~?*??*?~Ladies In Waiting Check In~?*??*?~

buckeyebaby814

This check-in is for Monday May 14th.  Please feel free to begin checking in now!

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This is a group designed for all the ladies in the various stages of waiting after a loss: waiting to miscarry, waiting for AF to arrive, waiting to TTC again, and waiting for a BFP.   Since this process is such a true test in patience, it is nice to have the support and friendship of other women going through similar experiences and emotions. 

Check in every Monday and Thursday.

New members: Post an introduction and your current TTC status and I will add you to the list! Welcome :-)

Current members: Post your updates, link to your chart, upcoming appointments, prayer requests, and if you get a BFP, please feel free to post here (along with your EDD). 

There will be a question, a place for prayer request, and an inspirational verse.  We look forward to getting to know you!

 ~buckeyebaby814 & csuperstar02~

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(My faith has played an integral part of this journey. I truly believe in the power of prayer and keeping God at the forefront of this process, so if you have any questions or want to talk please don't hesitate).

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Welcome neesie3173 and amp61470.  I?m sorry for your loss, I hope you find support and comfort here.

NBBride05-  Sorry you had a tough week, I hope you?re doing ok now.  ::HUGS::

MeganS313-  How obnoxious about the doctor?s office mix-up.  I?m glad things went smoothly though.

csuperstar02- Many T&Ps to you for your MRI tomorrow (Monday)- I hope you get some good news! 

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Question of the day:  How was your Mother?s Day?  As difficult a day as this can be, I hope it went ok. 

Also, I found a cool website, an online magazine called Still Standing. This article I linked was really great, check it out if you get a minute! ?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~? 

Inspirational Quote: 

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Inspirational Verse:  

But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure.  Romans 8:25

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buckeyebaby814

Update:  I'm just waiting on AF so we can get this injects cycle started!  I would say I'm expecting AF any day now, but I've been spotting since 3dpo since I'm not taking progesterone (and used no clomid) this cycle.  I do think it'll probably be tomorrow though (my usual start day non-medicated is 9-10dpo).  Then I will get to go in CD 3, 7, 11 for sure then after that it will be based on my response to the injects.  

QOTD:  My Mother's Day went ok.  I was blessed to spend the day with 6 other wonderful ladies (Ohio GTG) which really lifted my spirits.  I hate that loss brought us together, but I am so glad to not be alone.  I stayed home from church this morning and my husband even watched a Lifetime movie with me  That man LOVES me

GatorBaby2012

Update: I'm 6dpo and waiting to test. Planning to test on Thurs at 10dpo. Eeek!

QOTD: I've had better days. I slept in, did laundry, got in a good cry, sushi for lunch, nap time, then reading and watching tv this evening. Kind of a blah day. 

Nikki0514

I don't think I ever properly introduced myself to the check-in. My name is Nicole and my husband and I have suffered 2 miscarriages (twins in 2010 and one in January of this year) along with a chemical pregnancy in July of 2011. We started the process of testing with an RE in Feb. and got diagnosed with FVL. I am a survivor of cancer for 2 years now which is my biggest accomplishment especially only being 29 years old.

Right now we are in the 2ww and at 6po. Today was my last HCG shot. This cycle we increased to 100mg of clomid and had two big follicles (27mm &28mm) so hoping this is our cycle.

 I am sorry that any of us have to be here and my heart goes out to all of you.

Question of the day: How was your Mother?s Day? As difficult a day as this can be, I hope it went ok.

We didn't really celebrate Mothers Day. I called my mom to wish her a happy mothers day. We celebrated with DH mom and sister friday night because he knew today would be hard (we found out we were pregnant with the twins 2 years ago this time). Tomorrow is our first wedding anniversary so we celebrated that last night and are going to dinner tomorrow so just looking forward to that.

killian09

Update: Not much, still waiting, still TTA.  Was having PMS/cramping/spotting on my last couple days of my BCPs, but now that I'm 2 days into the placebos, AF still hasn't arrived.  It's starting to stress me out. I'm worried my body is not working or the BCPs have confused it or who knows what. Trying to decide whether to call my ob/gyn if it doesn't start up before I'm scheduled to start the next pack, or just wait for my appt with her next week and mention it then. Or maybe AF can just come and let me stop worrying.

QOTD: My day was ok.  I was mostly working from home all day, since my DH is at work on a 30-hour shift.   I called my mom to wish her a happy mother's day and she acknowledged that it must be a hard day for me.  I didn't really want to talk about it with her, but it still was good to hear her say that. I went to yoga this evening which was a much-needed distraction.  I've got to get back to work now though--got a deadline today. And a ton of laundry piled up, waiting for me to finish this work.

cg0112358

Update: I'm in the 2ww (6 DPO) and waiting to test. I had some spotting for the past 3 days although it stopped today. I've never spotted this early in my cycle so I don't know what's going on. 

QOTD: My Mother's Day went well. DH was great, he made me breakfast (was supposed to be in bed but I got up way earlier than normal so he was unprepared) and got a wonderful card for me from him and DS. It was really sweet! We just had a nice day at home.

buckeyebaby814

GatorBaby2012:

Update: I'm 6dpo and waiting to test. Planning to test on Thurs at 10dpo. Eeek!

QOTD: I've had better days. I slept in, did laundry, got in a good cry, sushi for lunch, nap time, then reading and watching tv this evening. Kind of a blah day. 

Good luck!  Your chart looks nice... I spy a possible implantation dip? 

buckeyebaby814

daylights1:

I am in the 2WW. Blah.  Anyone else feel like they are here a lot? I would really love to test on 10 DPO but MH will be gone this weekend which means I will be waiting to test on Monday.  I can't imagine knowing without him here and not being able to tell him in person.  This will definitely help prevent me from peeing on things.  

If any of you have any suggestions of really good hobbies or distractions other than the many I've already tried, let me know.  I am sure I'm going to drive myself crazy like always.      

QOTD: My Mother's Day was nice.  We went to church, brunch and then I napped.

Good luck!  You're strong waiting until YH is back!  I pee on all things around 8-9dpo and beyond

buckeyebaby814

Nikki0514:

I don't think I ever properly introduced myself to the check-in. My name is Nicole and my husband and I have suffered 2 miscarriages (twins in 2010 and one in January of this year) along with a chemical pregnancy in July of 2011. We started the process of testing with an RE in Feb. and got diagnosed with FVL. I am a survivor of cancer for 2 years now which is my biggest accomplishment especially only being 29 years old.

Right now we are in the 2ww and at 6po. Today was my last HCG shot. This cycle we increased to 100mg of clomid and had two big follicles (27mm &28mm) so hoping this is our cycle.

 I am sorry that any of us have to be here and my heart goes out to all of you.

Question of the day: How was your Mother?s Day? As difficult a day as this can be, I hope it went ok.

We didn't really celebrate Mothers Day. I called my mom to wish her a happy mothers day. We celebrated with DH mom and sister friday night because he knew today would be hard (we found out we were pregnant with the twins 2 years ago this time). Tomorrow is our first wedding anniversary so we celebrated that last night and are going to dinner tomorrow so just looking forward to that.

Welcome to LIW, although I so sorry for all you've been through.  I hope this treatment cycle brings you success! 

buckeyebaby814

killian09:

Update: Not much, still waiting, still TTA.  Was having PMS/cramping/spotting on my last couple days of my BCPs, but now that I'm 2 days into the placebos, AF still hasn't arrived.  It's starting to stress me out. I'm worried my body is not working or the BCPs have confused it or who knows what. Trying to decide whether to call my ob/gyn if it doesn't start up before I'm scheduled to start the next pack, or just wait for my appt with her next week and mention it then. Or maybe AF can just come and let me stop worrying.

QOTD: My day was ok.  I was mostly working from home all day, since my DH is at work on a 30-hour shift.   I called my mom to wish her a happy mother's day and she acknowledged that it must be a hard day for me.  I didn't really want to talk about it with her, but it still was good to hear her say that. I went to yoga this evening which was a much-needed distraction.  I've got to get back to work now though--got a deadline today. And a ton of laundry piled up, waiting for me to finish this work.

I had to go on BCPs Christmas Eve for heavy bleeding 10+ days.  I didn't get my period until 4 days or so after my last active pill, HTH.

I'm glad today went ok for you. 

buckeyebaby814

cg0112358:

Update: I'm in the 2ww (6 DPO) and waiting to test. I had some spotting for the past 3 days although it stopped today. I've never spotted this early in my cycle so I don't know what's going on. 

QOTD: My Mother's Day went well. DH was great, he made me breakfast (was supposed to be in bed but I got up way earlier than normal so he was unprepared) and got a wonderful card for me from him and DS. It was really sweet! We just had a nice day at home.

Good luck this cycle- IB maybe? 

imwithrebel

I finally started after Provera! I am currently on CD5. This round we are repeating Clomid 100 mg + Ovidrel + Timed Intercourse + Prometrium since I had a great response last time and it technically worked. My next appointment is on Wednesday. I am very anxious to see if I have any follicles and to talk to the doctor about late implantation. I'm also having a thrombophilia panel drawn due to blood clotting disorders that run in my family.

QOTD: Honestly the days leading up to Mothers Day have been harder on me because that's when I saw more advertisements and such. Now that it's here, it seems the advertisers have moved on to graduation. My husband worked today, so I woke up this morning to surprise flowers from him in the bathroom. It was really sweet since I didn't expect him to acknowledge it in any way. Hopefully next year will be a much happier experience.

GatorBaby2012

buckeyebaby814:

GatorBaby2012:

Update: I'm 6dpo and waiting to test. Planning to test on Thurs at 10dpo. Eeek!

QOTD: I've had better days. I slept in, did laundry, got in a good cry, sushi for lunch, nap time, then reading and watching tv this evening. Kind of a blah day. 

Good luck!  Your chart looks nice... I spy a possible implantation dip? 

I hope so!  

JennOH85

Update: I've been MIA lately as school finishes up, but DH and I are still waiting to get off the TTA bench. Because of my new job situation/insurance, I can't afford to TTC for awhile, which is the most frustrating thing in the world. I hate the finances get to even have a say in this process, but that's life, I suppose.

Buckeyebaby, I hope AF shows up soon so you can get this injects cycle started! You've got a pretty wonderful guy if he was even willing to watch a lifetime movie with you!

Gatorbaby, Daylights, cg and Nikki: I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you ladies this cycle!! 

Killian, I hope AF shows up already so you can stop worrying!

QOTD: Today has been pretty decidedly awful for me. To make it worse, based on temps and CM, FF moved my crosshairs from CD11 to CD 17, which means we definitely BD'ed during my FW if that's when it was (I didn't do OPKs this cycle), but did some pull-and-pray action because we're TTA. But my crazy brain convinces me there might be a chance. So, like an idiot, I POAS and (no surprise!) it's a BFN. (so many acronyms! lol) On mother's day. Why do I torture myself like this? I don't know, but I do know I need another beer I'm sorry to be such a debbie-downer. 

buckeyebaby814

imwithrebel:

I finally started after Provera! I am currently on CD5. This round we are repeating Clomid 100 mg + Ovidrel + Timed Intercourse + Prometrium since I had a great response last time and it technically worked. My next appointment is on Wednesday. I am very anxious to see if I have any follicles and to talk to the doctor about late implantation. I'm also having a thrombophilia panel drawn due to blood clotting disorders that run in my family.

QOTD: Honestly the days leading up to Mothers Day have been harder on me because that's when I saw more advertisements and such. Now that it's here, it seems the advertisers have moved on to graduation. My husband worked today, so I woke up this morning to surprise flowers from him in the bathroom. It was really sweet since I didn't expect him to acknowledge it in any way. Hopefully next year will be a much happier experience.

Glad to hear AF finally came!  Good luck with your treatment cycle  I am also happy to hear your Mother's Day went ok, what a sweet surprise from your husband. 

buckeyebaby814

JennOH85:

Update: I've been MIA lately as school finishes up, but DH and I are still waiting to get off the TTA bench. Because of my new job situation/insurance, I can't afford to TTC for awhile, which is the most frustrating thing in the world. I hate the finances get to even have a say in this process, but that's life, I suppose.

Buckeyebaby, I hope AF shows up soon so you can get this injects cycle started! You've got a pretty wonderful guy if he was even willing to watch a lifetime movie with you!

Gatorbaby, Daylights, cg and Nikki: I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you ladies this cycle!! 

Killian, I hope AF shows up already so you can stop worrying!

QOTD: Today has been pretty decidedly awful for me. To make it worse, based on temps and CM, FF moved my crosshairs from CD11 to CD 17, which means we definitely BD'ed during my FW if that's when it was (I didn't do OPKs this cycle), but did some pull-and-pray action because we're TTA. But my crazy brain convinces me there might be a chance. So, like an idiot, I POAS and (no surprise!) it's a BFN. (so many acronyms! lol) On mother's day. Why do I torture myself like this? I don't know, but I do know I need another beer I'm sorry to be such a debbie-downer. 

Sorry your day didn't go to well  ::HUGS:: 

imwithrebel

killian09:

I'm 2 days into the placebos, AF still hasn't arrived.  It's starting to stress me out. I'm worried my body is not working or the BCPs have confused it or who knows what. Trying to decide whether to call my ob/gyn if it doesn't start up before I'm scheduled to start the next pack, or just wait for my appt with her next week and mention it then. Or maybe AF can just come and let me stop worrying.

QOTD: My day was ok.  I was mostly working from home all day, since my DH is at work on a 30-hour shift.

I would call just to give you peace of mind. If you don't call, you'll probably continue to worry about it. You also don't want to risk it being something important. I think everyone at my RE knows me by name because I've called so many times - and I'm only starting my second cycle there!

What does your husband do? My husband's an EMT, so I know what those long shifts are like. My DH has been working today too.

paisleybaby33

Update: Still waiting on AF. Today is CD 33 and zero sign of anything. I will probably call my OB tomorrow to see when she will let me induce AF with Provera and get things rolling again. I am dealing with a lot of anger right now at my body and am damn frustrated that from what it seems like, Clomid did not make me O this month. Just yet another let down. I know that it may very well be due to the fact that I had 2 surgeries under total anesthesia, was on boat loads of pain meds and endured 6 rounds of antibiotics, but still. I'm pissed at my body, pissed at my luck. I'm sick of being the exception.

QOTD: My highlight this weekend was getting to meet six other amazing TTCAL women for our Ohio GTG. As unfortunate as it was for our circumstances to bring us together, I feel blessed to know and have met these women IRL. Today was okay. I had a few mini-cries and was in a sad mood all day, but nothing too awful. DH knew today was going to be rough and held me this morning and whispered in my ear, "I am so sorry we don't have our take home baby yet. It breaks my heart, but I promise you, no matter what we have to do, you will have that one day." And for my DH, this was big. Cue, sobs. 

imwithrebel

JennOH85:

.But my crazy brain convinces me there might be a chance. So, like an idiot, I POAS and (no surprise!) it's a BFN. (so many acronyms! lol) On mother's day. Why do I torture myself like this? I don't know, but I do know I need another beer I'm sorry to be such a debbie-downer. 

That's why I've kept a stash of HPT since we got married. It didn't matter how unlikely it was (only protected sex, just finished my period - you name it), if I got the notion that it might be positive, I knew I'd go crazy. After a few times of insanity and crazy runs to Walmart, we started keeping a stash so that I could take one whenever the notion struck. Oddly that helped keep the craziness down because I'd see the negative before I could get too worked up about it.

I'm sorry you're having to TTA and struggling right now. I hope things turn around soon!

killian09

imwithrebel:

killian09:

I'm 2 days into the placebos, AF still hasn't arrived.  It's starting to stress me out. I'm worried my body is not working or the BCPs have confused it or who knows what. Trying to decide whether to call my ob/gyn if it doesn't start up before I'm scheduled to start the next pack, or just wait for my appt with her next week and mention it then. Or maybe AF can just come and let me stop worrying.

QOTD: My day was ok.  I was mostly working from home all day, since my DH is at work on a 30-hour shift.

I would call just to give you peace of mind. If you don't call, you'll probably continue to worry about it. You also don't want to risk it being something important. I think everyone at my RE knows me by name because I've called so many times - and I'm only starting my second cycle there!

What does your husband do? My husband's an EMT, so I know what those long shifts are like. My DH has been working today too.

Thanks BEB, Jenn and imwithrebel for the thoughts on the BCPs.  I would just wait it out, but I'm supposed to start the next pack, so I guess I'll call on Monday or Tuesday if AF still hasn't shown up.  I am SO FRUSTRATED with my body right now.  It can't seem to get anything right.

Imwithrebel--my husband is in medicine too.  He's a resident (surgeon-in-training). He works crazy hours--usually 90/week.  He's got a couple lighter years ahead starting in July, so we were trying to have a baby and take advantage of his time, but one of those years is already shot.  Sigh.  After those two years, he has two more crazy ones before his training is over. (It's a 7 year program...) Hope you weren't too lonely today! The long shifts can be hard.  I usually hit my lowest points emotionally when my DH works the overnight shifts. When he's home, he keeps me steady, somehow.

MeganS313

*** ds mentioned** Update: still TTA until AF shows up. Since my dr removed the large clot, my bleeding has become more brown and mucousy so I'm hoping that's a step in the right direction. I have another beta draw on tuesday and a thyroid panel since I have a strong family history. Also since bf DS for 1 year my cycles have been kinda wonky so checking thyroid as a precaution. My betas were 98 last week so since we removed the large clot we have our fx for zero. QOTD: I had mixed emotions today. I was sad for my loss of baby but overjoyed to spend the day with my DS. We had planned on telling extended family (aunts,uncles etc) today as I should have been 10.5 weeks so that put a damper on things. Overall it was a good day and reminded me to be thankful for what I have.

buckeyebaby814

paisleybaby33:

Update: Still waiting on AF. Today is CD 33 and zero sign of anything. I will probably call my OB tomorrow to see when she will let me induce AF with Provera and get things rolling again. I am dealing with a lot of anger right now at my body and am damn frustrated that from what it seems like, Clomid did not make me O this month. Just yet another let down. I know that it may very well be due to the fact that I had 2 surgeries under total anesthesia, was on boat loads of pain meds and endured 6 rounds of antibiotics, but still. I'm pissed at my body, pissed at my luck. I'm sick of being the exception.

QOTD: My highlight this weekend was getting to meet six other amazing TTCAL women for our Ohio GTG. As unfortunate as it was for our circumstances to bring us together, I feel blessed to know and have met these women IRL. Today was okay. I had a few mini-cries and was in a sad mood all day, but nothing too awful. DH knew today was going to be rough and held me this morning and whispered in my ear, "I am so sorry we don't have our take home baby yet. It breaks my heart, but I promise you, no matter what we have to do, you will have that one day." And for my DH, this was big. Cue, sobs. 

Sorry things aren't working out for you right now  Your husband sounds so sweet though  

buckeyebaby814

MeganS313:

*** ds mentioned** Update: still TTA until AF shows up. Since my dr removed the large clot, my bleeding has become more brown and mucousy so I'm hoping that's a step in the right direction. I have another beta draw on tuesday and a thyroid panel since I have a strong family history. Also since bf DS for 1 year my cycles have been kinda wonky so checking thyroid as a precaution. My betas were 98 last week so since we removed the large clot we have our fx for zero. QOTD: I had mixed emotions today. I was sad for my loss of baby but overjoyed to spend the day with my DS. We had planned on telling extended family (aunts,uncles etc) today as I should have been 10.5 weeks so that put a damper on things. Overall it was a good day and reminded me to be thankful for what I have.

I hope your OB removing the clot did the trick.  When do you go back for betas? 

mikeANDjen448

I am waiting to O on *hopefully* the last cycle w/o meds again....  In the meantime, DH and I are taking advantage of this cycle and TTC on our own.  If we get a BFN then next cycle we start Femara if I don't have another cyst like this time.  My cycles are just so wonky and since my second MC I tend to have less and less fertile CM so predicting O has become incredibly hard  

QOTD:  Today was ok.  We went to church this morning and it difficult because they brought up families with newborns/toddlers......  Then we went to lunch with both sets of parents and that was nice.  Both my mom and MIL actually got ME soemthing (but they know how sensitive I am so they said they were just "housewarming gifts" but it still felt so good to be the one walking away with flowers and candles! lol

imwithrebel

killian09:

Thanks BEB, Jenn and imwithrebel for the thoughts on the BCPs.  I would just wait it out, but I'm supposed to start the next pack, so I guess I'll call on Monday or Tuesday if AF still hasn't shown up.  I am SO FRUSTRATED with my body right now.  It can't seem to get anything right.

Imwithrebel--my husband is in medicine too.  He's a resident (surgeon-in-training). He works crazy hours--usually 90/week.  He's got a couple lighter years ahead starting in July, so we were trying to have a baby and take advantage of his time, but one of those years is already shot.  Sigh.  After those two years, he has two more crazy ones before his training is over. (It's a 7 year program...) Hope you weren't too lonely today! The long shifts can be hard.  I usually hit my lowest points emotionally when my DH works the overnight shifts. When he's home, he keeps me steady, somehow.

A miscarriage really does throw your body off. This shocked me too - I wouldn't have expected it to mess things up since I lost mine so early. I expected it to be more like my CP (nothing notably different), but it is completely different. I hope your body gets everything sorted out soon!

My husband sticks to the on 24/off 48 fireman schedule, so I think having a routine helps make it easier. I make sure to watch shows and eat things he doesn't like. But I hate it when he trades shifts and I'm alone for 2+ days, he comes home for a day, then has to go back again. And I understand on the timing thing too. I'm a teacher, so we started trying so the baby would be perfectly timed to have my maternity leave run into summer break. Now we're entering our second summer with no baby and I'm just hoping it will come, regardless of when in the year it's born.

QuigleyCat1

Finally decided last week that we'll TTC again starting immediately! So we have been BDing and I'm waiting to O. I'm excited and hopeful. 

QOTD: I had a nice day with DH, ds and our parents. I received some lovely and  sentimental gifts. We had a cookout and spent the day outside. It was beautiful here in NE Ohio!

NBBride05

Update: Waiting for my fertile window!

QOTD: I made it through pretty well. The days leading up were worse. Started off the day a little teary eyed....then cried a little when we got to the restaurant...after a trip to the restroom I pulled it together and was fine the rest of the day. Had a nice brunch and then spent most of the day with my mom. The rose bush I planted to honor my LO has 8 buds so it is going to burst into color this week or next I think....I am looking at it as a belated Mother's Day present from my LO. DH had to go to the airport after brunch so he could go see his mom. He will be back on Thursday. 

buckeyebaby814

imwithrebel:

killian09:

Thanks BEB, Jenn and imwithrebel for the thoughts on the BCPs.  I would just wait it out, but I'm supposed to start the next pack, so I guess I'll call on Monday or Tuesday if AF still hasn't shown up.  I am SO FRUSTRATED with my body right now.  It can't seem to get anything right.

Imwithrebel--my husband is in medicine too.  He's a resident (surgeon-in-training). He works crazy hours--usually 90/week.  He's got a couple lighter years ahead starting in July, so we were trying to have a baby and take advantage of his time, but one of those years is already shot.  Sigh.  After those two years, he has two more crazy ones before his training is over. (It's a 7 year program...) Hope you weren't too lonely today! The long shifts can be hard.  I usually hit my lowest points emotionally when my DH works the overnight shifts. When he's home, he keeps me steady, somehow.

A miscarriage really does throw your body off. This shocked me too - I wouldn't have expected it to mess things up since I lost mine so early. I expected it to be more like my CP (nothing notably different), but it is completely different. I hope your body gets everything sorted out soon!

My husband sticks to the on 24/off 48 fireman schedule, so I think having a routine helps make it easier. I make sure to watch shows and eat things he doesn't like. But I hate it when he trades shifts and I'm alone for 2+ days, he comes home for a day, then has to go back again. And I understand on the timing thing too. I'm a teacher, so we started trying so the baby would be perfectly timed to have my maternity leave run into summer break. Now we're entering our second summer with no baby and I'm just hoping it will come, regardless of when in the year it's born.

I just realized you and I both have been TTC since August 2010... 2 years is creeping up on us both  ::HUGS:: 

buckeyebaby814

mikeANDjen448:

I am waiting to O on *hopefully* the last cycle w/o meds again....  In the meantime, DH and I are taking advantage of this cycle and TTC on our own.  If we get a BFN then next cycle we start Femara if I don't have another cyst like this time.  My cycles are just so wonky and since my second MC I tend to have less and less fertile CM so predicting O has become incredibly hard  

QOTD:  Today was ok.  We went to church this morning and it difficult because they brought up families with newborns/toddlers......  Then we went to lunch with both sets of parents and that was nice.  Both my mom and MIL actually got ME soemthing (but they know how sensitive I am so they said they were just "housewarming gifts" but it still felt so good to be the one walking away with flowers and candles! lol

Sorry your cycle has not been very predictable  Fx you don't need to move onto a femara cycle. 

buckeyebaby814

QuigleyCat1:

Finally decided last week that we'll TTC again starting immediately! So we have been BDing and I'm waiting to O. I'm excited and hopeful. 

QOTD: I had a nice day with DH, ds and our parents. I received some lovely and  sentimental gifts. We had a cookout and spent the day outside. It was beautiful here in NE Ohio!

Yea!!!  Fx this cycle

Yes it was a beautiful day in NE Ohio!  I'm a little irritated with myself for not going outside, but Lifetime sucked me in  

buckeyebaby814

NBBride05:

Update: Waiting for my fertile window!

QOTD: I made it through pretty well. The days leading up were worse. Started off the day a little teary eyed....then cried a little when we got to the restaurant...after a trip to the restroom I pulled it together and was fine the rest of the day. Had a nice brunch and then spent most of the day with my mom. The rose bush I planted to honor my LO has 8 buds so it is going to burst into color this week or next I think....I am looking at it as a belated Mother's Day present from my LO. DH had to go to the airport after brunch so he could go see his mom. He will be back on Thursday. 

Sorry your day was a little rough... ::HUGS::   

Rachaeleigh

Update: waiting, waiting, waiting.Waiting on test results, waiting on endometrial biopsy, waiting to TTC. My moods are really up and down lately.So down that I'm considering going bck to therapy. Not that it's a bad thing. Ikm actually in grad school for counseling so I believe in therapy anyway. Blahhhhh. That's how I feel. 

QOTD: I worked a double and didn't pay much attn to today. I did make myself reach out to a few friends and be honest about my sadness and anger bc I've been trying to hold it in and be strong I guess. Grief is tricky.  

s.alarie

DS Mentioned 

Update: I'm waiting to test. Gatorbaby, Daylights, cg and Nikki: looks like we are all cycle buddies. BFPB hopefully?!?! I'm 7DPO, so **hopefully** I can hold out until at least 10DPO. If history repeats, however, I'll be testing in a day or 2. : /

 

QOTD: I had a nice Mother's Day. I did not get to sleep in (DH had just returned from the west coast late the previous night, so he got to sleep late). I did nap though, and he deep cleaned the house. In the evening we had a nice dinner with friends in DC.

MeganS313

buckeyebaby814:

MeganS313:

*** ds mentioned** Update: still TTA until AF shows up. Since my dr removed the large clot, my bleeding has become more brown and mucousy so I'm hoping that's a step in the right direction. I have another beta draw on tuesday and a thyroid panel since I have a strong family history. Also since bf DS for 1 year my cycles have been kinda wonky so checking thyroid as a precaution. My betas were 98 last week so since we removed the large clot we have our fx for zero. QOTD: I had mixed emotions today. I was sad for my loss of baby but overjoyed to spend the day with my DS. We had planned on telling extended family (aunts,uncles etc) today as I should have been 10.5 weeks so that put a damper on things. Overall it was a good day and reminded me to be thankful for what I have.

I hope your OB removing the clot did the trick.  When do you go back for betas? 

Going on Tuesday am for blood work.

besoul

Hi,

I'm new to the ladies in waiting check-in. DH and I are actively TTC at this point ( CD 9). I'm using OPK, so I'm waiting for the smiley face to appear!

Mother's Day was pretty good for me. To be honest, the anticipation of the day was much worse that the actual day. I had a nice brunch with family, no one mentioned my losses or acknowledged me as a mother. And honestly? I'm okay with that. It actually made the day a little more normal. 

(((HUGS))).

kwilson158

AF finally arrived for me last week....Now hubby and I are now able to TTC....Just going to see what happens...

My Mother's Day was good....I did really good until I logged on to FB and the first post was a "see what I get for Mother's Day...and it was a picture of a Postive Pregnancy Test"

Talk about a punch in the gut...

ktsnshn

Hi ladies! My update is that I am 8dpo today. I am waiting to test until I am 14 dpo, so I am hoping AF does not show up before the weekend. I am using progesterone suppositories and so I have had MF symptoms since I started them. Today I go in for my cd21 testing and I am keeping my fingers crossed for good numbers! QOTD: After a rough week, I had a really nice day yesterday. We had brunch with my side of the family and the a quiet afternoon at home. My DH did a great job of pampering me and made a yummy dinner on the grill.

Smootiepie

I *think* I Oed yesterday, so I guess I'm back in the dreaded 2WW...

QOTD:  I got to spend the day with my mom (who lives 6 hours away) and my grandma (who lives 14 hours away), so I was way too happy being able to spend time with the 2 of them to focus on sad I am, which I will be eternally grateful for!

JennOH85

imwithrebel:

JennOH85:

.But my crazy brain convinces me there might be a chance. So, like an idiot, I POAS and (no surprise!) it's a BFN. (so many acronyms! lol) On mother's day. Why do I torture myself like this? I don't know, but I do know I need another beer I'm sorry to be such a debbie-downer. 

That's why I've kept a stash of HPT since we got married. It didn't matter how unlikely it was (only protected sex, just finished my period - you name it), if I got the notion that it might be positive, I knew I'd go crazy. After a few times of insanity and crazy runs to Walmart, we started keeping a stash so that I could take one whenever the notion struck. Oddly that helped keep the craziness down because I'd see the negative before I could get too worked up about it.

I'm sorry you're having to TTA and struggling right now. I hope things turn around soon!

I'm glad I'm not the only one, Rebel! I especially could relate to the part where you said "it didn't matter how unlikely" because, yep, my brain will absolutely play tricks on my every time.  Hope you're having a good day, dear! and ((hugs)) again to al the LIW!

Atleighdan

I am on CD8 on our last TTA cycle, so anxiously counting down the days until AF arrives again!

QOTD: We went to Cedar Point (an amusement park) for Mother's Day yesterday. We left DS with my in-laws and rode big ol' rollercoasters all day! This worked our really well and I did not see one single big pregnant belly! I was so busy being anxious and excited about the rides, that I hardly thought about what I was missing out on this Mother's Day...no new little one or new pregnancy.

minicheezburg

T&P's csuperstar02!

Welcome to any new comers, I hope you find some peace and comfort here.

Update: Still have no clue what the F is going on, no confirmed O and  I may be in the 2WW. My temps look like a crazy rollercoaster. I don't know if it has anything to do with us leaving the window open and it getting down to the high 40's at night or not. Time will tell. I plan to test on May 25th regardless since that is my doctor appointment. I know he will make me test that day because he will probably want to start me on Provera to jump start my cycle.

Question of the day:  Eh DH stayed home from work to be with me but we went to his dad's house and worked on putting the new boat back together we got a lot done but it was not my idea of how I wanted the day to go. The only good thing is for the most part I was occupied.