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  • lynn0926lynn0926 member
    OMG! I am so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you. Sending big hugs!
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  • FraggleChicFraggleChic member
    I'm at a loss for words that convey how sorry I am for you. Please take care of yourself. ((HUGS))

    I gave you life, then you gave me mine.

    TTC February 2008 to October 2008 One year forced break due to OIF deployment #2
    Resumed TTC in October 2009 HSG, Hysteroscopy, S/A all clear
    Five total medicated cycles and IUI #1-3 = BFN and all while we were still "unexplained IF"
    25 August Lap revealed Endo, adhesions and blocked left tube
    September 2011: Femara + IUI #4 (IUI #1 post endo removal) =BFFN
    November: IVF #1: Stims started 11/16 ER 11/25 (7R, 5F) ET 11/30 Transferred 2 beautiful expanding blastocysts +HPT 12/6/11
    Beta #1 at 9dp5dt=153! Beta #2 at 16dp5dt= 4009!
    Ultrasound 12/30 showed one beautiful heartbeat! EDD 17 August, 2012

    Hazel Evelyn arrived 10 August, 2012!

    Surprise natural BFP March 2015. M/C at 5 weeks
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    I'm so, so sorry. Giant (((HUGS)))
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • sapphireprincessapphireprinces
    I am so so sorry for your loss.  Please take care of yourself! 
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  • Ruthie04Ruthie04 member
    So very sorry. This is so unfair.
    TTC in 2009, Dx: Unexplained IF
    Three TI cycles (BFP...miscarriage), five IUI attempts and 2.5 IVF cycles later...BFP!!
    12dp5dt: 765; 15dp5dt: 1979; 17dp5dt: 3379...TWINS!!!!!
    Our perfect baby boys were born at 36w1d!! 








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  • rosemary&thymerosemary&thyme member
    ((((BIG HUGS)))) Take all the time you need to make the decision that works for you and your H.
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    I really suck at staying pregnant
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  • pinkmickey24pinkmickey24 member
    I am so sorry. (((HUGS)))
    ~TTC since July 2010~
    CD3 Bloodwork:Normal 
    HSG-Clear 
    SA:Low Morph 
    IVF with ICSI #1: ER 12/16 (4 ER/3 Mature/0 Fertilized) 
    IVF with ICSI #2: ER 5/17 (4 ER/4 Mature/3 Fertilized)/ET 5/20 (2 embryos transferred)-BFN 
    IVF with PICSI #3: ER 9/8 (11 ER/8 Mature/7 Fertilized)/ET 9/13 (2 AA blastocysts transferred) 
    Beta#1, 9/26/12: 719 Beta#2, 9/28/12: 1,436 Beta#3, 10/1/12: 3,446
    1st u/s on 10/10/12: It's Twins! We found out on 12/16/12 that we were having two BOYS!
    C & D were born on 5/16/13 at 10:46 am and 10:47 am


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  • farmerlyndafarmerlynda member
    I am so, so sorry.  (((huge hugs)))

    Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.

    IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.

    Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.

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  • MsGMChickMsGMChick member
    I'm so so sorry.. :(
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  • TikkiTocTikkiToc member
    I am so sorry, what devastating news.  {hugs} to you.
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    TTC #1 since May 2010; me: anovulatory (PCOS); DH: low morph
    6 rounds Clomid + TI = all BFN
    IVF/ICSI #1 Nov. 2011: 27R, 21M, 19F; 1 AA blast transferred 12/4; c/p confirmed 12/21
    FET #1 Feb. 2012: 2 5d blasts transferred 2/10; BFP!
    Beta #1 14dp5dt: 989; Beta #2 17dp5dt: 2828; EDD 10/28/12
    DS born 11/7/12, 7lb3oz, 19"
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  • PurpleIris30PurpleIris30 member
    I'm so sorry. Sad
    Married 8/2008. IVF with PGD March 2013.
    3/22 ER: 25R, 20M, 15F. 9 genetically normal, and 3 survived to Day 5
    3/27 ET: transferred 1 embryo, beta 9dp5dt=163, 12dp5dt=639
    4/25 1st ultrasound at 7 weeks = identical twins with heartbeats?!!!
    PPROM at 31w, delivery at 32 weeks of two beautiful girls
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  • Bethany1026Bethany1026
    Oh no Sad  I was so sad reading this. (((BIG HUGS)))
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    TTC #1 since 3/10:
    DX: Me-PCOS, retroverted/ tilted ute - DH- MFI, DH-4 mo of Clomid therapy= no improvement. Weekly HCG injections.
    Me-34, DH-33
    HSG- unsuccessful, SHSG (dialated)-no blockages
    7/11-Clomid (unmonitored) BFN,
    #1 Fresh IVF 9/11: w/ ICSI & AH (only option): (1 transfered, 8BF) = BFN!!
    #2 FET: 2 transferred (2 6BF) 12/11 = BFFN!!
    Surprise + HPT on break! 2/12 Beta 1: 6 Beta 2: <5 = c/p ( RE had given me provera... So pretty sure this ruined everything)<BR> #3 Fresh IVF 3/12: w/ ICSI & AH (2 transfered 8BF & 7BF, 1 to freeze) = BFMFN!
    New RE 5/12
    6/14 Hysteroscopy
    #4 Fresh IVF 8/12: 5dt of 2 5AB blasts = BFN!... what else is new?!?
    New RE insists its a transfer issue, immunology checked & good
    #5 IVF FET 1/13 under anesthesia : Two 5 day blasts transferred
    + HPT!! Beta1: 2315 Beta2: 6442 Beta3: 31,061
    First u/s 1/30/13: Shows 1 healthy heartbeat!!

    Was he was right? I wasted 4 IVF's and the doctors were not getting the catheter in?!?
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  • lady_chance_99lady_chance_99
    I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. Please know that we will be thinking of you and are here for you in case you need anything... especially to vent.
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  • byrne15byrne15 member
    I'm so so sorry :(

    ~after 34 cycles we finally got our 2nd little bundle of joy~
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  • CamoDiaperDreamsCamoDiaperDreams
    I am so sorry.. This breaks my heart! :( Sending hugs!
    Me: 32 DH: 38 TTC for 4 years (total) Me: PCOS, Low Progesterone, Factor V Leiden Thrombophillia (fancy for genetic blood clotting disorder) I've had 4 miscarriages, two with my current DH, and two in my previous marriage. Unfortunately, I am the common factor here! *3/2012: Clomid CD 4-9, awaiting ovulation!! *1-23-2012 BFP! Unfortunately without Progesterone supplements early on, M/C 1-30-2012 *3-2010 BFP! Low progesterone, small gest sac, m/c 4-2010 at 9 wks *9-2008 BFP, Tried Myofacial Release Therapy and Daily Progesterone Injections. m/c 10-2008 at 9 wks *9-2007 BFP, Clomid, Estrace, Gonal F injection, Progesterone suppositories. m/c 10-2007 at 7wks
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  • jess52278jess52278
    I am so sorry.  PGD adds a whole other layer of stress and dissapointment to the IVF process.  I hope that in time you and your husband can move forward with a decision that makes you both happy.
    Books read in 2011: 85 (so far) Books read in 2010: 80 Me: 33 H: 35 We have never attempted to conceive on our own due to H having a genetic disease that causes tumors. The chance of our children inheriting the disease is 50/50. After consulting with H's oncologist and an RE specializing in PGD we decided to pursue IVF with PGD. IVF#1 ER - 11/1 - 25R; 18M; 14F with ICSI; ET - 11/6 only 1 morula to transfer due to 13 embryos being affected by the disease. 11/17 - Beta = BFN PAIF/SAIF always welcome
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  • DeputiesWifeDeputiesWife
    ::hugs::

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

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  • debnut39debnut39

    Oh sweetie...I am getting choked up reading this. I am so very sorry. I can't even imagine the heartbreak you are feeling with this. Big Hug.

    I hope that your follow up appt next week will go very well and the Dr. will have a new course of action for you.

    Please try to relax and take care of yourself. You are a strong and brave woman! Again, I am so very sorry

    Me: 39 DH: 39 Dx: MFI, DOR, Poor Responder Our only option is IVF with ICSI; 1/11 IVF#1.1: Lupron flare, canceled lead follie/poor response; 3/11 IVF#1.2: EPP, canceled due to lead follicle/poor response; 10/11 IVF#1.3: Antagonist, microdose HCG, 2 embies 2dt BFN; 12/11 IVF #2: Stims started 12/17, ER: 12/27 3R, 1 mature, 1 fert, other 2 eggs matured overnight and rescue ICSI performed and both fertilized! (frozen on 12/30), On 12/29 1 2d 4-cell, grade 1 embie transferred. 1/12: Scheduled Beta, FX'd! IVF Snowflakes!
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  • Mitzi BishiMitzi Bishi

    I am so sorry at your perpetual disappointment, but thank you so much for sharing your story. 

    I know I probably get a pessimistic wrap here, but it is so important for people to know this unfortunately doesn't work for everyone and those that come to the end of treatments need more support than anyone. 

    I'm sorry this decision has been made for you and that things are over before they really had a fair shot at beginning. You and your husband will be in my thoughts!  

    (Live in Europe) TTC since 1/2010
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  • angela2004angela2004 member
    BIG HUGS!!!!!!!!!
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