Four of my very closest friends (three were bridesmaids in my wedding and the other is a friend from high school, that is now my neighbor, AND went through IF hell with me) are all having babies. The first gave birth last thursday, another gave birth yesterday, the third is being induced next week, and the last is due the first week of April.
I have spent several days at the hospital holding new sweet babies. Three of my friends are sensitive to my struggles with IF and the fourth is clueless. I almost feel like she is rubbing it in. I know she would never say or do anything to intentionally hurt me, but I just can't talk to her. She was talking to me today about how excited she is about all the new babies, and giving me details about her pregnant teenage students. I had to cut her off. Hang up, and literally scream! I burst into tears and had a much needed cry. I love her dearly, but she is very hard to talk to right now.
It doesn't help that we officially turned down an adoptive situation today. I know it was the right choice for us, but it was still so hard to say no. I'm just freaking sad, and I want a big neon sign to fall down from the sky that says . "YES! You will be a mom!"
Thanks for letting me vent.. I think I'm gonna cry some more now