Late Term and Child Loss

I thought I was fine...

Until I went to church and realized in the middle of the service that this was supposed to be baby Gary's first holiday with us.  Christmas was different because it was so far before his due date I had never had plans for what Christmas would be like with a baby.  But I did have plans for Easter.  Instead we brought flowers to the cemetery.  I SO don't want to go to DH's stepdad's house.  None of them ever made a call to us or sent a card.  Ugh.  This sucks. 
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  • I'm sorry you're experiencing this, I'm sad we all are. I guess I'm where you were at Christmas, because we didn't have plans for Easter because I'm still supposed to be pregnant. The only change is that I can eat Easter candy now because I don't have to worry about my gestational diabetes anymore. But I'd give up candy for the rest of my life if I could have hers back.


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  • Holidays are difficult.  So are living the experiences you thought you'd be sharing with your little one.  {{hugs}}

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  • I'm so sorry. Holidays really do suck because we imagined having our LO's with us. I'm dreading mothers' day...

    Big hugs. 

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  • I'm sorry. This was supposed to be Nathaniel's first Easter too. And we too have family that hasn't been so supportive. It sucks.
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  • I never got to experience a holiday with Gavin and it hit me hard yesterday. He was born after Easter and officially died for the first time (later revived, died again for those who don't know) on memorial day weekend. His birthday is on the 28th and I have been a wreck for the past two months at least knowing I should have an almost two year old.

    I am going to warn you ladies now and sorry to be the Debbie Downer but Mother's Day SUCKS. It has to be the worst holiday to go through. You know you're a mother bu you wonder if other people still count you as one. I woke up that morning last year and just cried the entire day. Another bereaved mom called me drunk because she was just so sad. I guess we thought we would be a little less of a mess since she just had a baby and I was pregnant. I knew I was going to be sad but I wasn't prepared for how sad.

    I am sorry that you did not get to spend Easter with your precious baby. I am sorry none of us got to. Holidays are very hard. They are just another reminder of what we should be doing and what we really are. HUGS

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