TTCAL w/o 9/5

abjm0325

**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.

Status:

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well?

Any testing coming up/any recent results

Questions?

GTKY: What is your favorite Halloween/fall movie to watch?

maggiemadeit

It seems like no one is checking in here, but I'm back and this is where I go, so hi (*wave*). I was around here for a few months after my last loss, but stopped participating when my husband said we were done and he wasn't going to try again. 

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: Spontaneous loss at 6 weeks in Aug 21, MMC at 12 weeks in Feb 22 (D&C, retained tissue, etc).

Status: O time, but not TTC again just yet.

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? Y'all, my husband wants to try again! I am doing the happy dance, and also panicking. I'm almost 40 with 2 losses in the last year, and I'm afraid to get my hopes too high knowing the statistics are not on our side. I can't help but feel excited. Time to break out those old egg quality supplements! 

Any testing coming up/any recent results: My previous RPL testing didn't turn up anything, except some slightly elevated APS antibody I was told was not a concern. I'm making an appointment with my OBGYN to talk about a plan for if I do manage to get pregnant again. It seems like baby aspirin and luteal phase progesterone supplement is a common approach in the case of RPL of unknown cause, but from the literature it's hard to say that this is evidence-based. 

Questions? Not today.

GTKY: What is your favorite Halloween/fall movie to watch? Not sure I've ever seen a Halloween movie except Charlie Brown Pumpkin as a kid, but a friend and I are reading Practical Magic for a book club this fall. It's pretty witchy.

optimistgardener

*lurking* welcome back @maggiemadeit

bearmomma1

@maggiemadeit wow, how exciting! Welcome back! When do you get to jump back on the wagon?

kiki047

Welcome back @maggiemadeit, how wonderful that YH is ready and willing to try again. Baby aspirin won't hurt to add to your protocol either way, and LP progesterone support is fairly common so hopefully that's easy enough for your OBGYN to get you started. 


Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. TTC for almost 5 years, been doing IVF for ~3.5 of those years (PCOS, MFI). No spontaneous pregnancies, FET #2 MMC @ 11w (SCH), FET #3 MC @ 5w2d (unknown cause). 

Status: Taking a forced break between cycles due to scheduling conflicts, letting my body rest after 3 years of back to back to back cycles

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? I've had a lot going on lately, but specifically fertility-related, I guess a small win is that I had a perfectly normal, predictable 29 day cycle which is basically a miracle since IVF meds usually cause my hormones to go all haywire and my cycles are irregular to begin with. That said, I'm struggling with the idea that we're essentially benched since we can't conceive naturally and at this rate it's looking like we might not be able to try again until November, which feels like an eternity. 

Any testing coming up/any recent results? No, we're basically benched but I do want to pressure my REI for a hysteroscopy because I refuse to believe that we can't find some more answers before we move to surrogacy. 

Questions? Is it conceivable that I might have scar tissue/retained POC without having had a D&C for my other losses? I did several rounds of misoprostol but we believed we got everything. I've done two SHGs since then and they were supposedly clear but that's the extent of my inter-uterine examinations. 

GTKY: What is your favorite Halloween/fall movie to watch? Is it an UO that I don't really like Hocus Pocus? I dunno, I'm not really a scary movie kinda gal so I can't think of a favourite. 

maggiemadeit

@optimistgardener @bearmomma1 @kiki047   Thank you. Of course I wish each of you were not still here, but I appreciate the warm welcome back! 

@kiki047 Congratulations on your beautiful cycle! I’m sorry you have to wait until November. That must feel like an eternity.

It was a bit of a shock to me honestly that my husband changed his mind, and I’ve been living my life with no regard to TTC, so out this cycle for sure due to my newfound love of retinal, (did you know they can cure wrinkles now??!!), which is apparently not TTC safe. 

I am currently trying to decide if it makes more sense to just jump in once we have a plan with my OBGYN, or if I should wait to get 3 months of egg quality supplements on board and get my shit together with eating and drinking for our best chances of catching a healthy egg. Either way, I am feeling just extremely grateful to have another chance. 

anniemarie887

@maggiemadeit so glad you are back! and it's sooooo unfair so much skincare isnt' ttc safe. i did just happily botox my forehead yesterday in hopes that we are out of being benched in the next 2 weeks and i hopefully can get pregnant again.
@kiki047 i don't know if there is a difference in accuracy between HSG and SHG... but my HSG was VERY evident something was wrong. not sure if you saw when i had posted about it... it wound up being retained tissue in an old implantation site. but, on a positive note - yay for your body cooperating!

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. CP - Sept '21, MMC - Jan '22, the never ending MC - March '22

Status: benched on doxy, and waiting for f/u biopsy to make sure endometritis is gone 

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with and/or what is going well? kind of all over the place - glad i am prioritizing myself and working out but also i think that's my control freak coming out in a weird coping way - ya know, control the controllable. today is my last day on doxy and i am so ready for this like crying level in pain heartburn to go away. in the land of TTC i just really want to be able to TRY again. *TW pg announcement* had a friend who knows everything from the last year send a group text update that she is 13 weeks which was just a brutal thing to wake up to this morning *end TW*

Any testing coming up/any recent results? 2nd biopsy on 9/26

Questions? natm

GTKY: What is your favorite Halloween/fall movie to watch? oh boy, um, i don't like scary movies. we'll go with Nightmare Before Christmas.

kiki047

@anniemarie887 I was thinking maybe I'd ask for an HSG, if an exploratory hysteroscopy is off the table. So sorry you had to wake up to that text, ugh. My cousin also just announced publicly on her socials so it's everywhere I look. I unfollowed her and her H but I forgot about my aunt and uncle. Blahhh. 

maggiemadeit

@anniemarie887 Just getting caught up on what's been going on in the old threads. I'm so sorry, what an absolute nightmare you've been through. I hope this next biopsy will give you the all clear to begin again.