I can't take it anymore - work related!!

tnkrbl21

My "plan" was to stay at work until March 27th ( after my sick time I would go about 6 weeks without pay and I wouldn't have to pay cobra to extend my insurance).  That would be 35 wks for me. 

Well this morning putting on my shoes (read- my husband had to put them on for me) I had a breakdown because I am just so tired and I just dont feel like I can do it anymore.  I told myself I would try to push myself until the 27th but I am so miserable just even thinking about having to come here the next 3 weeks.  I'm a teacher so no working from home or cutting back my hours.  If I leave at the end of next week I will lose 8 wks of pay (this would cost us about 1/2 of our savings) and I would need COBRA - though I could cancel my insurance at work when my FMLA runs out because I am covered under my DH's policy as well (my job has better IVF coverage and that's why we have both) and then I can re-enroll in my insurance in September when I return. 

I guess I just feel selfish because I'm fine with taking time off for the babies, but I feel like a quitter beacuse I can't stick it out here.  I feel like I'm letting my family down by putting us a little behind financially.  I also don't want to make any decisions today as I'm an emotional wreck (and stuck here at work) but I also know that if I make the decision on a day I feel goood, I'll convince myself to stay. 

Sorry this is so long and I know I've already posted about this, but I'm still struglling with what to do.  Thanks for listening.

AmberJane

awww...you're not a quitter, your body is hard at work GROWING two babies!!  Of course you are going to be exhausted, I give you props making it this far...I barely did and I had a sit down job!!  I think your plan sounds good if you still have benefits with your husband's job, that way you won't stress so much.  Stress is just as bad for the babies as well, so a happy MOM-to-be means happy babies!!

FloF9

I totally feel for you - I know it was like that for me too at the end.  Hang in there!!! HUGS!!!!

MetalMonkey

I made it to 32wks4days but that is at a desk job, nothing nearly as demaning as being a teacher.  I think you need to do what is physically and emotionally best for you.  It sounds like you will still have ins. so I would stop working if I were you.  You need to take care of you and your babies.  BTW- you are doing a great job.  Keep up the good work.

Jen&John2005

With how much time teachers spend on their feet, I can't believe you're still at work.  I don't really have any suggestions for you - money is extremely tight for us, too, since my DH is still looking for work.  I just wanted to say good luck to you whatever you decide. 

goldenmama

you are not a quitter!!!! this is your body telling you to slooooooow it down! listen to your body if that is the only thing you listen to!

((hugs)) and hang in there!