Okay. I don't really know how to put all of this into words. I'm so frazzled right now and I'm running on absolute empty.
Hubs and I have been fighting, fighting, fighting. It's gotten to be so unbearable. I have no idea if we can really make it through this. We had problems before our MC, but after talking to him last night...I think it's apparent that it might be a contributing factor.
We don't really discuss it anymore, just because I've moved on for the most part...okay maybe not. But to me, it does no good talking about it with him because he just doesn't understand. Anyway, last night he brought up some things that have been stressing him out/bothering him and the MC was one of them. He went on about how he wanted that baby and he's sad too and all of that. It's all very frustrating to me. I honestly sometimes wish it had never happened. That I had never gotten a BFP or that I never told him. There's nothing I can do to fix the situation and obviously getting PG again is just not in the cards for us. Babies don't fix marriages, as much as I'd like to believe they do.
I just feel like nothing is helping and nothing is going to but perhaps time? It's been over 3 months now and like I said, I feel I've adapted pretty well but I wish I could just wake up and it would have never happened. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind kinda stuff.