I got my degree in Broadcasting and worked for 20-some years in television news. Lived my dream of working in a top 20 market. An amazing time and incredible experiences, but by my late 30s, it was fast becoming apparent that I needed to do something else. As I grew older, I became more disillusioned with the business and the politics of it all. Not to mention the direction the modern day media is taking. But I digress!
Always dreamed I'd find my "Mr. Right." A lot of praying and patience finally paid off and I'm very fortunate to have met my husband. I'm now surprised to find I'm a SAHM. NOT what I envisioned, but I'm incredibly thankful that I married a man who is smart, well educated and well employed so that I can stay home with the baby.
I'm doing the job I wanted (I would love to see exotics but doing shelter medicine is a fine trade-off for me), have a great man and amazing friends, live in a fantastic city, started a family when I wasn't sure we would be able to - I have so much to be thankful for. I am really excited that the end of his training is just 2 years and 3 months away...and with it finally comes financial security (a house, a car that isn't a piece of crap - it's just stuff but, well, you know...).
15-20 years ago when I thought of myself as an adult I did have a slightly different picture. There are personal flaws that I can't believe I am still struggling with as I approach 40. Why have I not conquered certain things like being more patient, not putting my foot in my mouth....I get so frustrated with myself sometimes.
This is a great post and question! I *did* fulfill what I wanted to be--but I think I'm having a mid-life crisis, because now I'm not sure I want to be here. And I'm not sure what I want to do. I have a master's in a field different from what I do now--education--and while I used it for a few years, I'm not really using it now. I have visions of doing something completely different, something that'd require another degree, but I don't know how practical that is. So basically I'm completely conflicted.
I did, however, realize that I really love being a mom--I never was one to fantasize about having babies, but now that I have one and we've settled in, I am overwhelmed with how awesome she is and I want more.
I am nothing like or where I thought I would be.
As a child I trained as a ballet dancer for ten years. Once the academy said it was time to commit - dance full time and leave regular school my parents decided to stop my training. To this day I wonder "what if."
As for my DH, I had always dated guys who could be in a JCrew catelog. Very preppy and DH was completely different. Now after 16 years I have completely rubbed off on him and he is my well-dressed and very dapper husband.
I never thought I would be a mom or that I would love my son as much as I do. I never thought I would gain as much weight as I have.
I was able to sing professionally and make a living at it for 20 years, travel, etc - I feel very lucky. There were times that I had dreams of "making it big" and getting a recording contract, but I look at a closet full of long dresses I used to wear every night and I don't miss it, nor would I trade anything for being a Mama now. She truly is my dream come true... (and DH too!)
Mari - there is nothing wrong with going where life takes you - I think this is a beautiful way to live.
I wanted to be a stay at home mom who was a famous artist. I need to get back to art... I've let that go for SO long. Not sure why. And unless we win the lottery, I won't ever be a SAHM. C'est la vie.