I just don't know what is wrong with me...

dimake

Maybe it's the holidays coming up, maybe it's just being tired from not getting enough sleep and the stress of having surgery a couple of weeks ago.  Maybe it's work, maybe it's not getting any money from XH for child support...  it just has been one of those weekends where all of the BS from XH feels like it just happened yesterday. 

I spent the whole weekend crying, on the verge of tears, or trying to distract myself...  on the bright side, I got some Christmas shopping done, but I don't even have a reason to pinpoint the sadness.  It's just EVERYTHING.

I made an appointment to go see my counselor on Wednesday, and maybe I need to go back on AD's for a little while.  I just hate not having control over my emotions.  I wish I could hibernate until Christmas is over...

DarthNBJenni

Christmas for my girls isn't going to be big this year. They each get one toy (doll bed for audrey, keyboard for natalie) and will share a dollhouse. I hate that money is so tight

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achase123

I am sorry that you are going through this.  The holidays are TOUGH.  I always feel better after I see my counselor.  ((HUGS))

PS-we were wondering where you were!

dimake

Ugh, XH just called me - he saw that his paycheck was short because of a garnishment was on there, he wanted to know if that was from me...

(It's not, I'm waiting until the beginning of the year when I start having the girls on my insurance because then I can get reimbursed for it.)

We're guessing it's from one of his creditors (from the flat screen and sectional that I get to enjoy every day ).  But then he whines and moans about how much his life sucks - KNOWING he doesn't get any sympathy from me (which I acknowledged).

While I wanted to say "This is what happens when you fvck around on your pregnant wife", I was at work, so I merely told him "I worked my butt off to avoid this outcome."

alibabbbs

Oh, dimake. I'm sorry. I really do think that the holidays intensify everything. I'd also like to hibernate until xmas is over. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself by scheduling an appt and considering going back on AD's. Hugs!