Negative Vent (probably best to avoid this post)

krate24

Today I feel like throwing my hands up in the air and just hiding under my bed.  My appointment on Monday?  Probably going to be pointless.  They'll probably run even more tests, but for what?  They won't find anything.  My mom told me I should come to terms with the possibilty that I just can't have kids (she meant it in a nice way).  I guess I should, but that thought really makes me want to give up.  If I can't have kids, then I'll really feel like a failure as a woman and as a wife. 

So, life just sucks.  I already cried once at work, let me see if I can go for a record here.  Plus, my husband is tired of me being so negative.  But what's there to be positive about?  I know I could be objective and find lots of good things in my life, but I just don't feel like it.

Anyway, sometimes it feels good just to get things out, so that's why I'm posting.

mrs.viv07

oh sweetie i know just how you feel. i was thinking yesterday as i was driving home, i doo all these things supplements, progesterone, shots, pills up the wazoo temping, chartin opk, and for what BFN and a rollercoaster of emotions! I hate that its so easy for crackwhore prostitues to get pg so easily and they are doing it all worng and yet we the ones doing it right end up getting screwed over time and time again.
sorry this probably not helping your mood but i just wanted to say you are not alone in this.
(((HUGS)))

jayhawk2003

I am sorry you feeling so down.  I can't imagine what you are going through.  You're right, it is best to get it out of your system. (hugs) Don't give up!

MrsGhappilyeverafter

I'm so sorry hun.  Try to stay positive.  I know that's easier said than done.  But you will have your healthy sticky baby.  We're here for you anytime you need to vent.  ((HUGS))

JenyM

sometime we can't help but feel negative and defeated. i hope the venting made you feel a little better.

big hugs :-)

BeckyS1211

Ditto to what Viv said.  I'm sorry you're having a down day today.  You will get your baby.  big hugs to you.

ibis

I say let it out. Be angry. Be negative for a little while. I think you're entitled to that - your emotions are normal for what you're going through. You will pick yourself up and be positive again in the future, but at your own pace... that is ok.?

dmsmth

((hugs)) At this point your Dr's don't know why your placeta failed.  Honestly, it could be a fluke thing that won't happen again.  And unfortunately, you may never get answers as to why.  The one thing I learned from having my miscarriage, and don't get me wrong, it took me MONTHS to come to this conclusion, was that I had to believe that I would get pregnant again and that I would have a healthy, full term baby.  I know it's hard and those first few month afterwards are the hardest.  I never thought it would get better or that I would be able to be happy again.  But really as time goes by it does get easier and you will be happier again.  But until than you have so many hormones that are fluctating and your mood can change with in hours.

A local girl here, Yukon, lost her daughter due to pre-E at 18 weeks and her Dr's never imagined she would make it in this pregnancy as far as she has!  You just never know what the future will bring and what a new pregnancy will bring.  And neither do yoru Dr's.  The only thing you can do is to continue to try and believe.

((hugs)) again

PS:  DH's just don't understand the way we do.  My DH didn't know how to handle my sad/depressed moods.  I ended up going to counceling and had made DH come with me so he would understand.  I really think it helped me as much as it helped him.  A few weeks ago we were at a funeral for a 2 month old and we were talking to my friend/the babies aunt and my DH said something we discussed in the session.  Even though he mauy not have shown it at the time, he was listening while we were there and I think it really helped him.  So if you havn't all ready, I would maybe suggest seeing somebody and bringing your DH along with you to a session or two.