People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.
Re: Inappropriate Comments/Questions Thread
"It's too early for you to be excited. You don't know how those medications affected the baby."
"Are you happy about this?"
"It's not fair for you to be pregnant when all you've done is sleep with a bunch of guys for a few months, and I've been working my ass off and doing anything and everything to bring a baby into this world."
"Now that you'll have one baby, you'll be able to really relax, let things happen naturally, and won't need to do IVF again." --Oh thanks Becky and Jennifer. I'm so glad that you're the authority on how my body works. If I had known seven years ago that all I had to do was relax, I'd be $20K richer! Oh wait. I didn't include the cost of 4 rounds of IUI in there. #biggesteyefuckingroll
"Why do you need a Doula? I didn't need a Doula and none of my girls did. They helped us with all of that in the hospital." --Uhm, geez Patty, I need a Doula because it's not 80 years ago when you had kids and people actually understood the concept of a village. Andplusalso, I'm going to be 35 and none of you live around us. So while your girls had each other and you during their pregnancies and deliveries, I'll let you do the Math.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
TTC #1 5/13 BFP #3 5/2/14 DD born 1/19/15
NTNP #2 8/17 BFP 12/13/18 ED 8/21/19
My Mom was just here for a couple of weeks and made multiple comments about breastfeeding that really pissed me off. "So and so's baby is on formula and is sleeping through the night at 2 weeks" was the one that really got to me. I worked my ass off to successfully BF my daughter and she was a great sleeper at first then around 3 months was up every 2-3 hours until she was 8 months old. My mom is CONVINCED that it is because "formula fills them up more" even though from 6-8 months I could feed her a legit meal before bed and she would still wake up. I thought I had educated her the first time around, but it looks like I'm going to be in for the comments all over again.
For me, all of the comments except the first and last ones were by family members. The first and last ones were via text, so physical distance saved them.
@suzycupcake I wish I could say I can't believe how insensitive and ignorant people were to you, but I can 🙃
@mkrel unfortunately, yes. It definitely caused some upset and crying, but it was a good push to also cut some people off.
UGHHH I hate when people push formula (or BFing, but a bit less). It's the mother's choice. As long as the baby is getting the proper nutrition, everyone needs to STFU.
@mkrel sorry your mom is making comments. every baby is different. I have had sleepers and eaters... some kids don't STTN till well after a year and this is normal. ugg. Keep doing what your doing. My mom used to make comments like "your STILL breast feeding?!?" the twins were not even a year yet...
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
And from the NP I saw at the walk in clinic for a sinus infection (nothing pregnancy related) who I promptly wrote a scathing review about:
"How many sexual partners have you had?" (irrelevant)
"Was this pregnancy planned?" (also irrelevant)
"Have you even confirmed the pregnancy if you're only 6 weeks?"
"Wow, I can't believe your doctor is ok with you staying on that medication while pregnant" <- with a stink face
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
Have I mentioned I HATE the societal pressure to keep a pregnancy a secret until its "acceptable" to talk about? Mostly to save OTHER PEOPLE's feelings should something go wrong? It makes me so ragey.
Diagnosed : unexplained infertility
6 rounds of IUI and a MC 2/2014, rainbow twins 4/2015
TTC #3 5/2016
Restarted Fertility tx
IUI 2 rounds, baby girl 12/17
“It’s a boy, I know it.” No the duck you don’t.
“Are you going to need new pants soon?” WTf?
All from my MIL.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
FORMER USERNAME: @runningisrad
Mine has a knack for backhanded compliments.
So far her only comments have been,
"what happened to only one child?"
" how am I not supposed to tell anyone!?! Well I guess it is your decision"
And ****TW****
This summer my family took a trip to Europe. On the trip home we had a loooooong layover in Toronto. We left the airport to meet up with some of my Mom's cousins whom I haven't seen since I was about 8.
We went to the keg, and after dinner we we're sitting outside on the patio having drinks around the fire.
My mom's 50-something female cousin shouts across the circle at me:
"So how long have you two been married?"
Me: "about a year an a half now"
Her "oh well then I guess you still have time...."
Me "excuse me?"
Her: "well you haven't reached the 2 year mark yet... But if you haven't made your mother a grandmother yet by the 2 year mark, there's seriously something wrong with you!"
*Silence*
Me. Full of rage "actually, I had a miscarriage and almost died a few months ago. So... Yeah."
*Absolute Silence*
Her: "well...I didn't know, did I?"
NO, YOU DIDNT. AND THATS WHY YOU DON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES REPRODUCTION, SHARON!
All the while I’ve actually lost 15lbs since being pregnant due to morning sickness. 😤
Sorry about the weight loss and MS, hugs
me: “Hi I’m pregnant”
friend: “that’s great! Oh no...”
me: “what?”
friend: “some of the cupcakes I brought over are sweet potato! I am so sorry! That was so inconsiderate!”
me: “.....wat?”
Turns out he had “learned” from an episode of Arrested Development that yams are bad for babies and it had stuck with him for like 15 years.
ETA wording.
She has had multiple failed IVFs, and despite the ugly things she said and her failure to own up to them, despite the fact that she's not speaking to me and incapable of being happy for me, I still pray that she will have her take home baby soon.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
So yes, I know what it's like to hear that yet another one of your acquaintances or family is pregnant and wonder why they were chosen and not me. I understand the crushing fear of feeling like you'll never be a mom. I haven't gone through the physical pain associated with fertility treatments, but I have cried at seeing my period start again and again, wondering wtf was wrong with my body. No, I didn't struggle for as long as y'all have perhaps, or go through as much loss, or physical pain. But that doesn't invalidate my path.
I get exactly why my former friend said what she said. But I don't get it given that she knew about all of the above.
Some seasons of life are v hard & we have to step back & realize that we can’t be joyful for others all the time & that’s okay. We also have to stay back & accept others are still in seasons of hurt, and may not be there for us even as we move past our most difficult times. It’s hard to feel left behind, regardless of circumstances and struggles.