nerves are trying to kill me!!!

atdowns

ugh I'm so nervous. I guess a previous loss wakes ones brain to the potentiality so I hae this intence urget to take a pregnancy test every day LOL but then i'm nervous and dont want to be unfaithful so i dont.. but then I wonder and want to... arg!!! I've woken up with a miniature panic attack every night since we got our bfp. ugh I cant want to see a heart beat, I think that will chill me out alot, atleast for a while anyway. UGH sometimes I wish i lived in a time when we didnt have pregnancy tests and ultrasounds.. a little benign ignorance would be really nice right about now LOL

Sarahp63

I hear ya. Tomorrow is our 2nd ultrasound, where we better see AND hear a hb. I have been having a lot of panic attacks and trying to  just get through the days. I have thought about poas too, but honestly they would be positive regardless at this point, its not an indicator of a healthy pregnancy. It sucks though. I try to stay busy a lot and tell myself this is God's will. ((hugs))

KeriMac

I understand the anxiety!  I have been trying very hard to think more positively and the women on this board have given me strength and hope!!!

KeyRyn320

I was like all of you until we had our u/s last week. Seeing our "blob" and seeing and hearing the heartbeat has definitely put me at ease lately. I'm not wondering if everything is OK in there so just know it will get better once you see your LO snuggled comfortably in there