I didn’t. I started to go insane.
I had to put baby in the crib, close the door, turn on the vacuum so that I could not hear them cry anymore, and just go in another room and collect myself for however long it takes.
I would break down and just cry out of frustration. I had nobody to pass the baby to, ever. Just me.
No baby ever cried themselves to death, but frustrated parents have injured babies by accident. There is no shame in having to recharge yourself. If you need to put the baby down in a safe place and just walk away, then do it. Don’t let anybody tell you you’re a bad parent because of that. You are only human.
We are not talking about abandoning your child, or leaving them alone in the house; just walking away to another room for a few minutes when you feel you can not handle it anymore.
There were times when I had not slept for days or weeks or months, I would get so angry at the baby for crying so much, no matter what I did,that I would feel like I might hurt them if I didn’t put them down.
Yes that is my confession. I never hurt my child, but I did have to walk away sometimes.
I have no parents, no siblings, no babysitters, Friends have all moved away, and there has never been anybody to help me with my children. There was Never anybody to pass the crying baby to when it became too much for me.
I realize it sounds stone cold, but I’m not a bad mom. Mothers were never designed to be alone with babies all the time, historically families stay together and helped each other out. This is not the case anymore unfortunately.
Parents who have friends and family and in-laws helping with the baby just don’t understand. They will criticize you because they just don’t get it, they will never know. Let them talk. I never ever had anyone to help me, so this is how I got through.
You will get through it too. Yes, This too shall pass. All these phases come and go. Before you know it, you will be looking at other parents with new babies, your heart will ache a little, and you will be missing your own baby because they have grown so much.
Stay strong mamma.