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PGAL (Pregnant After Loss) November

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edited November 15 in June 2020 Moms
**Nov 15 update**
Unless anyone objects or has other ideas, we’ll change this to a monthly thread with a mid-month check-in.  The standing invitation remains for PGAL mamas to resurrect the thread throughout the month ANY time you need to. ❤️
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Late to start this this week, and I know not everyone who is here AL will feel the need to check in each week, but I’d love to continue this space so it’s here when/if you need it.

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 

Previous loss(es)? 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Any appointment updates? 

Rants/Raves/Questions? 

Any milestones coming up? 
me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

ntnp #2 . summer 2018

*siggy warning*

ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP! . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017

kiki75

Re: PGAL (Pregnant After Loss) November

  • @hanshotfirst77 I saw your last check in last week in PGAL...how are you doing this week?

    Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom?  10+0, 5th pregnancy, 1 living daughter

    Previous loss(es)?  Early x3 - 3/2016, 9/2018, 5/2019

    How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?  Physically exhausted and dying to like coffee again.  Emotionally just remembering that the relief from each pregnancy milestone can be so short-lived.  10 weeks feels like a big milestone when all of my losses have been before 7 weeks, but it all just feels vulnerable and fragile still.

    Any appointment updates?  Graduated from the RE 2 weeks ago after an US and heartbeat check, and I see a new midwife in 2 weeks. 

    Rants/Raves/Questions?  I’m thankful for home dopplers and having a way to find baby’s heartbeat.

    Any milestones coming up?  My first loss EDD is in a couple weeks.  I know I’ll be ok that day...I think the EDD coming up in January for my most recent loss will be harder, when a friend who was due at the same time gives birth.
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

    kiki75petethecatkerco925natalie115
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  • @hanshotfirst77 Awww celebrating with you that all looked well today!  I’ll be sitting with you in the wait for your next RE appointment and keeping FX crossed!!  PGAL brain SUCKS, and can rear its ugly head in a instant.  Drop a line here whenever you need to ❤️

    What are you drinking in place of coffee??

    I know the AL-specific check-in can feel redundant, but even if there’s low participation or even just us, I love the idea of having it here for anyone to resurrect when they’re having a hard PGAL day and just need to vent or have someone sit with them.
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

    kiki75kerco925
  • @virginiaham I completely agree that I feel better having this thread. So I am all for that! ❤️

    Thank you for the support! Today has been huge for me and I’m just trying to enjoy it as much as I can. Before pgal brain rears her ugly head. 

    I haven’t found anything to replace coffee. I had switched to decaf during TTC and IF treatments and I don’t really like tea unless I’m sick. So I pretty much just drink water. I really miss that morning cup though. Have you replaced it with anything?

    TTC#1 - March 2013

    BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14

    TTC#2 November 2015

    Dx: Secondary IF June 2016

    Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN

    Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018

    "She believed she could so she did..."

    Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19

    Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!

    Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN

    Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-

    Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal  :'(

    Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever 

    Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1 

    But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET

    IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19

    ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!

    Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1

    FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844


    BabyGaga
    BabyGaga

    virginiahamkerco925
  • Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 10, June 1

    Previous loss(es)? CP, twin MMC

    How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?   I am a mess today emotionally.  Symptoms keep going away and coming back, so I'm not too nervous about that.  But today I am so crampy and feel like I am about to start my period.  It's making me really anxious and I keep running to the bathroom to check.  

    Any appointment updates? I had an appointment this week, but doctor didnt do anything but talk.  I have my genetic/NT scan on the 21st.  

    Rants/Raves/Questions? None

    Any milestones coming up? Nope. 
    kiki75virginiaham
  • Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 9+5, June 7, 4th pregnancy, 1 living DS

    Previous loss(es)? MMC at 9 w, CP

    How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
    Physically, this has been the most symptomatic pregnancy so far. Emotionally, it seems like I’m going with the somewhat detached thing again. Like the logical side is going along with being pregnant but my heart is still firmly “riiiiight.” I hate that it’s so hard to just separate the pregnancies and go all in on joy for one. I envy the innocence some people have. Like when I called my OB’s to reschedule my first appt because she was out sick and the receptionist chirped, “Oh! This is an exciting appointment!!!” How would it be to go in there just 100% certain it was just exciting and fun? Instead I’ve spent the last few weeks wondering if we’d do a D&C this time or the pill like the first. 

    Any appointment updates? Finally, today. Can’t wait to see what my bp is with the anxiety level. 😬

    Rants/Raves/Questions? I just hope today is a great day. 

    Any milestones coming up? Nah. 

    @hanshotfirst77 Have you tried hot water with lemon? It’s decent and you get that nice hot cup in the morning. I felt like a raging a-hole ordering it places when I didn’t look pregnant yet. 


    @virginiaham It’s so hard when you had someone you know due around the same time. ❤️

    @kerco925 I hope the cramping passes soon. It’s really disconcerting. 


        
    Me: 34 DH: 38
    Married: June 2011
    TTC since Feb 2016
    BFP#1: 7/7/16 MMC: 8/16/16 
    BFP#2: 5/8/17 - CP
    BFP#3: 6/27/17 EDD: 3/10/18
    virginiahamkerco925
  • @kiki75 Good luck on your appt today! Let us know how it goes. I've been a nervous wreck during all my appts so far. And I feel you on the envy. I wish I was one of those people who get a bfp and are instantly just happy and just know it will all be great. 

    I haven't tried that yet. But I will. I think I really miss the ritual since I had already ditched the caffeine part long ago. And love the gif. I just finished the latest season of Schitts Creek I love that show!

    @kerco925 I hope the cramps go away soon.

    TTC#1 - March 2013

    BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14

    TTC#2 November 2015

    Dx: Secondary IF June 2016

    Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN

    Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018

    "She believed she could so she did..."

    Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19

    Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!

    Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN

    Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-

    Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal  :'(

    Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever 

    Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1 

    But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET

    IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19

    ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!

    Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1

    FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844


    BabyGaga
    BabyGaga

    virginiahamkerco925kiki75
  • @hanshotfirst77 I drink tons of plain water also, and I’m all over the place with it... I can’t do anything with the faintest hint of sweet (didn’t know the hot sausage in our soup last night had a sweet flavor til I almost couldn’t eat dinner), but peppermint/green tea blend has been ok, and I tried iced coffee a few days ago and it’s palatable.  For now, until I hate that too 😆

    @kerco925 Ugh I’m so sorry about the cramping and the worry that brings.  I had a couple of bad nights/mornings with the same thing this last week.  I hope it passes for you.

    @kiki75 Sitting with you in all. of. that.  It’s not an exciting time when I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop at any moment and each night I go to bed thankful that it wasn’t today and I got to keep the pregnancy for another day.  Big hugs, I hope today is another great day!!
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

    kerco925kiki75
  • The cramping seems to have mostly subsided today.  I feel like I am typically so optimistic, but with pregnancy, I am way too uncomfortable with being positive at this point.

    @kiki75 I can relate so much to everything you said.  Wondering if I would get  D&C this time after my nightmare natural miscarriage last time.  Also, the receptionist at the doctors office kept saying "congrats" and "this is so exciting" and I wanted to say, it's way too early for that.  I dont even know if baby is progressing.  
    virginiahamkiki75
  • kiki75 said:
    Baby is right on track with a HB of 166! I’m so relieved. Now I’ll be happy for a handful of days before I just stress out until NIPT. 🙄 
    Yesssss @kiki75!!
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

  • Hey ladies, bumping this thread to ask, should we do a monthly thread instead of weekly with maybe a mid-month check in on the same thread, and then the general guidance that absolutely anyone resurrect the thread any time in between when needed?
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

    kiki75
  • @virginiaham Sounds good to  me. 
    virginiahamkiki75
  • **thread update**

    Unless anyone objects or has other ideas, we’ll change this to a monthly thread with a mid-month check-in.  The standing invitation remains for PGAL mamas to resurrect the thread throughout the month ANY time you need to. ❤️

    MID-MONTH CHECK-IN

    How are you doing?

    Anything we can support you on?

    GTKY:  What’s been your go-to drink this month?
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

  • How are you doing?  I’m feeling guarded this week.  I woke up from a super vivid loss dream earlier this week with a named diagnosis and then the doctor slapped an adoption packet down for me at the end of the appointment.  The diagnosis in my dream isn’t even a real thing 🙄 but it still rattled me.  Plus fighting a yeast infection and I started spotting pink last night.  I don’t think it’s real spotting... ((TMI there’s nothing when I insert progesterone suppositories but, like, from weeping tissue 😩))

    Anything we can support you on?  Thanks for reading my little rant ❤️

    GTKY:  What’s been your go-to drink this month?  Plain water all day, San Pellegrino with dinner.
    me . early 30's | h . mid 30's | < 3 . 2013

    ntnp #2 . summer 2018

    *siggy warning*

    ttc#1 . jul 2015
    mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
    dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
    tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
    BFP! . jan 2017
    DD . oct 2017

  • MID-MONTH CHECK-IN

    How are you doing? It really depends on the day. Some days I am feeling great and am so positive and optimistic about this pregnancy. And other days I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm in my 8th week and this is where I had my other losses. Kinda just hoping and praying I get through it and my appt next week is good. 

    Anything we can support you on? Just having this thread is huge for me. I don't feel like I belong in a lot of other threads on this board so I am really thankful this one exists. 

    GTKY:  What’s been your go-to drink this month? Water all day every day. 


    @virginiaham I'm sorry about the dreams and the spotting. I've had that pretty much this whole pregnancy off and on and everytime it goes away its such a relief and everytime it comes back it's so disconcerting. I say a little prayer everytime i wipe. But if it helps me RE has assured me over and over this pregnancy that it's completely normal. 

    TTC#1 - March 2013

    BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14

    TTC#2 November 2015

    Dx: Secondary IF June 2016

    Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN

    Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018

    "She believed she could so she did..."

    Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19

    Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!

    Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN

    Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-

    Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal  :'(

    Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever 

    Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1 

    But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET

    IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19

    ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!

    Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1

    FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844


    BabyGaga
    BabyGaga

    virginiaham
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