposed to be making our big announcement, but obviously someone had other plans for us. The family came over for some grilling and removal of the pool cover. All was well until....DH came up behind me for a snuggle and put his hands on my belly. There should have been a nice little bump forming there and that made me sad. 

buckeyebaby814

neesie3173:

Soooo....nothing too exciting to report. I haven't been this anxious for AF since high school! Hope she shows up soon so we can get down to business around here!

QOTD: Mother's Day was bittersweet. We were supposed to be making our big announcement, but obviously someone had other plans for us. The family came over for some grilling and removal of the pool cover. All was well until....DH came up behind me for a snuggle and put his hands on my belly. There should have been a nice little bump forming there and that made me sad. 

Sorry Mother's Day was a little difficult. ::HUGS::

minicheezburg

buckeyebaby814:

minicheezburg:

T&P's csuperstar02!

Welcome to any new comers, I hope you find some peace and comfort here.

Update: Still have no clue what the F is going on, no confirmed O and  I may be in the 2WW. My temps look like a crazy rollercoaster. I don't know if it has anything to do with us leaving the window open and it getting down to the high 40's at night or not. Time will tell. I plan to test on May 25th regardless since that is my doctor appointment. I know he will make me test that day because he will probably want to start me on Provera to jump start my cycle.

Question of the day:  Eh DH stayed home from work to be with me but we went to his dad's house and worked on putting the new boat back together we got a lot done but it was not my idea of how I wanted the day to go. The only good thing is for the most part I was occupied.

I definitely don't think you've O'd... have you considered using OPKs (cheap Wondfos)?  It may help some  

I have in the past used OPK's. We are on a TTC break but not TTA. So OPK's kinda cramps that style. We decided before last cycle to not TTC not TTA til after my appointment on the 25th.

buckeyebaby814

minicheezburg:

buckeyebaby814:

minicheezburg:

T&P's csuperstar02!

Welcome to any new comers, I hope you find some peace and comfort here.

Update: Still have no clue what the F is going on, no confirmed O and  I may be in the 2WW. My temps look like a crazy rollercoaster. I don't know if it has anything to do with us leaving the window open and it getting down to the high 40's at night or not. Time will tell. I plan to test on May 25th regardless since that is my doctor appointment. I know he will make me test that day because he will probably want to start me on Provera to jump start my cycle.

Question of the day:  Eh DH stayed home from work to be with me but we went to his dad's house and worked on putting the new boat back together we got a lot done but it was not my idea of how I wanted the day to go. The only good thing is for the most part I was occupied.

I definitely don't think you've O'd... have you considered using OPKs (cheap Wondfos)?  It may help some  

I have in the past used OPK's. We are on a TTC break but not TTA. So OPK's kinda cramps that style. We decided before last cycle to not TTC not TTA til after my appointment on the 25th.

Oh I knew that!  Sorry  Yeah, OPKs would cramp that style.  BTW- I love your bazinga pic, MH and I love BBT- AKA 'Big Bang Theory" not basal body temp/therm, LOL 

minicheezburg

buckeyebaby814:

minicheezburg:

buckeyebaby814:

minicheezburg:

T&P's csuperstar02!

Welcome to any new comers, I hope you find some peace and comfort here.

Update: Still have no clue what the F is going on, no confirmed O and  I may be in the 2WW. My temps look like a crazy rollercoaster. I don't know if it has anything to do with us leaving the window open and it getting down to the high 40's at night or not. Time will tell. I plan to test on May 25th regardless since that is my doctor appointment. I know he will make me test that day because he will probably want to start me on Provera to jump start my cycle.

Question of the day:  Eh DH stayed home from work to be with me but we went to his dad's house and worked on putting the new boat back together we got a lot done but it was not my idea of how I wanted the day to go. The only good thing is for the most part I was occupied.

I definitely don't think you've O'd... have you considered using OPKs (cheap Wondfos)?  It may help some  

I have in the past used OPK's. We are on a TTC break but not TTA. So OPK's kinda cramps that style. We decided before last cycle to not TTC not TTA til after my appointment on the 25th.

Oh I knew that!  Sorry  Yeah, OPKs would cramp that style.  BTW- I love your bazinga pic, MH and I love BBT- AKA 'Big Bang Theory" not basal body temp/therm, LOL 

I Big Bang theory! I did think Basal body temp at first lol