Just three more days until...

amberandcristian

WARNING: break down ahead....

I go back to work.  I lost it for the first time this evening and have been crying for the last half hour.  I know I should consider myself lucky that I got to stay home with DD for three whole months, but I am just so so sad that it won't be her and I all day anymore.  I have really cherished the time I've got to spend with her.  I go back to teaching my 7th graders on Monday, and none of them compare to my little girl.  I have to go back to leaving the house at 530am, and not being home until 5pm (I have over an hour commute each way).   

Right now it's even harder to go back b/c I work for LAUSD and was given a Reduction In Force notice, which means I might not even have a job next year.  DH is a teacher too, and also got one of these.  I am so mad and frustrated that both of us could be out of a job.  I am so sad about leaving DD, when all my hard work at my job might be in vain.

I am so afraid that I will miss something...that I won't be there to console her when she cries...that she will somehow not remember me after so many hours being apart.  My DH and mom are trying to assure me that nothing will disrupt the bond I share with DD, and deep down I know everything will all be okay, but I am just hurting inside.

The positive is that I only have to work one week, and then I get one more week off with her when school is out for Spring Break.  Then, only 10 weeks and summer vacation will be here.  Hopefully, by the grace of God, DH and I will find teaching jobs closer to home, and next year our day away will not be so long.

Okay, break down over.  Thanks for listening...err...reading. 

star173

I'm so sorry. I know it's hard. Your DD will not forget you. I think DD is happier to see me now. You'll get to be with her all summer, so that's something great to look forward to. It will get better, but honestly, I wish every day that I could be home with Kadence. Good luck.

JARbaby

I am so afraid that I will miss something...the first time you see something will be the first for you, you will miss nothing.

that I won't be there to console her when she cries...She will gain the valuable skill to allow others to comfort her, this will build trust.

that she will somehow not remember me after so many hours being apart.  Not a chance, there will even be some days when she is a toddler you wish you could let her stay another hours or two, lol. (I never know if I am picking up my princess or my wild beast)

The positive is that I only have to work one week, and then I get one more week off with her when school is out for Spring Break.  I am on break right now!

 

You will learn to see and love the value of getting out of the house and how much DC will thrive in daycare. From the things they learn from other children to the way they interact socially is wonderful.