Did a lot of thinking this weekend...

Jamers615

and decided I had to say thank you to all of you again.

I think if I had been shunned from 2nd tri, I would have lost my mind.

DH, friends and family have been supportive, but you girls have made sure I didn't feel like I had to just stop chit chatting around here, which is making things easier for me.  

That being said, DH is very worried, as are close family and friends, at my mental state.  I've got my 4 week follow up on Thursday (I can't believe it's already been almost a month) and DH is coming with me to make sure I tell them everything.  Truth be told, things aren't going well and I'm getting to a point where I can't function very well anymore.  I was in bed by 7pm last night and don't want to be awake now.  You can't leave me alone at all (this includes, say, driving to work) because all I do is cry.  PPD is a biznitch.  If that's what this is.  Which I have to assume it is, since I've never felt like this before.

I seriously feel like I am losing my mind.

I lurk a lot more than I used to lately, sometimes, I can't even bring myself to respond to posts, but I still enjoy reading everything here, you girls rock!  You keep me amused when I really don't want to talk to anyone, at least I can still lurk here and read happy things. 

LillyBug923

::Hugs:: I'm so sorry you are going through this.

sam19

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I couldn't even imagine going through the pain that you have to deal with. Make sure that you talk to your doctor about anti depressants. PPD, and depression in general, is very serious and never should be taken lightly. I'm so sorry for what you are going through and I think you will always be welcome on the tri boards.

FirefightersBride

You are always welcome here girl!!! I am so sorry that you have so much to deal with right now. I don't know how you feel about them, but ask your dr. for some anti-depressants. I am on Zoloft, mostly bc of the mood swings for me, but there is help out there for you. If meds arent' for you, you can always lean on us

snsgurl728

I'm so sorry. Come here whenever you need a little extra support.

HeyyRed

Jame, we're all in daily awe of you and love seeing you here on a daily basis!! We are rooting for you and are always here for you, I'm so glad you know that!

(you are going to jump with us yes when we go?)?

Jamers615

HeyyRed:

Jame, we're all in daily awe of you and love seeing you here on a daily basis!! We are rooting for you and are always here for you, I'm so glad you know that!

(you are going to jump with us yes when we go?) 

Of course!  I'm stalking you all until the bitter end!  

JuliaKL

couldn't agree with Red more... i have been so touched by your story and even more so your strength. ?i am sure that you are putting on your best face for the public, but please know that you can say whatever you need to. ?please make sure you are getting the support you need! ?tell us if we can do anything!

as a fellow chicagoan, the weather has to improve soon, and that can only help too ?are you a cubs or white sox fan??

HeyyRed

Jamers615:

HeyyRed:

Jame, we're all in daily awe of you and love seeing you here on a daily basis!! We are rooting for you and are always here for you, I'm so glad you know that!

(you are going to jump with us yes when we go?)?

Of course!? I'm stalking you all until the bitter end!??

We'll have to add you into the Skype Pay Per View Event that will be the birth of Gigantic Red.... It's easier than texting my 7 LBs...ha ha ha?

ChrissyK88

HeyyRed:

Jame, we're all in daily awe of you and love seeing you here on a daily basis!! We are rooting for you and are always here for you, I'm so glad you know that!

(you are going to jump with us yes when we go?) 

ditto.. i was actually thinkin this am when i was gettin ready for work... wonder where shes been... you should poke ur head in often! We think your AMAZING.

Starlette1983

I'm sorry that you are going through this!  Sounds like you are having a rough time right now.  I can only imagine how PPD must feel, and most likely made worse by grief from your loss.  Be open and honest with your doc when you talk to him about how you've been feeling, and I truly hope that they can do something to make you feel a bit better!!!