Back to work tomorrow.

jackiemary

Took just one day off today after my miscarriage on Saturday. Still bleeding, but much less. I still keep randomly breaking into tears, so I am a bit worried about returning to work tomorrow. I am a teacher of middle schoolers and will be around kids and people non-stop from 8-5 with track coaching after school. I am just worried about breaking into tears in class, but I really can't take any more days off because its just so hard to be gone as a teacher. I already have to miss another day next week for my follow up appointment. Any advice for keeping it together at work? 

Had been keeping a journal of letters I was writing to baby. Going to write my last one today

Durve2008

I am so sorry for your loss.  The first day back is not an easy one.  I had my first day back to work a few weeks ago.  The first day was very hard for me, but it gets better.  I felt like I was trembling a little when I first walked through the door, but as the day went on it got a little better.  Honestly, it took a few days back at work to feel somewhat normal...but I got there.  You will, too.  Allow yourself time. It won't be easy going back...just take it one step at a time.  

Do you have any teacher friends in a classroom near your that might be available to in case you need a break for a few minutes?  Having a back-up plan in case you need a private moment in the hall or bathroom might help make it easier.  

kat530_528

Being an educator myself I totally get your concerns.  It's funny though how much kids sense that you're not feeling well and that they need to back off a little.  I found it to be kind of therapeutic to be around them because they always seemed to find a way to make me laugh.  There were those days (especially in the very beginning) that were hard but make sure that you have a coworker who can step in should you need to leave.