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Magdelaina

Well  I am new to this since I had my DS just over a week ago. let me start  by saying that the women in my family including myself have had a history of depression/anxiety leading back at least 3 generations.

So now to present day. I had a c-section on the 28th and was released on the 31st to go home. The first night was fine but the next day we had to go to the Peds office and while there I thought  I was going to pass out and get sick. After the Dr. checked out my son they got me an appt with my OB. So I go to the appt and find out my hemoglobin (sp?) was drastically low and that I needed Iron supplements. So we got that straightened out and on Tuesday when my DH had to go back to work I lost it. I felt like my skin was crawling, my heart was going to jump out of my chest, and I was hysterical. So I begged him to call my mother and we went back to my OB's who prescribed xantax as needed for the crawling feeling, then also zoloft but he stated that it will take approximately 2 weeks for it to work. He sstarted me on 50 but knows I will probably need to increase that.

I have a great support system with family just down the road, and a great husband. I have also talked my sister into coming to stay with me (she lives in AK) till  her husband comes for the entire month of December. I can't really explain my fears and why I feel this way. After the anxiety there is feelings of emptiness.

 I love my son and every minute of it! It's just that I can't get a handle on myself. I mean he sleeps 4-5 hours at a time (Dr. approved since he was already back to birth weight) eats like a champ but no longer will latch since he wanted more after 2 days and my milk hadn't come in yet. So pumping is the way I have to counter the issue. With my Dr.'s advice we split the breast milk with the formula since the meds.

I just really needed to get this out in writing and this board has helped mt see that I am not the only one.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

LauraKP05

You are totally not alone.  I had my daughter on 10/26 and I too have been having some issues with my depression.  I am also freaking out and have had an upset stomach all day knowing that my DH goes back to work tomorrow and I am going to be all alone with DD and I am not sure how I am going to manage it.  DH has been taking up most of the baby care as I am so down and depressed it is hard for me to take care of myself yet take care of DD.  I am getting so anxious and nervous about DH going back to work.  My mom is going to come stay the night Tuesday and be here with my on Wednesday so I am covered those days.  I promised my family I would call my OB tomorrow to see if I could go on some medication to help me and I am nervous about that as I have never been on medication for my depression as I have always gotten somewhat through it with counseling.

I hope you start to feel better.  I too am glad about this board as it is good to know that you are not alone even though I would not wish this upon anyone:(  Hang in there and it is great you have a wonderful support system to help you out as that is so important!!! 

sinisterkat01

Hi there,

I am new to this board too.  I haven't posted my own update yet, but I'll just put my story here.

I had my daughter on 10/26, and I was fine for the 5 days in the hospital after the c/s.  Shortly after we got home, I started to feel a little off.  My DH stayed the weekend with me, and an extra day on Monday.  By Sunday night, I was crying uncontrollably thinking about him going back to work.  It turns out that he talked his MIL, and my mother into helping me, so I haven't been alone for a full day yet.  It definitely helps to have people here, but unfortunately, I am still breaking down in crying fits, and just feeling terribly anxious and/or sad all of the time.  Whenever I think of DH going back to work in the morning, it really sets me off.  So I wake up in tears every day.

The baby is having some BF'ing issues, so I am doing half formula and half BM right now, but I really might just switch to formula soon.  Started Zoloft yesterday, but I might be having some mild side effects.  I really hope to find a therapy group, or a therapist soon.

I sympathize with all of you, and send you big hugs.  We can get through this.