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Do you ever stop blaming yourself?
I am having one of those days when I look at DD and break down. The guilt and worry and anxiety just overwhelms me. I did everything right in my pregnancy. I know it wasn't my "fault" but the guilt for what DD faces is just completely overwhelming. I hate having a label on my child. I hate that she won't have a "normal" childhood. She's just a child and doesn't deserve this.
I wish with all of my heart that I could take her problems and make them my own. To start life with such challenges makes me feel sick to my stomach for her.
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Re: Do you ever stop blaming yourself?
I hear you. I think many of us have felt this way at one time or another. And I know that every single one of us wish we could take our child's difficulties away if we had the power. I totally understand your feelings and would trade places with my son in a heartbeat if I could. Unfortunately, that is not possible, however what I can do is work my hardest to give my son the best possible chance in life despite the difficulties facing him. Big hugs to you. I am sorry you are having one of those days.
SAHM to 4 kiddos... K (5/05), N (4/09), C (11/10) and Baby A 1/13/14
I know exactly how you feel and I'm so sorry. Just try to be strong and happy for your little girl so that she knows/senses that mommy is happy and all is right in her world. :-)
Our DS is blind and so many times I've wished to give him my eyes. The discovery stage is so so hard b/c we keep finding out bad news. Try not to get down on yourself too much.
DH put it this way to me once when I was whining about why this had to happen to us, why DS had these problems etc. He said "Do you think these white trash people could take care of a baby like Sawyer? Do you think they could love and provide for him as well as we can? We were given him for a reason and we have to honor that commitment and responsibility." So true.