Kerrin

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How'd it go today?  What did you decide to do?

Kerrin

I had a long talk with the mediator today and was able to at least air my grievances with him, so that he at least has my side of the story and gets a feeling for where I'm coming from.

I thought that afterwards I would be meeting with my boss to get it all on the table.  However, the mediator doesn't think that is a useful solution, as it will just bring up past resentments adn problems that really can't be solved, so it's useless to continue to rehash them. 

So he's basically asked us to put our differences with each other "away" and try to move forward for the good of the company. So the 3 of us will continue to meet in the future to try to get things back on track.  Frankly, i don't think the relationship can be repaired b/c I think he's lousy at his job, but for whatever reason, my father continues to support him.  He's mismanaged money, helped conceal fraud, and I don't trust him.  So since this person is my boss, I can't fathom continuing to work for him.  My father doesn't want me involved in the financial side of the business b/c he knows i will raise hell about all of the rampant spending going on and he doesn't want to get in any more trouble with my mom b/c he's been lying to her about the fraud and i exposed him once i found out.  It seriously is messed up over here and the "mediator" said it's the most toxic and dysfunctional organization he's ever tried to repair.

 So at the very least the mediator knows why I act the way I do towards particular people in the organization, but b/c of the sheer magnitude of dysfunction going on, he can't possibly fix all of it, so he's asked us to put it behind us whether it's resolved or not.  However, I've done this so many times in the past, it's where I've picked up all my so called "baggage".

I don't think I'm going to be satisfied with the end result of the re-org, and came to the conclusion that my best option is to leave.

So if you know anyone in the zoology, ecology, environmental biz, I would appreciate any help.  Thanks for checking in.  The past few months over here have been a nightmare and i was so worked up about this meeting today that i didn't sleep last night b/c of all the stress and drama.   

slwprincess

:-(  So sorry.  I was thinking about you this afternoon and hoping for a better outcome.  Hope you find something new and way better soon.  You deserve more than this.

kbrickell

Big {{hugs}} to you girly, ugh this does sound like an extremely toxic environment to be in. You are a better person than I am for staying as long as you have.

hthomas02

ditto kiersten!  I'm so sorry lady!  that really sounds like a shitty day and a shitty place to spend so much of your time.    hugs!

MrsKLB

I didn't get to respond earlier, but wanted to say I'm sorry you have to deal with this. It definitely sounds like the best thing for you is to leave. Good luck!

rara855

Gosh I am so sorry. That sounds awful and working for your dad must make it that much harder. Fingers crossed you find something else soon. 

Kerrin

I just have to be patient and wait for the best opportunity for me.  I know it will eventually present itself, but it's hard not to just throw in the towel, shout a big FU and burn every bridge i have walking out of there.  B/c that's what i'd really like to do at this moment.

Thanks for all of your support ladies.  Your advice has been tremendously helpful, and if anything, just the opportunity to vent and get it off my chest before i went postal.  DH has been out of town and Carter has the vomits tonight, so it's been one hell of a day.