* kevinandmonica *

ArcticFox

thinking of you and hoping you're hanging in there.

keep us posted..

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks so much for your kindness and thoughtfullness.  (and to everyone else who has kept me in their prayers)

I just got back from the OB and I did have a "chemical" pregnancy or an early miscarriage... I was trying to prepare for the worst, hope for the best... but I think I was still holding out hope... I think I am just numb right now. 

TBH, at first I was completely shocked that we were able to conceive so quickly.  I had been on the pill for about 12 years and it took less than 2 months after I stopped for my BFP.  The first day or 2 after I don't think it completely sunk in.  Then Sunday/Monday I was really starting to get excited about everything... now I am just devastated.  What a roller coaster.

If there is a positive to be found...

1.  We now know that everything "works" (well.. sort of I guess).  I can get pregnant.  They did a transvaginal u/s and she said everything looks fine.  Which is good.  The doctor also said this should, in no way, impact my ability to conceive in the future.  She said this is actually a very common occurrence, but more often than not, women don't even notice.... unless they are trying to get pregnant or very in tune with their body.  I guess it's one of those "What you don't know won't hurt you" situations... but when you do know... it really hurts.

2.  I also got to meet Dr. Weinstein.  Love her already.  She came in the room, talked for a few then let out a big sigh and with puppy dog-ish eyes said "This sucks".  I have never heard a doctor say something like that to a patient.  No medical terminology, no fake "these things happen" or lengthy explanation... just a plain "This sucks"... which is exactly what I was thinking.  I totally appreciate her brutal honesty and her down-to-earth attitude.  I think, whenever the time is right, we will get along really well.  I can see her being someone I really trust with my care and the care of my baby.

 

So... back to the drawing board.  I think we'll wait a month and let everything calm down then try again.  It does make me really afraid to get so excited again. 

Thank you again, everyone!  You have been so supportive!

abba916

:::HUGS::: Your doctor is right~ it does suck and I'm sorry you are going through this.

Please dont feel you have to leave the board- we're whenever you need us! 

JenJar

So sorry you're going through this.  Please hang around!  This group of girls is great!  ((HUGS))

wendyj

{{HUGS}} It definitely does suck. Abba's right - you are still welcome here whenever you need us.

xKimx

*hug*

I'm sorry. It does really really suck  

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks so much ladies!  I'll stick around, for sure.  You are too nice for me to just hit the road. 

missyjg

I'm so so sorry. Please feel free to vent, scream, tantrum if you need too! I hope you don't feel you need to leave the board. The ladies here are so supportive. A lot of us have been there. This does suck! The ladies on the pregnancy/miscarriage board are also fabulous and very supportive. They helped get me through a lot. Bless you and DH.

Kim72508

I'm very sorry you're going through this.  Your doctor is right, it does suck.  Hang in there and let us all know if you need anything.  We're here for you.

MOMMYINNY

{HUGS}

TinaL99

I am so sorry to hear your news.  It does suck.  More than 1 of us ladies have been there and just know that you can stick around for support or anything else. 

Irisheyes1247

I'm so sorry (hugs) this does suck. I am glad that you had a good experience with your doctor and know you like her going forward if you need any help or support from them. We are always here if you need to talk or vent. These ladies are amazing!

octoberbridesrule

So sorry you're going through this... and glad you are sticking around the board. *hugs*

battybtags

I'm so sorry you're going through this-it has to be so hard.

Thats great that you clicked with the doctor though! Something to look forward to like you said!

mrsoc

So sorry...

Glad that you like Dr. Weinstein.  She is great!

June4bride2be

Aw, I am sorry! It does suck! (((hugs)))

SeptemberBride'08

abba916:

:::HUGS::: Your doctor is right~ it does suck and I'm sorry you are going through this.

Please dont feel you have to leave the board- we're whenever you need us! 

Exactly. (((hugs)))

meryltheresa

I"m so sorry!   But I am glad you liked Weinstein.  I really like her too.

NikCole

sounds like you are in good hands. And your doc is right... unfortunately it is so common... as many of the girls on here can attest to, myself included. I had both a early miscarriage/chemical pregnancy and a miscarriage later on (at 11.5wks)... it hurts either way. Once you see that + on a pregnancy test you fall instantly in love.

Sorry you are going through it. Treat yourself to some ice cream or something you love tonight! 

kevinandmonica2011

NikCole:

sounds like you are in good hands. And your doc is right... unfortunately it is so common... as many of the girls on here can attest to, myself included. I had both a early miscarriage/chemical pregnancy and a miscarriage later on (at 11.5wks)... it hurts either way. Once you see that + on a pregnancy test you fall instantly in love.

Sorry you are going through it. Treat yourself to some ice cream or something you love tonight! 

 

Sushi and wine!!!    2 Things I had read I was not supposed to eat/drink.  And then maybe some ice cream.  Indulgence, much?  I'll get back on the wagon tomorrow.

jewelsonu

I'm really sorry you are going through this. Big Hugs

goosh24

I'm so sorry to hear the news   I'm so glad that you have a great Dr who sounds like she was the person for you to talk to.   Definitely stick around the board and indulge away!

cm2007

I'm so sorry.  It does suck.  Big hugs. 

jnk062602

I'm so sorry you are going thru this

TinyPinkBug

I was on the pill for at least 15 yrs.  Went off them and had a chemical pg the first month off then concieved my first born thw second month.  Hang in there, it does suck but also doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you either.

sunnygirl05

I'm SO sorry to hear this!!!!  I know how disappointing it is.  I also had a chemical pregnancy.  And even though they happen early it's still hard.  Best of luck to you!

Mitzzi23

So sorry to hear that...spoil yourself for a little bit.

kevinandmonica2011

Thanks everyone!