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fvck you, universe :(

EclairAngstEclairAngst
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Dear Universe,

Really?  First the m/c and now my dog?  Did you have to go after my dog?  Why?   

All he's ever wanted, since we rescued him, was some love.  He never asked for anything else.  He was so happy to have a home and we were so happy to have his sweet, bumbling personality in our lives. 

He soaked up many of my tears this summer and now we have to make the decision to put him to sleep.  And even if he has to go, it couldn't just be something sudden, right?  No.  As if loss isn't a constant in our minds, we now have to *decide* to experience yet another one. 

Oh wait.  Thanks for, right this moment, serving up the third blow.  A nice text to let me know that DH did not get the job he was interviewing for last week.  Nicely played, Universe.  Now please, go fvck off.  I think you've done enough. 

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  • ColleenS629ColleenS629 member
    Sad I'm so sorry. Huge hugs!
    m/c 7/17/10
    Dx: MFI- 3% morph
    IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
    IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
    3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
    Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance

    FET: Medicated FET moved up to 5/23 due to ovulation
    Transferred a 6BB hatched blastocyst- genetically normal female embryo
    BFP! 5/28- 5dp6dt      
    6/1 Beta #1- 223! 6/3 Beta #2- 567!

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  • LnR70707LnR70707 member
    I am so very sorry.  Putting a beloved pet to sleep is so very hard.  ((big hugs))


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    TTC #2 - 6/12 surgery #3, FET #1 & 1.2 = BFN, 12/2012 FET #2 = BFP! DD is 1.5 yrs!
    Surprise! 12/16/14 BFP, loss #2 12/31/14

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  • AmyRMAmyRM
    :( I am so sorry about your dog. My furbabies mean everything to me - to us. So heartbreaking to hear one had to go. Much love to you. *HUG*
    BFP #1 Valentine's Day BFP! February 14th 2010 Missed M/C 11w5d ~ forever in our hearts.
    BFP #2 EDD September 30, 2012 ~ natural m/c 5w4d
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  • Mrs.AlbieMrs.Albie member
    Fvck you, universe is right!  My heart breaks for you.  Thats too much sadness and loss all at once.  I'm so sorry that you have to go through this...  I wish you the best and send you (((BIG HUGS)))
    DS1 born 3/30/09
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  • jamilynn9jamilynn9 member
    I'm so sorry.
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  • michroccmichrocc member

    I'm so sorry, sweetie.

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    BFP#1 10/19/09, m/c 12/5/09, BFP#2 2/03/12, m/c 2/12/12, BFP#3 3/18/13, LO born 11/22/13

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  • lorlei13lorlei13 member
    Oh you just made me tear up.  I am so sorry.  It's so unfair and so hard to let our furbabies go.  {{BIG HUGS}}
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  • lunatwolunatwo member
    Sad
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    8/08 BFP resulted in m/c
    3/09 Polyp removed and dx MTHFR (both copies)
    6 Clomid cycles, all BFN
    5/09 IUI#1 with Clomid=BFN
    6/09 IUI#2 with Clomid=BFN
    8/09 IUI#3 with Clomid=BFN
    IVF#1 = BFN
    IVF#2 = BFN
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  • Aubs13Aubs13 member

    Oh, hon....I'm so sorry.  Give your puppy a hug from us, and hang in there....Broken Heart

    And universe, seriously....lay the *** off. 

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  • Kristin&AdamKristin&Adam
    I am so, so sorry.  Lots and lots of hugs and good thoughts to you today!
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  • rock-ellerock-elle member

    OMG, I will honestly say that if there was one thing that would make everything perfectly horrible right now it would be if something happened to my pup. I am so so soo sorry hon (I'm tearing up for you as I type this Crying)  I, like many, know how much a pup can do for ones mood when things are up and down.  They are a cuddle buddy and just a constant source of entertainment.

    I am so sorry hon, I really really am Sad Boy, when it rains it pours...

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  • MCH77MCH77 member

    I am so sorry.  ((HUGS))  He will be missed.

    My parents just put down our cat that we had for 17 years last week.  I don't understand why this all happens.

    BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010

    BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011

    BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013

    BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy.  Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)    

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    BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014

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  • SaraP2010SaraP2010 member

    imagelorlei13:
    Oh you just made me tear up.  I am so sorry.  It's so unfair and so hard to let our furbabies go.  {{BIG HUGS}}

    I teared up as well.  This is so awful.  I'm so sorry! 

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  • tlcW0714tlcW0714
    I'm so sorry!!  ((hugs))
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  • GuppyAmyGuppyAmy member
    I'm sorry. It seems inadequate given all you are going through.
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  • jms2005jms2005
    I'm so sorry. (((HUGE hugs)))
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  • nbbride06nbbride06 member
    (((hugs)))
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  • DowagerCountessofNJDowagerCountessofNJ
    I'm so sorry.  Sad  :::HUGS:::
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  • CashewsMommyCashewsMommy member

    ((((hugs))))

    I am so sorry!!!!

    You've brought me to Crying.

    I really hope some good things start coming your way.


    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
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  • Sunflower730Sunflower730 member

    I am heartbroken for you. I can't fathom putting one of my babies down they are my world. I am crying for you. I am so sorry.

     

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  • itsmeginitsmegin

    I am so so so sorry. I know exactly how you feel. I had my mom diagnosed with cancer and then the miscarriage and I was just like, "Really?!!" It is totally unfair and you have every right to be totally p!ssed at the world right now.

    I hope things start looking up but until then, vent away!! So sorry about the dog, that is tragic. Left Hug

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    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
     BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

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  • jillcanadajillcanada
    Bigs hugs, sweetie. I had to put down my dog two days after I found out my boys had died. PM me if you want anytime.
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    BFP #2: 01/31/2010, Identical Twins died in utero due to TTTS, D&E 05/19/2010
    BFP #3: 09/16/2010, natural m/c 9/21/2010
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    BFP #4: 01/11/2011
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  • jerriesgirljerriesgirl
    I'm so sorry you have to make this decision. It just isn't fair.  ((Hugs))
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  • ravenorchidravenorchid
    I am so so sorry! It's so unfair that you have to deal with this on top of everything. Your dog sounds like such a sweetie. It's so heartbreaking. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • babes12babes12 member
    oh no, i'm so very sorry.  losing a pet is losing a member of the family, (hugs) to you. 
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  • stillbakingstillbaking member
    Oh I'm so sorry. Having to make that choice is heartbreaking. Hugs to you.
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    TTC#1 since May 2009
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    Bean - BFP May 26, 2010. EDD Feb 3, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 8w5d - June 29, 2010.
    Pumpkin - BFP Feb 8, 2011. EDD Oct 21, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 6w3d - Feb 28, 2011.

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  • EntropicEponaEntropicEpona member

    I'm so very sorry. Once again, the universe deserves a punch in the d!ck.

    Peaceful thoughts to you and your family, and your beloved pups. It's so damn hard.

    12 long, hard years of TTC-
    Miscarriages, losses, lots of treatments & drugs & IVF


    Natural BFP (WTF?!) - 06/04/11 ~ lots of complication and drama, but sweet baby Adele born 02/07/12!

    BFP #million -another girl for us! EDD - 05-08-15 (but will come early)

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  • Mrs.Leah.MariaMrs.Leah.Maria member
    I'm so sorry! That's just too much to handle. [hugs and alcohol to you]
    Isaac Levi 4/26/09 : BFP#2 - MC 9w : Ezra John 6/26/11 : Miriam Joy 4/12/13 : Naomi Ann 9/2/14

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  • carrielb12carrielb12
    IM SO SORRY :( (((hugs)))
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  • tctibbetctibbe member
    I'm so sorry....(((HUGS)))
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  • Ryan&Kristin062009Ryan&Kristin062009 member

    I'm so sorry. I have definitely been there. 10 days after our m/c we had to put down my family dog. We've also had 2 funerals (one a couple days before the m/c and one earlier this week). Sometimes life is just so terribly unfair.

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  • BlakeGBlakeG member
    I am so sorry sweetie.  What a painful decision to have to make.  Sending huge hugs. Hang in there.  It has to start getting better at some point (at least that's what I'm telling myself).
    Natural BFP - 2/13/10, Natural M/C - 3/9/10 (Missed m/c found at 8wks 4days) Prenatal B/W shows I'm a Beta Thal carrier & so is DH. Onto IVF w/PGD... Jan 2011 - IVF #1 - C/P Mar 2011 - IVF #2 - Day 5 PGD, no ET, 5 snow babies May 2011 - FET #1 - BFP!! Twins!!! 2/9/12 - Our precious miracles arrived! Baby A 7lbs 13oz & Baby B 5lbs 13oz
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  • janiem1120janiem1120 member
    I'm so very sorry about your puppy and the bad news you have been getting. I know how hearbreaking it is to put an animal down and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Broken Heart {{[Hugs}}}}
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  • shy287shy287 member
    I am sooooooo sorry!
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  • Olive44Olive44 member
    I'm so sorry.  I had to go through this almost a year ago.  I know how unbelievably hard it is.  My heart breaks for you.  (((hugs)))
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  • PrincessDi80PrincessDi80
    Fvck you universe!! I am so sorry :(
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  • magdalina.hmagdalina.h member
    I'm so sorry
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  • millejj1millejj1 member
    Oh no! I'm so sorry! Hugs!
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    I'm so sorry!
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