Hello everyone, I know the struggles of IF and the joy a positive pregnancy test brings. I want to thank everyone for all the support I have received and want to let everyone know that whatever stage they are in, I pray that all their wishes come true.
As some of you may know, my pregnancy was a roller coaster from 6 weeks when I had a severe bleed and was told I was miscarrying one of my triplets. It was a very severe SCH that was causing the bleed but the drs felt that one of the triplets was not viable. Unfortunately, that bleeding lasted until I gave birth. From the very beginning I was vomiting and losing lots of weight. Numerous hospital stays later they discovered I had a blockage in my stomach and needed abdominal surgery while being 15 weeks pregnant with triplets. The babies and I came through the surgery just fine ? I really felt that nothing could hurt this pregnancy.
My world came crashing down this past week. I woke up to strong stomach pains and gave birth to my first son on my couch. At almost 20 weeks pregnant, there was no hope for him to survive but my other two were still in me. We were rushed to the hospital where I learned my baby died on route. My prayers turned to the well being of my other two. Later that day I learned my white blood cell count was 28,000, my sugar level was 350, my temperature was 101 ? the drs wanted to deliver the other two because my life was in danger and I could die. I couldn?t do it. G-d saw my need and took that decision out of my hands by causing my water to break with my daughter and she was born. She was as beautiful as my son and perfect in every way ? just born too soon. After my daughters birth, my levels started to come down and I really thought I had a chance to keep my last triplet baking. That was not the case. Two days later my water broke and my other son was born and died soon after.
I feel like my life has ended. We are arranging the funeral and I must say Good-bye to my beautiful and perfect babies. Again, regardless of the stage you are in - I pray for everyone here that their wishes are fulfilled. I got to hold my babies and watched them take breaths and move ? I was instantly in love and wish I had more time with them.
I pray for everyone on here.
All my love.