Baby is the size of a(n) / interesting fact: grain of rice
FTM/STM/TTM+: STM
Team Finding Out/Blue/Pink/Green: def finding out
Upcoming Appointments: 25 Aug
How are you feeling?: Relieved mostly... we heard the heartbeat at our first US appointment although the scan was good enough for our dr but really tiny to me. I'll just take her word for it! I got a prescription for our version of Unisom (Diclectin) although two tablets a night was an overkill. I ended up waking up at 11.30am and having to nap again twice at 1+ and 4+. The effects were so strong I didn't take it last night and woke up feeling really refreshed. I'll be trying just one pill to see if I tolerate that better.
Rants/Raves: We brought DS to the first US appointment because he had a jab at the pediatrician's which was in the same hospital the OB is at. It was really cool to have him hear baby #2's heartbeat although DH doesn't think our son knew what was going on.
Questions: Do any other STM notice that their first kid gets more sticky when mommy gets pregnant? DS is usually very hands off but was very into hugs and cuddles recently. Do they know?
GTKY: Do you have a nickname you call your baby? We call baby mei mei for now (because we're hoping it's a girl) but we might have to change it to something gender neutral. Calling baby #2 Travis-or-Tiffany is a mouthful. 😂
@bananasb Yes! DD wants me to pick her up all the time now. I’m not sure if it’s a coincidence, or if she knows that something is up. 🤷🏼♀️ (She is 22 months)
TTC History
Me: 38 DH: 52
Started trying June 2018
BFP Jan 2019 DD born October 2019
TTC July 2021 BFP, ended in MMC August 2021
TTC October 2021
BFP January 2022
MMC March 2022
Beginning May 2022 under the supervision of an RE - Benched while undergoing testing
@bananasb my 2.5yo will. not. leave. me. alone. It's like she wants to crawl back up there. I feel awful because i have no patience with her shenanigans and I am not one for carrying her around all the time. I keep telling her to go ask daddy. She doesn't want to lol.
Baby is the size of a(n) / interesting fact: Raspberry
FTM/STM/TTM+: TTM
Team Finding Out/Blue/Pink/Green: Team green
Upcoming Appointments: Today
How are you feeling?: TW** Mentally Struggling. Symptom wise I'm doing okay...exhausted, averse to a lot of food, slightly nauseated and some headaches this week but overall okay. Mentally I'm a wreck. I had a busy week at work with my boss in town and then last night at a team outing it hit me that I find out if my baby has a heartbeat today. Every time I think about this first appointment, it's just a PTSD flash back to the time there wasn't a heartbeat and I relive those feelings. My appointment is in 4 hours and I just cannot stop crying (probably hormones contributing to this). I keep trying to tell myself it'll be okay, and that I'll feel silly later today when everything is okay, but this PGAL mindf*ck is so sadistic that I was putting on makeup this morning and was like "better not put on mascara or eyeliner for when I'm bawling my eyes out later."
Rants/Raves: Rant probably about how our healthcare continues to fail mothers and we wonder why mental health is so poor.
@Patience7150 PGAL is such a roller coaster. I’m sorry you’re in the pits right now but I hope your appointment gives you nothing but joy and reassurance. I know how scary it is to wait for confirmation of that heartbeat. I’ll be thinking of you!
Thank you everyone for the support. As I was trying to tell myself, everything was fine, we saw a HB, and things were looking spot on for 8w, so all is good. I don't feel silly since I know PGAL is real but I do feel better at least.
@Patience7150 you are definitely not alone with those feelings. The close I get to my US, the more anxious I get. My husband feels it, too. Glad things looked good today.
If it makes you feel any better I was diagnosed with PTSD after my first loss. I can't even think about ultrasounds without breaking down and I sob uncontrollably in the waiting room before basically any maternity appointment. I don't feel dumb about it, that fear is so real as is the trauma that caused it...just know you're not alone in your feelings ❤
Re: Weekly Check-In 8/2
TW***
If it makes you feel any better I was diagnosed with PTSD after my first loss. I can't even think about ultrasounds without breaking down and I sob uncontrollably in the waiting room before basically any maternity appointment. I don't feel dumb about it, that fear is so real as is the trauma that caused it...just know you're not alone in your feelings ❤
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