OB appointment..

hmclaughlin10

Does anyone else find it extremely hard to walk into one of your obgyn's rooms? They have all of those pictures of pregnant women and magazines that are all about pregnancys. I had a huge melt down just walking in there. I couldn't stand it. The poor nurse was taking my blood pressure and I was just bawling because I couldn't stand being in there. Then she asked me why I was there and I started crying even more. She felt so bad and just gave me a hug, but I was so embarrassed at that point.

Our obgyn is a good family friend of my husbands family, so she is definitely very comforting and loving. She as well gave me a big hug and said she had been thinking about us, but didn't want to call because she knew we were going through a difficult time and struggling. Everything was normal with the baby; no cancer or any sign of a disability. It just couldn't keep developing. Nothing is wrong with me either, she said everything looks good and we will be well on our way to trying again when I have 2 normal cycles.

She suggested talking to a counselor and I think I may try and do that. I live in a fairly small town and because of how small it is, work is very hard to find, so basically I am cooped up in the house all day and I think far too much. I think it would be good for me to have someone to talk too, because at this point I am starting to go stir crazy. I don't really know a lot people here besides family & a few family friends; this town seems to have quite the rumor mill so I don't want to get too close to anyone. So I guess we will see how that goes?

Other than that, I think the appointment went really well and I feel a tad bit better. Still feel sad and have no motivation, but hopefully that will go away with time. I have a follow up with her on the 29th and I guess we will see more test results then. Hope everyone else that had an appointment today went well. You are all in my thoughts! Thanks for all the support, you ladies rock!

mdhealy676

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I see in your siggy that you only recently got married.  We got married in June and had our first loss in July.  It seems like you go from the extreme highs of being newly married and then so quickly pregnant to the extreme lows after the loss.  We're supposed to enjoying being newlyweds now, not dealing with grief, right?  Talking to someone is a great idea if you find that you're having trouble working through things.  We all hav great advice and personal stories to share but that's not always what you need.  (((hugs)))