All of my family has told me that I am extra nervous about LO. My husband always told me that he never wanted to be "those parents" who don't trust anyone to babysit, and I always agreed. I wanted to be laid-back. However, my husband feels that I am the typical overly nervous first-time mom, and my ILs seem to think so as well. I've been thinking about it lately and I'm wondering if I suffer from PPA. The pediatrician told me to be mindful of it but I sort of brushed it off thinking I was okay.
I looked up the symptoms and I don't have the shakes or panic attacks or anything severe. But I do keep myself up at night sometimes thinking of horrible (and completely irrational) things that could happen to my baby. Strange things like wolves attacking her, people breaking into our house and hurting her, people stealing her, etc. I'm also very hesitant to let her stay with a sitter for the night. I just don't like it and I'd rather just spend the evening having her with us. I've done it several times but it's been short evenings out (3-4 hours max). I stress about little things with her and I over research everything. I am sort of a nerd with learning about her development and various ways of feeding, training, etc. because I was a child development major in college, so some of the researching could be blamed on the fact that it just really interests me.
Should I call the doctor about this? Am I just a typical first-time mom with first-time mom worries? I'm really bummed out tonight because I tried talking to my husband about it and he laughed when I told him about my wolf "daydreams" and dreams of my baby getting hurt. Then as I continued to talk about it he asked me if I could wait until the commercials because he wanted to watch WIFE SWAP.... I was just pretty hurt by it because I really wanted someone to talk to and he didn't seem to want to listen. I mean, when the commercial came on he muted the TV and said, "so what else did you want to say about your wolves?" but it was not very sincere and by that point I wasn't interested in sharing anymore. I sort of feel like he may not understand that if I do have PPA that it isn't because I am a perfectionist (which is true) or OCD or whatever.
I'd really appreciate any input or advice you ladies have to give. I don't want to over react to my nervousness if it is normal, and I also don't want to leave it untreated if I need to get help for anxiety issues.