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amandacol28amandacol28 member
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Hi ladies,

I haven't been posting in a couple months. I had my first m/c about 7 years ago. Then my husband and I experienced a 2nd m/c just this past August. We were 8 weeks pregnant with twins when we found out neither were viable. We were devastated, as I was really hoping my first m/c so long ago was a fluke.

I found that I had gotten very bitter and angry after this last one. I needed a break from the bump because every drive-by or announcement I saw just continued to add to my bitterness. I want to be happy for others, but it is so hard not to feel sorry for myself.

Well the bump break didn't really work because I am still feeling sorry for myself, so now I am back if you all will have me. I need others that know exactly how I feel. I really thought by now I would be pregnant again, and things are getting hard because my EDD is coming up on March 17th. I just wish none of us had to be here or experience anything like this.

Thanks for letting me ramble.

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  • lavrillavril member
    I'm so sorry for your losses.  Welcome back.  I hope you can find comfort here.

    PGAL/PAL welcome
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    BFP #1 11.4.10, EDD 7.12.11, HB 12/9/10, MMC 12/27/10; 11w6d
    BFP #2 9.12.12, EDD 5.24.13, Baby Boy Born 5.15.13!!
    My Ovulation Chart
    3 Clomid (100mg) cycles + TI + Trigger = BFN's, Femara + Trigger + IUI#1 = BFN
    Femara + Trigger + IUI#2 = BFP!
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  • ct103ct103 member

    I'm so sorry for your losses. Welcome back, I hope the bitterness soon fades to hope. Let us know how we can help!

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  • minicheezburgminicheezburg member

    I am so sorry for your losses and welcome back. I really hope you can find some comfort here this time around. I know where you are coming from though. I can feel myself becoming very bitter. It has been a long time since our loss and I really wished to be PG before even a year later. We are close to a year and a half now.

    Again I am so sorry and want to wish you all the best.

    Me(26)DH(33)
    TTC for #1 since Jan 2010
    BFP #1 Oct 1 2010 MC Oct 3 2010
    DX PCOS w/ AO Nov 2011
    3 rounds of Clomid all BFN
    BFP #2 10/12/12 Beta #1 45.1 Beta #2 160.7 * 2/27 diagnosed with IEF in utero.
    Dalaney born @ 35w2d via emergency C-section due to Pre-E after 30 hrs of labor & losing her HB twice. She weighed 5lbs 8oz & was 19in long on May 26th 2013 @ 605am

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers   image

    "Severe truth is expressed with some bitterness."
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  • ecmleoecmleo
    I am so sorry for your losses.  I hate saying welcome back, bc I know that no one wants to be here.  I hope that you are able to find the same comfort and support that I have found on this board.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers

    TTC since 11/09; 5/11: lap (endometriosis-cleared), HSG (high pressure in tubes- cleared) and Hystoscopy (endocervical polyp - removed)

    8/5/11: BFP; 11/14/11: no heartbeat on US; 11/16/11: delivered my angel baby, 19w1d; 12/15/11: D&C

    PgAL/PAL Welcome

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  • katharine25katharine25 member
    You've been missed !!! Welcome back!
    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
    <3 Baby Boy Born 8/22/13 <3
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  • Laurakat81Laurakat81 member
    Welcome back. I'm sorry you have to be here.

    [spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow

    BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010

    BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

    3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

    Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

    First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

    LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

    TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015

    Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015

    Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

    First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.

    JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

    TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]


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  • amandacol28amandacol28 member
    Thank you for welcoming me back and the support!
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  • orangegogglesorangegoggles member

    Welcome back to the board. Hope your find some comfort and support here.

    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
    BFP #1 6.19.11 ~ EDD 2.23.12 ~ CP on 6.22.11
    BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
    BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
    BFP #4 4.12.12 ~ EDD 12.25.12~ Born on 12.26.12
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  • LaTi07LaTi07 member
    Welcome back. There's nothing wrong with taking a step away every now and then, all of us have done it at some point. I hope you are able to find the support that you need here.

    My Old Blog | My Chart | TTCAL Shenanigans
    ♥BFP #1 "Spawn"- 02/23/11 | EDD: 11/01/11 | natural m/c 03/20/11 @7w5d♥
    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
    ♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15♥
    All AL Always Welcome

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  • FreyaWin2382FreyaWin2382 member
    I am so sorry for your losses. Welcome back to the board!
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  • GatorBaby2012GatorBaby2012
    Welcome back.
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    I'm so sorry for your losses.  Welcome back to the board.
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • bribri81404bribri81404
    I'm so sorry for your loss I hope you find the comfort and support you need here! Welcome back!
    mommy to Lanie~5/23/06 and Brynn~2/5/08 BFP 1/20/11 emergency surgery 1/27/11 twins lost. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers image imageimageimage ~*~*~PGAL/PAL Welcome~*~*~
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  • jinxycat24jinxycat24
    I'm sorry for your losses. Welcome back to the board although I'm sorry any of us have to be here.
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  • QuigleyCat1QuigleyCat1 member
    I'm very sorry for your losses.  I hope you'll feel "at home" here. Many hugs for you!

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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  • butterfly843butterfly843
    Welcome back. I'm sorry for your losses. I always found the days leading up to my edd tougher than the actual day.

    Jenn

    image 3 IUI's all BFN

    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • smcjmk09smcjmk09 member
    Welcome back to the board, I hope you're able to find the comfort and support you're looking for.
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  • TA110980TA110980 member
    I am so sorry for your losses, and definitely understand the need for a Bump Break.  I glad you did what was right for you, you are always welcome here.  
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    BFP#1 - 09/12/11, EDD 5/18/12 - Stopped growing at 6w3d, m/c induced 10/14/11
    BFP#2 - 04/01/12, EDD 12/12/12, Arrived 12/4/12!!
    BFP#3 - 12/31/13, EDD 09/10/14 - Grow baby, grow!

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  • LEP424LEP424 member

    I'm so sorry for your losses. I look forward to getting to know you!

     

    BFP #1 (m/c at 9 weeks, 11/11) BFP #2 (DS, 12/11/12) BFP #3 (EDD 10/8/14)
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  • angielayne926angielayne926 member
    Welcome back, I am so sorry for your losses.  My 2nd loss was in August as well, so I completely understand the thought that you would be pregnant by now.  GL to you!

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker





    TTC #1 since 3/11


    BFP #1 5/4/11 EDD 1/12/12 natural m/c 5/17/11


    BFP #2 8/9/11 EDD 4/18/12 ectopic pregnancy (methotrexate) 8/24/11 ruptured tube and removal 8/29/11


    BFP #3 3/9/12 EDD 11/19/12 Logan born 11/18/12

    BFP #4 10/21/14 EDD 6/30/15


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  • PittPurplePittPurple member

    I'm so sorry for your loss but welcome back to the board. I really thought I'd be pregnant again by now too, it just seems like we all deserve a break! I hope it's your turn soon.

    TTC #1 since Aug 2010 * BFP Aug 2011, EDD April 16 2012 * MMC @ 7w5d, D&C @ 10w5d
    BFP Apr 2012, EDD Dec 19 2012 * twin h/b at 6wk, 9wk scan * Baby A lost at 12wks
    Baby B was my rainbow born at 36wks on Nov 27 2012

    Lilypie - (kqKn)
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  • jelerojelero member
    I'm sorry for your losses.  Welcome back.  I hope that you find the support that you need here.  Big ((hugs)) to you as your EDD approaches.
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