+ Digital and Scared $#*$-less!

Mellimo83 · February 2011

I never thought that seeing a positive pregnancy test would be so scary to me. After a long couple of months that include ruptured cycts, miscarriage, job loss and deaths in the family(hows that for stress?) I was dx with PCOS and endo last week. We thought we would start fertility treatment next month because apparently my LH and FSH are reversed?

Well, this morning after my temps were still elevated, I have been charting but forgive the absence of information, I gave up after my Dr apt, I took a IC HPT. I kinda saw a line if I squinted, turned my head 45 degrees and stood on one foot facing south, and thought 'screw it, I have one digital left if it's negative thats it'. It came back positive 1-2wks.

So why am I so scared? One thing my specialist said was that even if by the grace of God (ok, my interpretation, he wasnt religious) we get pregnant again, my body would reject it. So now what? His office is closed for the weekend so I cant speak with him. Do I go get a Beta draw done with a hormone work up?

Thanks for reading my wall of text, any help or support you offer me this morning is greatly appreciated! Sorry for any grammer errors etc, my hands are shaking and Im not thinking 100% clearly.