and I need advice. Im really embarrased about this. I don't know where to start to figure out if ppd is the problem. I just want to cry all the time, but I dont. Sometimes during the day I get a crazy feeling. It feels like I cant breath, my chest starts to hurt. I sit down and drink some water and about 20-30 mins later I feel a little bit better, but just so tired. When the kids go down for a nap I crash out with them for atleast 2 hours, a few times 3 and Im still tired. I wake up tired. I just dont feel like Im doing my best as a mom when I just want to take a little break just to lay out on the sofa.
Things with hubby or good other than we only had sex once since I had the baby...I could care less about it and feel horrible when he's trying so hard and I just want to lay there and cry b/c I just dont feel like it. Im perfectly fine with just cuddling, but sometimes I dont even want him to touch me.
At times it feels as if my body want to rip in half...its scary b/c I don't know how to control what I'm feeling. When I try to explain it to dh its really hard for me to express what im feeling at times...he's completly clueless. He just ask what should he do to help. Should I talk to someone about it? the few people I told about this said it's going to go away, but it hasnt yet. I just dont want it to start affecting my kids. I try very hard during the day for it not to. Its tiring to keep a happy face on when I dont feel to happy inside.
Sorry if this is all jumbled up, this is how my mind is working lately. Thanks for listening and any advice given.
Re: Thinking I may have ppd...
Hi - don't be embarrassed, we're all here with you! I'd encourage you to call your ob and tell her how you're feeling - she can refer you to a therapist/have you come in to talk to her. Maybe seeing a therapist for a little while will help, maybe some medication can help - take it one step at a time.
GL - and come back and tell us how you're doing!
You are still in the 4th trimester - I think part of those feelings are normal - especially the sex thing and not wanting to be touched. Do you have any reading material on being a new mom and the first several weeks? It may help to read up on what is normal for you right now. Do NOT expect to feel as normal as you did before you got pg.
As far as the freaking out - you could definitely have anxiety issues or something. Its no big deal ti call your OB and schedule an appointment to see if you have PPD. GL.