Anyone ever have a moment where maybe TTC kind of seemed like too much and it was a time to take a step back. Ive been on a forced medical break for awhile, but now all of a sudden..I feel like maybe I don't want to try in January like we were planning.
My sister moved in with us last week and she has two young boys(4 months and 2 years) and so I have had this birds eye view of what its like to have kids...and it scares me! Im honestly wondering if Im ready for that. I know its different being your own kids, and I know if I got pregnant tomorrow Id sob with tears of joy.
We have been TTCing for 2.5 years..but now Im wondering if maybe Ive been in panic mode the whole time and if I didnt have a ticking biological clock, then MAYBE I would put it off for a little bit longer?
Now Im just rambling and IDK if I even make sense..just curious if Im alone in these feelings.
Re: Change of heart?
Beta#1 (12dp3dt)= 353, Beta#2 (15dp3dt)= 1466, Beta#3 (22dp3dt)= 14,139, First u/s: TWINS!!
After 10 weeks of bedrest, our two little ladies joined us at 28w6d
I've totally been there. In many ways, I still am. TTTC made us really take a good hard look at some things, and we realized that it's all kind of scary. I don't think the average couple would change their minds, but 3T served to give us the time to appreciate aspects of a childfree life.
At first I thought it was self-preservation: "if I don't want it so much and I don't get it, it won't hurt." But now I honestly do feel (most days) that maybe this is exactly where we're supposed to be.
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
You know? I think part of this attitude Im experience is this. I think honestly if I didnt "want it" maybe, it will make getting through the holidays easier? lol
I agree with the rest of you, TTTC really does make you stop and think about things. I never thought I could get to this place, but 2.5 years is a long time. I dont think Im ready to move on from having children, but maybe just not want it for the time being right now..if that makes sense?
Absolutely. And it can be a temporary thing. It could be your intuition telling you that you need a break. No one would fault you for taking a rest, whether it be for one cycle or for one year or even deciding you'd be okay as a family of two.
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
Thank you for that! I do feel a sense of relief. Something I haven't felt in a VERY long time!
Right after my c/p I felt like I couldn't wait for the next cycle to come so that we could try again for our sticky baby. A few days later DH told me that he felt that we needed to take a break from treatments due to financial reasons. For the first few days after we decided to take a break I was completely devastated. Since then though I have felt like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I actually feel relieved not to be trying right now and I feel the best I have since we started seeing the RE in May.
I think sometimes the pressure, constant appointments, needles, meds and the emotional roller coaster can just be too much for someone to handle month after month. If you feel like you need a longer break, then do yourself a favor and take it!
TX: IUI #1-4 = BFN + 1 c/p
IUI #5: Clomid 100mg + Bravelle + Trigger + B2B IUIs + 800mg Progesterone = BFP!
Beta #1 (14dpiui): 460 Beta #2 (16dpiui): 998 Beta #3 (23dpiui): 21,832 Beta #4 (29dpiui): 129,771
DX: Severe MFI 9/1/11
Because of Undescended testicle at birth
IVF #1 October BFN; 5 snowbabies
FET: November/December 2011
ET: 12/7/11; Beta 1: 12/16/11: 66 Beta 2: 12/19/11: 212! 1st ultrasound 1/3/12! Graduated 1/10/12: heartbeat 160
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Me:30 DH:36
Taking Provera, Metformin and Clomid
June Clomid 50mg cd 3-7, no O
August Clomid 100mg cd 3-7, no O
PCOS dx 9/23/11 & BC to reset hormones
November Clomid 100mg cd 1-5, poss O cd41, BFN
HSG - All Clear 11/23/11
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Im relieved to see that Im not the only one that experiences these things.
I know I want to be a mother, I just think I need to fully remove myself emotionally(well as much as possible) from TTC and IF. From all the stress and pressure of it. From the diagnosises and the tests. The needles and the ultrasounds.
I havent been able to actually try in months, but all this time Ive been obsessing and stressing. Its time to reclaim my life!