I feel like it is never easy

Banana44

It feels like after 1 things go wrong, things just snowball - and I blame my age for everything.

I had an early natural loss on Dec. 16, but ever since then I have been pretty much bleeding non-stop.  I had 8 days without bleeding since Dec. 16.  Finally saw OB today and they want me on Progesterone for 14 days to try to jumpstart me into normal cycles. Which means I won't have a true cycle until mid-February (maybe).

It just feels like it takes forever to get to the next cycle that can be productive.  I'm just down today.  I've been starting to feel like things aren't going to workout and I need to make peace with having just 1 child.  My spirits will lift again soon - I guess I just needed to vent.  Thanks for the ear!

 

Llamamama

I am so sorry about your loss.   I know what you mean about feeling things just aren't going to work out.  I hate being out of control.  I just want to MAKE this happen and cannot.  It's a terrible feeling.. I sure hope things start looking up for you!

Mrs.McIrish

Banana44:

It feels like after 1 things go wrong, things just snowball - and I blame my age for everything.

I had an early natural loss on Dec. 16, but ever since then I have been pretty much bleeding non-stop.  I had 8 days without bleeding since Dec. 16.  Finally saw OB today and they want me on Progesterone for 14 days to try to jumpstart me into normal cycles. Which means I won't have a true cycle until mid-February (maybe).

It just feels like it takes forever to get to the next cycle that can be productive.  I'm just down today.  I've been starting to feel like things aren't going to workout and I need to make peace with having just 1 child.  My spirits will lift again soon - I guess I just needed to vent.  Thanks for the ear!

 

I hear ya! I keep wondering if my elevated FSH/low AMH is the universe telling me to stop TTC and go on with my life without any kids.  I'm wondering if I should not do any procedures and move on because living with this uncertainty and impending drug/poking/prodding is consuming me which isn't healthy.

Banana44

Mrs.McIrish:

Banana44:

It feels like after 1 things go wrong, things just snowball - and I blame my age for everything.

I had an early natural loss on Dec. 16, but ever since then I have been pretty much bleeding non-stop.  I had 8 days without bleeding since Dec. 16.  Finally saw OB today and they want me on Progesterone for 14 days to try to jumpstart me into normal cycles. Which means I won't have a true cycle until mid-February (maybe).

It just feels like it takes forever to get to the next cycle that can be productive.  I'm just down today.  I've been starting to feel like things aren't going to workout and I need to make peace with having just 1 child.  My spirits will lift again soon - I guess I just needed to vent.  Thanks for the ear!

 

I hear ya! I keep wondering if my elevated FSH/low AMH is the universe telling me to stop TTC and go on with my life without any kids.  I'm wondering if I should not do any procedures and move on because living with this uncertainty and impending drug/poking/prodding is consuming me which isn't healthy.

It's just the universe telling you it's not going to make things easy!  I know we are all strong enough to get through this - it is just a b!tch sometimes.  I'll keep my chin up if you keep yours up! 

Tonight - I'll let myself cry - have a glass or 2 of wine - and then tomorrow I will look forward to February!  I'll even have an exrta glass for you.  And your numbers are disheartening, but doesn't put you out of the game!

HappyMrsK

I'm sorry for your loss. I feel your frustration with things not being within your control. I hope it works out and we gets lots of BFP's on this board soon

CityPixie

Nope it's not.  TTC is really, really hard.  Just take good care of yourself OK? oh and "eff the numbers"!  -Pix

boymamaco

I am so sorry for your loss and for having to wait until Mid Feb to get back to a normal cycle. I agree that the most frustrating part of this is the waiting, and wondering. We had to wait almost three months for our first RE appointment, and after getting MH's S/A numbers back, I pretty much knew we wouldn't be able to do anything on our own. So frustrating. Hang in there!