35 weeks and all of a sudden single

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In just a few weeks I will be getting a c section.

My boyfriend left tonight with majority of his stuff. His mom came and helped him too. A lot of things have been said between us over the past year.

Lately I’ve been trying to tell him how I feel. He’s been talking to me disrespectfully and I don’t feel validated. I don’t feel heard. I feel worthless.

He will “make up” for it in his own way. Tonight that includes Mexican food and some ice cream. Then a happy ending. When I tried bringing up my feelings later they were disregarded and he got angry with me and annoyed. I’m always asking for too much he says. Why can’t I be happy with what he’s given me? Good luck finding someone who will put up with him.

I asked him to leave for the billionth time but this time I didn’t change my mind. He’s gone. He will be back to get the nitty gritty of his things.

I feel at peace but feel guilty about it. I miss him but I feel guilty about it. I feel as if I made the right choice but also the wrong choice.

I’m already a mother to a 9 year old boy with a golden heart. I can do this by myself. But he seems to think I will not. He is not a parent yet, so this is his first. Also a boy.

Anyway, sorry for the long post. Just needed to vent. And for someone to read my feelings with feeling the need to respond and push it back in my face.

meggyme

Sounds like you are doing what you need to in order to care for yourself and you children. Good luck moving forward with your life. Do you have a support system in place to help you while you are newly postpartum?