venting

dlafrance06

soo this is a pitty party...as my roomates (all under 21) are partying downstairs...i have a mere 3 months left in my pregnancy and i am SOOO over it. i am a college student in my last semester of classes before student teaching and i am SOOO tired of sitting at home every night, reading, sitting on pintrest, and facebook. i have NOTHING in common with anyone else in this god forsaken town. i cant drink, im not one to just hang out sober while everyone else is gettin tipsy. BD wont give me the time of day to hang out even or even talk to me. my closest friends all graduated or live at least an hour away. ugghhhh im just so fed up with sitting at home, doing nothing, cant even really fold or clean for the nursery cuz im not currently living in the town i will give birth in. BD does whatever the f*** he wants cuz he can and shows no support or empathy for me. this is what i get for actually being responsible? i was on BC when i got prego, and now i dont even want to have anything to do with BD. dont get me wrong i LOVE my little man moving around in my belly more than words can explain but why does pregnancy have to be so hard?? as if taking 18 credits, working two jobs, and planning for this baby isnt enough...i know it will be more than worth it in the end but god damn this blows. 

 

thanks for letting me vent single mammas...i feel slightly better 

roxygulrjax

I feel your pain.  I resent the fact that BD can be out livin' it up while I am at home.  I dread the weekends because I know everyone will be doing something involved with drinking and I'd rather not even deal with it...so I stay home.  My house has never been so clean.  I have never been to the dog park more in my life (which my dog is def. enjoying).  I am taking more hours at my second job on the weekends and still get bored.  Two more months.  Just two more and my precious baby girl will be here and that's all I will want to occupy my time.  Hang in there...

tstaggs2012

I too know this feeling.. BD wants nothing to do with me.. He says he wants his child.. Not me.. He can go do what he wants with who he wants.. And even has a new girl around all the time.. I'm bitter that things had to turn out the way that they have.. I was hoping for more.. But it didn't happen.. I sit on Facebook, Pinterest, or watch tv.. Sometimes I just lay in bed with a night light on and think.. It takes a lot.. I suffer from anxiety and depression and this situation doesn't help.. I have no one where I live that I can actually go do things with that understands what's going on. They all have lives of their own.. Boyfriends to spend time with.. Or school things.. And I feel like the pity party around others.. I'm to the point that I can barely talk to my own mother because of the situation.. I wake up after only a few hours of sleep and can't get back to bed because my mind races with all of this.. It's a heavy feeling.. Which is pretty bad... But I know I have to be strong and I have to go on with this because my little guy needs me..

dlafrance06

Thanks ladies for responding! makes me feel less alone..knowing i get to hold and hang out with my little man in the end makes the pregnancy hardships a lot less awful. i just need to pass all my classes this semester and im home free hope things work out for both of you, too!