How do I feel better about this?

lauren9317

I feel silly posting about this because I'm so "behind" everyone- we haven't moved on to IUI or IVF yet. But this is bothering me so figured I'd vent.

Over the past 2 weeks, DH and I each took 10-day rounds of doxycycline to hopefully kill any possible infection that we may have that could be stopping us from conceiving. (if we still never conceive within a few months, we'll have to move on to more expensive options, obviously, but we're trying stuff like this first) So once we were through with the doxy, I was excited for us to ttc this month. Who knows, maybe a miracle would occur.

But alas, MH is out of town and won't be back till tomorrow night. And I got my positive opk this morning. We thought about trying to get him on an earlier flight that would get here tonight, but it will cost tons more than his planned flight. It's just not going to work out. I had been so hopeful that I wouldn't be Oing so freaking early but there my body goes, messing with my plans.

 We're spoiled-- this is the very first cycle that we aren't able to try. I think this is something like our 20th cycle ttc (been trying since Aug 09) so I know we're lucky that we never had any scheduling hiccups during those other cycles. But out of all the cycles that we can't try, this one really sucks. We just took the doxy and who knows, maybe it would have cleared any possible infection and maybe, just MAYBE, this could have been it.

How do I feel better about this? Tell myself it just wasn't meant to be? I'm so mad.

CallMeAl

Let yourself be mad! There's no doubt that is frustrating. Big hugs to you and I hope the next cycle is it. Or.... I hope that your surge lasts long enough that you don't ovulate until he's home.

Do you chart?

lauren9317

Thanks I wish so badly that I won't ovulate until, say, Wed, but it's doubtful. Usually when I get a + test, I O the next day

I used to chart, but I haven't bothered for the past few cycles. I used to be a paying member of FF but I paused my account and I don't go on it any more. Each cycle, I just use opks and I take my temp for just a few days to confirm O.

And we've had all our testing done and I've had my HSG and my SIS. There seems to be nothing wrong, so I'm trying to hold on hope that we won't need to continue any further with our RE. It's hard to be hopeful though!