I just cant relax..

jacksonandbradysmom

Hello Ladies,

DS is my 2nd baby and was born 33w1day and we spent 18 days in the NICU. I was a neurotic 1st time Mom wanting worrying about every little thing. (drove DH nuts) So, when I was pregnant with this one, I was really hoping I could be more relaxed when he arrived but we were catupulted into the Preemie world.

DS is 4 months now (adjust to 2.75 months) and doing well. He is a happy baby and seems to be growing. He spits up a ton and only drinks 3oz every time he eats which is every 2-3 hours. So, I dont know how he is managing to grow. I know he has reflux but I dont think it bothers him much as he doesnt usually cry or arch  his back. Probably a happy spitter!!  He is wetting alot of diapers daily and having one BM a day. Since he is doing so well, I should be able to relax, right?

But, I worry about everything.. Is he eating enough? I worry so much about RSV (our insurance only approved us for 1 shot which he had Nov. 1st). I am constantly monitoring people who come to our house (Including DH and my 2yr old toddler) about hand washing, etc.

Now I am coming down with a cold. Im so tired from not sleeping for 4 months that my body is just run down. I wont forgive myself if I am the one who gets him sick. I realize I cant keep him from getting sick forever, but I cant imagine going back to that hospital.

Anyone else have anxiety? Anyone on medication for it?

I also cant figure out how to post a signature ticker and pics of my LOs.

 

MommynTeacher

I was just saying yesterday that I have anxiety and can't relax at all when other people are around the baby, I am also getting sick, DH is just getting over a cold. I don't know how to tell you to deal with it as I am having problems managing my issues but you aren't alone. I don't think I would have been this anxious and nervous with a full term baby. You have to do something to not feel so run down (I know, easier said than done!) Can your DH take night shifts on the weekends or let you sleep at other time? I hope things turn around for you! 

SushiNoMore

First off, I'm sorry you're dealing with this.  I didn't have PPA, but I was diagnosed with PTSD after my son was born at 26 weeks.  I started seeing a counselor, and it REALLY helped me.  I found my counselor's name through my OB - have you tried that?  I know that an OB would be a good place to start if you're looking for help with anxiety.  It's so so so common, especially for preemie parents.  I'm sure they could point you in the right direction.

Good luck! 

urbanflowerpot

Here is a link to help you figure all things siggy-wise out: https://www.thebump.com/profiles/Ambsies/mybump/mybio

I wish there were just an easy solution for the emotions you're experiencing but it's something we all need to ride out. I hope you'll stick around the board - everyone is very supportive! I'd suggest going to see a therapist at this point - I think most of us do/have so please don't feel alone.

opallover

I don't know how to tell you to help control the anxiety. I have my own group of anxieties [am I overfeeding her, underfeeding her - does she have reflux that is painful.

I'm a mess too - just know that you aren't alone. *hugs*