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MrsEnglishbride

I am having a total pity party over here, so please do not mind me. I am just so frustrated with my body. I have never been really "sick" my entire life, have never been in the hospital as a kid or anything. Going through IF is the first time my body has 'failed me'. I have never seen so many doctors, nurses, needles, pills, tests, BILLS, etc. etc. in my life and I am so frustrated that for something SO important I am a failure. I feel like this is the one thing that should be so natural, and for some reason it is such a struggle. So far IF has been an emotional and physical rollercoaster. A ride that I am so sad to have to take. I know I have not been at this as long as some of the ladies on the board, and I know I have many more doctors, tests, etc. ahead of me. I am just sad tonight.

Thanks for letting me vent!

lilredj

I hear ya girl!!!  I am right there with you. 

Never in my life have I used my insurance the way I have this year alone!  I have pitty parties for myself everyonce in a while! 

Megan928

It appears you and I are feeling the exact same way. I've never really been sick or had surgery before this year. I've had two since May. Every time I go to the doc it seems I leave in tears after learning of another "procedure" or medication I need. It's truly draining, emotionally, physically and financially. That's why this site is so important to all of us. It reminds us we're not alone - especially if you are not "out" to your IRL friends/family. I'm out to some, but not at work, so it's been hard putting on a happy face and being pleasant when all I want to do is cry or throw a tantrum. IF sucks...that's for sure! But, it will all be worth it when you have your LO! Good luck to you!