I feel sick...

karma79

Tomorrow would have been our due date. I just don't even know what to do with myself. I'm trying to shove it to the back of my mind but that's not working at all. We are TTCAL and my cycle seems to be getting longer each month so O is so unpredicatable. I could have last week or it could be still to come this week. I don't know. I feel like my body is playing tricks on me. Tomorrow is going to be excrutiating.

This is going to sound a little crazy but last night between 1am-4am I had stomache, lower abs cramps. Not quite AF cramps. I thought I was just sick to my stomach but the pains kept coming in half hour intervals and all I could think was - is my body f-ing with me with waves of pain to remind me that I'm not having waves of contractions??? So stupid but that's what I thought, I'm convinced my body is working against me now. Stressing and sad.

Then I think wait, maybe O was last week and this is some sign that we are going to have success this month! And then that seems nuts too.

I hate trying to read into signs but I can't stop myself. Anyone else feel this way?

Mellimo83

Im so so so sorry Karma, I can only imagine what this must be like for you right now. I dont have any advice, but know that we're all here to lean on tomorrow.

 

karma79

Thank you! I appreciate the kind words very much.

starrynyt

I'm so sorry that you're dealing with this and that tomorrow will be very difficult.  It's just not fair.  I completely know what you mean about reading into everything.  I don't have any great advice...it seems impossible not to.  (((hugs)))

iggy.d

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, and you're not alone. (((HUGS)))

vitan

Our minds definitely like to play tricks on us and it pretty much rules our bodies. I hope that the cramping is a good sign and not just a cruel joke.

I'm sorry that you have to endure this mental and physical pain but hope it's worth it in the end. (((hugs)))

Kristipie

((big hugs)) I'm so sorry you are going through this and keeping FX that your body was giving you a good sign.

Tapatio

I'm guilty of reading too much into my physical symptoms. I think it's only natural when you are pinning so much hope on getting pg month after excrutiating month. I'm so sorry about your EDD. They are absolutely heartbreaking. ((Big hugs)) to you and make sure you take some time to take care of yourself ((extra hugs)).

brenn

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry to hear you're going through something so hard.  I don't think I'll ever forgot my dates - EDDs, dates of losses for both, etc. We just can't forget.  Allow yourself to have a bad day tomorrow and know you have a ton of ladies supporting you.  Hugs and good luck dealing with the heartache

karma79

You all are the best. Your words help than you know.

My DH, mom, sister in law and 1 coworker are in the loop about tomorrow - I think most everyone else has forgotten.

mizdiz444

(((HUGS))) so sorry you are going through this.

StaceyM06

I'm so sorry. I haven't reached either of my EDDs, but I know they're going to be horrible. I don't see how it's impossible to forget that day. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. Maybe do something special for yourself and your DH to keep yourselves busy.  

Since we have been TTC I constantly think my body is giving me signals (I've been both wrong and right) so I don't think you're crazy at all.  GL - I hope you get your BFP so you can also have a wonderful memory about this month. 

jertie

EDDs are very difficult, I am so sorry that you are going through this.  I will be thinking about you tomorrow and hoping that everything goes as smoothly as possible.  ((BIG HUGS))