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So down lately...

Auki13Auki13 member
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I am just so incredibly down lately.  Mentally I feel all over the place and can't seem to focus, emotionally I can't stop thinking about Annabelle, and physically I gained back the tiny bit of weight I lost and them some and am having a ton of trouble sleeping.  I know in the back of my mind I should be happy and blessed that my 2 older children are so wonderful and happy for the holidays, I have a great DH and family, but I just can't snap out of this funk.  I'm really not sure what I should do.  I am already taking antidepressants (I have been since high school) and was trying to work out, but lately I can't even get myself motivated to do that.  There is no need for a response, I just needed to let this out.  I am just hoping and praying that with the New Year I will start to snap out of this.
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  • Petunia844Petunia844 member
    I know you said no need for a response, but  I just wanted to offer a hug.  I wish I could give you a real one.
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  • hewinkedhewinked
    I just want to send hugs.  Even with other kids, you still lost one.  Completely natural to be in a funk and think of what will be missing on the holidays.  I have DD and a rainbow on the way, but all I can think about is Adam and how he should be here.  (((hugs)))
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  • NicoleD54NicoleD54
    I hope and pray for you also that the new year will bring easier times for you. Have you talked to your doctor about adjusting your medication? I think therapy might be a nice addition to the medications if you aren't already talking to a counselor.
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  • krysiahamatykrysiahamaty
    Big hugs. Hoping 2012 is a little brighter.
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    (((HUGS)))
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  • AmyG2bAmyG2b member
    I second the counseling idea, but I think holidays are an extra hard time. You're not alone.
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  • Auki13Auki13 member
    Thank you everyone for the support.  I was thinking about counseling but we have HMO and I have to go to whoever our primary picks, which sort of freaks me out since I have already been to a couple of "winners" in the past.  I just don't want to deal with crap after sharing such an emotional issue with a stranger.  But at this point I may just try it anyways.  Who knows- I may end up seeing someone good.  Thanks again for the support, it helps knowing that all of you out there understand how I feel and care about me.  
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  • butterfly843butterfly843
    (((hugs)))

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    (((Big hugs)))

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