It's been really difficult to disconnect lately. When I'm with Elise, I focus all of my attention on her. But as soon as she's down for a nap or after bedtime my mind goes a mile a minute with work-related reflection and ideas. I am very passionate about what I do and this year I have a dual role-reading coach and Lead teacher. Basically, I'm in charge of my K-4th building since my principal is running 2 schools. He is there about hald of the week and I maintain good communication with him, but a lot falls on me and it's stressful because I want to do a good job for the school. But, at the same time, I dont have the title or the salary of an administrator (but I do have all the credentials and certification).
I feel torn sometimes because I could be back in the classroom for the same pay and clock out by 3:30 everyday, but I know I wouldnt be satisfied. I would eventually get bored because I always need a new challenge and this is definitely challenging. However, I feel like I just cant disconnect lately and I used to have a pretty good balance with that. I have so many ideas and so many goals for the school that I can't stop thinking about it and, then, there are the problems I cant fix or the resistance to something new that I cant get someone to overcome. I guess I see everyone in the building the way I used to see my students. I want to help them and empower them to do their jobs to their full potential, but at the same time it's a lot on my plate. And, although my principal gave me these responsibilities and I knowingly accepted them as abother baby step to the position I want, I'm reminded by someone or something everyday that I'm not an AP and I dont have the salary to go with it.
I guess my biggest fear is that I'll work my heart out this year and still not get a promotion for the next school year due to "budget issues." DH has been trying to get me to send my resume to companies because of my business background and management qualities, but it seems like things are even worse in the business world right now and IDK if my heart would even be in it.
Maybe I just need to pop a bottle of wine after Elise goes to bed every night, lol.
If you got this far in my rant, thanks for reading!
Re: Working Mommies-how do you disconnect?
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Thanks for the kind words, ladies! I definitely need to get back to some of my hobbies, like reading and taking walks with Elise to the park.
It is challenging at times to disconnect from work when at home. Routines work best for me. When I get home - dinner, homework, getting ready for school the next, bath time and bed time. When the kids are in bed - its me time, I workout, or watch my DVRd shows, shower and then check my work email (=
It sounds like you are very dedicated to your career. Reaching your goals takes just that - hard work, dedication and commitment. Stay positive and keep pushing on. Even if you are not offered a promotion - you have some experience under your belt which gives you bragging rights.
and seriously, ditto on the wine.
I'll have some with you!
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10.09 IUI #1/2 - Clomid 100mg Follistim 150iu Ovidrel Crinone 8%=BFP!
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Why are you working so many hours, Jenny? Is it all at the school?