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  • ardillaardilla member
    The word "sorry" can't even begin to touch the reality.  Know we all will be thinking about you.
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  • roaringrockroaringrock

    no no no no NOOOOOOOOO!

    I REFUSE to believe this. NO WAY! you had some dumbaSS u/s tech who was inexperienced. this is just an HORRIFIC nightmare you are having and you'll wake up fine. this cannot be happening.

    I'm crying for you T. my heart is broken and I'm devastated... bloody heLL...

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  • vandelayvandelay member

    Oh no.  No, no no.  How horribly, unspeakably unfair! 

    There just are no words that work.  But know you're in our hearts.

                                  

      
                                   
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  • beebabybeebaby member
    i am so unbelievably sorry.  my heart just hurts reading this.  ugh. life is so hard sometimes.  that is not to say that i don't think that you won't bounce back and regain your immeasurable strength that has taken you through this incredibly difficult journey.  take care of yourself my dear.
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  • jenber77jenber77
    Oh, Tracie, I can't believe this. How absolutely heartbreaking. I'm so very sorry.
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  • MrsRyan61804MrsRyan61804 member

    Noooo! My heart sank reading this. I'm speechless! I'm sooooo sorry Sad

    ((HUGS))

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  • juliannatjuliannat
    I am so, so sorry for your loss.
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  • ked1068ked1068
    I'm so incredibly sorry to hear this.  My heart sunk when I saw your FB post.
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  • KMB7KMB7 member

    T, sorry doesn't even fit.... I have no words.... stomping my foot and screaming like my toddlers do. NOT FAIR. 

    We love you (((hugs))) 

    TTC since 7/06, found out about PCOS on 8/31/06 Dec.2007~ Metformin 1500mg, prenatals, Femara 2.5mg)(cd3-7), Gonal F 100iu(cd5-?) and Ovidrel with TI. DH~ antibiotics to improve motility (cd1-10)
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  • newsbabynewsbaby
    I am so very sorry.
    TTC since 8/07 DX - Severe MFI/azoospermia & MTHFR/ TESEs found sperm - 7/08 & 6/09/ 12/08 - IVF#1 - BFN/ 6/09 - IVF #2 - cancelled due to OHSS risk (had retrieval)/ 7/09 - FET #1 - BFN/ 9/09 - FET #2 - BFN/ 11/09 - IVF #3 with new RE cancelled twice - 10/09 & 11/09/ 1/10 - IVF #3 take 3 - BFN/ 4/10 - IVF #4 - first ever BFP on 5/13/10!!! 108 @ 10dp3dt/ 2nd beta 311!/ sono on 5/28/10 said TWINS!!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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  • futureMrs.EanesfutureMrs.Eanes
    I don't have any words to describe how upset I am for you.  My heart is broken.  I will hold your family in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • happytracyhappytracy member
    I am just so so sorry Tracie.
    Dx: PCOS/Amenorrhea/Anovulatory/lining problems. Clomid = BFN's. Lots of cancelled cycles due to thin lining or cysts. IUI#1= Follistim, estrace and endometrin = BFN IUI#2= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories and endometrin= BFN. IUI#3= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories, femtrace and endometrin= BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isabella born in June via C-section!!!!! She is so incredible! Went back to RE to TTC#2 and got a WONDERFUL surprise!! Baby #2 on their way!! My Beautiful son Liam born Feb, 2011!! Lilypie image Lilypie First Birthday tickers
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  • AvaLikeLavaAvaLikeLava member
    F to the uck. Hugs T! I'm so sorry!!!
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  • sommerraynesommerrayne
    Beyond words sad for you. I hope you get answers ASAP and that you're able to spend your "vacation" (and I totally get that its not going to even be close to that for you) being centered with your family and without external influences (work, internets, family's input and "well wishes" that always come across idiotic and heartless).

    We are here for you but take as lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng as you need! I'm here to chat about late term losses if you ever want to, having experienced one myself.
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  • kirs10nBrycekirs10nBryce
    oh Tracie, I am so sorry.  So, so sorry.
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  • TandWTandW
    Oh no.  No, no no!  Oh sweetie, I am SO sorry for your loss.  :(
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  • t.birdt.bird member
    i'm so very sorry :(
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  • JillRock96JillRock96 member
    F*ck.  Sorry doesn't even begin to describe it.  So angry for you.
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  • kimberickimberic

    There are no words. This really sucks. :(

    I'll be thinking of you and your family. 


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  • GreenEyedGalGreenEyedGal member
    Just logged on, I am late on this but I'm so sorry times a million. My heart aches for you.
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  • JM1977JM1977 member
    Oh, I just checked this board for the first time today and just feel devastated to see this.  I am so overwhelmingly sorry for your losses.
    TTC with DOR, low morphology, fertilization issues
    IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
    IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
    DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
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    TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!

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  • desabeandesabean member

    Wow.  I am shocked. 

    I really thought this was IT for you.  I am so, so sorry.

    wow.  fvck.

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  • nicolita14wnicolita14w

    I do not know what to say. I am beyond devastated for you. I will be thinking you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

    A million (((hugs)))

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  • igh0318igh0318
    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.  (((HUGS)))
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  • SparklyCutieSparklyCutie
    OMG< it's so incredibly unfair, my heart is breaking for you hun, I have never met you ....but I want to hug you. You are in my thoughts, it's just awful...don't know what else to say. xo


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    BFP # 2 - February 2011-(1500mg Met, HCG Injection) Missed M/C at 10w1d, discovered at 10w3d, D&C at 11w...RPL testing came back all normal.

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  • browneyedgrl4282browneyedgrl4282 member
    I am so sorry, I am thinking about you!!!
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  • j11skatej11skate
    I am so sorry!  I don't even know what to say right now!  Big HUGE hugs!
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  • choco_labchoco_lab
    There are no words.  Take care of yourself. 
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    Hypothyroid, LPD, FSH 13.0, TTC 2 yrs B4 BFP

    TTC #2: FSH 23, AMA, IUI 1, 2, 3 = BFN, IVF #1 = MC
    IVF #2 = BFP - Betas 194 (14dp2dt), 366 (16 dp2dt), 841 (18 dp2dt)
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  • nicole&carlnicole&carl

    I am so sorry and my heart hurts for you. It's so unfair. I will be thinking of you. *HUGS*

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  • here4uhere4u

    I am crying for you.  I can't believe what I just read :(   Take the time you need right now, and I hope your vacation can distract you even for just a little while.

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  • irishdoirishdo

    This is devastating news.  I just gave a big ole FU to 2010 and I am now extending it to 2011.

     I am so sorry.

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  • jmkatzjmkatz
    I am so, so sorry :(  I wish there was more I could say.
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  • laura1laura1 member
    There are no words...I am just so sorry for your loss.  Keeping you in my prayers.
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  • erin5407erin5407
    Not effing unfair :(.   We are all heartbroken for you.   I'm so so sorry :(
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  • wvagirlwvagirl member
    This is just not fair. I am thinking of you.
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  • malloryo85malloryo85
    Crap! I am beyond devastated and heartbroken for you. This is so freaking unfair and I am sorry. Take your time and know that we are all thinking of you.
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  • sweetpea18sweetpea18 member

    :(

    My heart just sank. 

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  • ela81ela81
    I have no words. I am so pissed and angry and sad for you, FUIF. Teez, Peez and hugz coming your way.
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  • leslies75leslies75

    My heart hurts for you. Seriously.

    So sorry.

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  • tina623tina623 member
    This is horrible.  I am just so so sorry.  I don't know what to say.  I am heartbroken for your loss.  (((((hugs))))) honey. 
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