PGAL WO 12/17

meatballs37

1. How many weeks are you?

2. Previous loss(es)?

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically?

4. Any appointment updates?

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? 

6. Any milestones coming up? 

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? 

meatballs37

1. How many weeks are you? 14+2

 2. Previous loss(es)? 22w stillborn, 29w, and 6w

 3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? The MS is slowly but surely going away and my appetite seems to be coming back. 

 4. Any appointment updates? Have an appointment early tomorrow morning. I’m guessing we will schedule the anatomy scan then too. Which makes it seem like this is going fast and yet still so slow. 

 5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nada, my anxiety seems fairly chill today. I’m sure when I’m wake up tomorrow before the appointment, it will come in huge waves. I’m going to try and relax today with DD. We are going to do an at home spa day. 
  
 6. Any milestones coming up? Anatomy scan next month 

 7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I would like to lose some of this weight I’ve gained over the last two years. I used to run before DD. I don’t see that happening again. But I’m hoping between breastfeeding and having a spring baby. We will get out for walks a ton this next summer. I’m already dreaming up the bassinet attachment for our double stroller. If I could lose a good 10-15 lbs by next December, I would count that as a win. 

pbtoast

Hi- I’m new. Hope it’s ok that I post here. 

1. How many weeks are you? 14W 2D

2. Previous loss(es)? CP 8/2014, MMC 9/2017

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically, I’m feeling better. Much less nausea and my fatigue is improving somewhat. I’ve had a cold for 4 weeks thanks to my 3-year-old, but other than that I can’t complain. Emotionally, I’m a little better hence the fact that I’m here (as mentioned in my intro, I couldn’t bring myself to participate until now for fear I’d have another loss). However, I still feel like pregnancy is kind of ruined for me in the sense that I have an overarching feeling of tentativeness- I.e. “IF this pregnancy works out, I’m due 6/15,” rather than “I’m due 6/15!” I’m sure many can relate. 

4. Any appointment updates? I had a checkup today. Baby sounded good on the Doppler. AS scheduled for 4 weeks from now.

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Oh, just the fact that I’ve had a cold for 4 weeks. My son brings everything home but is sick for a few days. Meanwhile I’m still struggling weeks later when he brings home the next illness. Ughhhh! 

6. Any milestones coming up? Well, I felt better after my NIPT came back low-risk. I feel like my AS is another milestone. But truthfully, I’m going to be worried until I have a baby in my arms. 

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I haven’t really thought about it yet. Probably not. 

pbtoast

@meatballs37 How old is your DD? I’m trying to figure out if it’s worth it to figure out the double stroller configurations for our stroller or if my son is going to refuse to ride. He’ll be 3y4m when baby is born. I may do one of those standing board things, but sometimes it’s so nice to just strap them in! 

sparklingdiamond

1. How many weeks are you? 14w1d

2. Previous loss(es)? CP, early M/C, stillbirth at 32 weeks

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically?  Doing okay.  I've been feeling more movement and even saw my belly move slightly a couple times which made me feel better.


4.Any appointment updates?  I have one with my MFM today and am nervous.

5. Rants/Raves/Questions?  I am back at work after a mini vacation in Portland. Both good and bad to be back.

6. Any milestones coming up?  The second MFM appt was when the CDH was confirmed so I'm still nervous they will find something wrong today.  I hate this.

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution?   I usually do so I should. Just nor sure what it will be yet

meatballs37

@pbtoast welcome fellow Midwesterner! We already have two seats for our city select baby jogger. DD is 2 and will be just over 2.5 when baby is born. She likes to sometimes ride in the stroller still. But she always likes to walk. I think we will also get the glider board attachment because when she does walk sheis extra pokey! 

pbtoast

@meatballs37 Yeah I feel like my son will be right on the border of walking vs riding. The thing is we walk a TON of places (our town is thankfully very walkable from our house) so I’d really rather he ride because yes, he’s slow! Problem is our Uppababy Vista is a little weird for the double stroller stuff—he’s already at the weight limit for the extra seat that goes on the bottom, so he’d have to ride up top with baby on bottom which I don’t love. I should have gone with the city select maybe. I reeeeally want a double BOB but that’s going to be a hard sell with my H given that we already have spent sooo much on strollers haha. Ok, I need to not clog up PGAL with this stroller stuff anymore. Thanks for entertaining my stream of consciousness 😂

eleven_

1. How many weeks are you? 15w 1d

2. Previous loss(es)? 2 CPs 1 MMC

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I’m actually feeling pretty good emotionally and physically. I’m starting to get my energy back and it feels so good to feel like a human again!

4. Any appointment updates? Next appointment is 12/27

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Rant: I’ve been having anxiety about being team green. I think if anything were to happen to this LO, I would be so upset that I didn’t find out the sex. I know it would still be possible to find out, I just would regret not having more time being happy with the knowledge. If I’m still feeling this way at 20w, we may decide to find out. Rave: Feeling LO kick is the best feeling in the world. It brings me so much peace that I almost cry with relief every time.

6. Any milestones coming up? No

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I haven’t even thought about it! I can’t believe 2019 is in 2 weeks

antera23

1. How many weeks are you? 13+4

2. Previous loss(es)? MMC in July of this year. 

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically?
I started to feel excited about the baby because it feels like this is actually happening this time. Then I flipped right back to scared something is wrong. I don’t want to use the Doppler again becuase im afraid i’ll freak out if I can’t find the heartbeat. 

Physically I feel so much better. Which makes me feel like I’m not pregnant, lol. That may also be contributing to my anxiety. My allergies have been so bad lately which confuses me becuase wtf could I be allergic to right now? Lol. 

4. Any appointment updates?
Nope. My next appointment is in January. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I find myself being surprised at how quickly things are going now. I was shocked when I looked up how far along I was. I hope that continues. 

6. Any milestones coming up? 
I’m past my milestones. 

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? 
Nope! I have a lot to focus on in 2019 with the baby coming. 

srscott3

@meatballs37 An at home spa day sounds so cute! Have fun with DD!

@sparklingdiamond Good luck at your appointment today!

@eleven_ oh girl, I’m sorry you’re conflicted about being team green 😔 I hope you find peace and comfort with whatever you choose. 

1. How many weeks are you? 15+5

2. Previous loss(es)? CP 12/17, MC 2/18

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically feeling pretty good. I’ve only gained 4 pounds so far which is a huge deal for me. (That is not a humble brag..I was very overweight to start with and was told a max gain of 15 pounds this pregnancy). With DD I gained a total of 45 pounds, so I’m over the moon with my progress so far with this one. Emotionally I’m still a ball of anxiety. I desperately need to get in to see a therapist, but being a SAHM mom in a city where I have no family makes it hard to find childcare and get myself to an appointment. 

4. Any appointment updates? I have my 16 week OB appointment on Thursday morning. Likely just using Doppler/having a routine check up. I’m a little on edge because I was feeling the baby move a bit last week and I haven’t really felt her since. But I also know it’s still early to feel anything strong or consistent. Then also on Thursday I have my echo to make sure everything is good with my heart. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? So excited for this week! I have a ton of cleaning, laundry, wrapping presents, and packing to do..but my brother gets to Chicago Thursday and then we’re all going to Canada on Friday and spending Christmas with my family. This will be the first Christmas in my life where I will have all my siblings together on Christmas Day. (My sisters are from my dad and step mom and my brother is from my mom and step dad..so they’re not all related to each other). My biological parents and both my step parents are all best friends. My younger sibilings grew up thinking they also had two moms and two dads. So my brother is basically a son to my parents in Canada and they’re really excited he’ll be there for Christmas. 

Okay now I’m about to cry, so I’m going to stop there.

6. Any milestones coming up? Passed them already, but I would love to get past the AS. That’s scheduled for 1/15. 

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? First, to not gain more than what’s recommended this pregnancy, then lose weight after. I need to be healthier for these girls. And Second, I need to be a better mom. I feel like I’m not doing enough with DD or that she’s bored. And I especially feel like shit being on my phone around her (DH is home right now..so I’m not being awful right at this moment). 

dntstpbelieveing

1. How many weeks are you? 14+6

2. Previous loss(es)? MC in May

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally I think I am stunted at the moment. Just feeling kind of stuck in the shocked is this real phase. Physically I am a wreck. The stomach flu last week brought MS back with a vengeance. I am hoping to feel better this week. 

4. Any appointment updates? Nothing until 12/27 for my regular OB. My MFM only books a month out so I am still waiting for them to call and schedule the AS. I would like to get that appointment into the books. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I really wish I could feel consistent movement. It really is so reassuring. 

6. Any milestones coming up? Nope

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I think mine is going to be a mix of trying to be more positive/grateful. We have had a really tough few years and I think it is really easy to get caught up in the woe is me. I would like to put more of an effort into being positive/grateful for the things that we do have. 

dntstpbelieveing

@eleven_ I've always debated about the idea of finding out but not telling anyone we've found out. Mostly to keep it my own little secret. That way I could bond with the idea of the sex of the baby without the outside pressures for what each sex means from other people. 

carleym93

1. How many weeks are you? 16w0d

2. Previous loss(es)? One cp, one termination 

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I’m so jealous of all of you who are feeling consistent movement! I still don’t. I have a sneaking suspicion my placenta might be anterior again. Physically I’m feeling good still. I’m getting massive RLP when I stand too fast and also some lightning crotch so that’s interesting. 

4. Any appointment updates? No appointment until anatomy scan on 1/18. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’ve been having so much anxiety over movement. I keep begging for movement just so I can have some reassurance. Then it doesn’t last because I can’t tell if its baby or stuff shifting around. 

I was at church on Sunday and our pastor said, “I don’t know who needs to hear this, but it takes courage to wait on God. Wait on Him today. Trust in His promise. I know waiting causes anxiety and I know waiting is hard, but just be still and wait.” It felt like it was meant for me. So today I’m just waiting. I’m just remembering that whatever His plan for this baby is will not be changed. If they are meant to be on Earth, they will, no matter what. 

6. Any milestones coming up? Anatomy scan will be a big one

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I would like to. I’d like to make more time for myself in 2019. Take better care of myself. 

TJtheGoat

1. How many weeks are you? 15+6

2. Previous loss(es)? 1CP

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I am actually starting to feel almost normal again, with the exception of the sciatic and RLP. But BF got sick over the weekend (I think it might be actual flu), so I’m avoiding him and trying desperately not to get sick. Good thing we got our shots! 

4. Any appointment updates? 16 week appointment on Friday. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nothing today. 

6. Any milestones coming up? No

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I usually do, but haven’t thought about it much this year. 

TJtheGoat

@dntstpbelieveing We found out the sex several weeks ago, but have been lying to all our friends and family. You ladies are the only ones that know that we know

sparklingdiamond

Appt went great thankfully. Still measuring on track and no signs of the issues we had before.  I can breathe slightly easier but still not relax completely.  I go back in 4 weeks for the official anatomy scan. 

meatballs37

@sparklingdiamond thinking of you. Can’t wait to hear how your appointment goes! 

@pbtoast sounds familiar. Lol. This is our third stroller too. I think DD is close to the limit for the seat as well. But I may be able to squeeze one more summer out of her sitting and baby riding too. 2020 I suppose we will just put it back to the single for this June munchkin. 

@eleven_  yay for the increased energy! I feel like mine is creeping back too! I bet it’s so hard being team green. I admire that you have the self discipline to wait. 

@antera23 congrats on passing your milestones! And cheers to feeling better too! 

@srscott3 your family Christmas sounds lovely. I’m excited for you to get some much needed family time. I will also be thinking of you Thursday when you have your echo. 

@dntstpbelieveing I am sorry you are feeling sick again. The flu while pregnant sounds terrible. I love your New Years resolution. It’s definitelt something I need to work on more. It’s so easy to wallow in the negative of what is missing from one’s life. 

@carleym93 I just love when I go to church and the sermon feels like it was written for me. Waiting is so tough. Especially when our appointments are still so far apart in the second tri. Praying you have some peace while waiting too. 

@TJtheGoat glad you are feeling better physically too! 

pbtoast

@dntstpbelieveing I like your resolution idea!

pbtoast

@sparklingdiamond Glad you got some good news. I know relief can be short-lived, but I try to remind myself “one step at a time” and let myself enjoy those moments. Easier said than done. 

coco2787

1. How many weeks are you?
9+2

2. Previous loss(es)?
4 losses in the past year.  2 CP, 9 week MMC, 14 week MMC

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically?
Not too bad physically.  Puked for the first time a couple days ago but I think it was mostly from drinking coffee on an empty stomach.  Emotionally I'm back and forth between feeling hopeful and then wanting to kick myself for getting my hopes up too soon. Still kind of numb about this whole thing. Finding the HB on the Doppler yesterday was really helpful for my anxiety though.

4. Any appointment updates?
Last weeks ultrasound was good, next one is Wednesday afternoon.  I'll be 9+4 which is what the final measurement was with my last MMC (although there was still a HB at 10.5 weeks so growth must have been slowing for a while), I'm anxious to make sure growth is still on track.  

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? 
Survived my SILs baby shower on Saturday.  Cried a few times before going so I guess I got it out of my system beforehand.  Annoyed with my H though because he seems oblivious that events like that are hard for me and that he doesn't remember due dates if I don't remind him.  I couldn't forget even if I wanted to so it's frustrating.  I don't want to force him to feel sad if he doesn't but it would be nice if he acknowledged it at least.    

6. Any milestones coming up? 
Past the milestone of my first MMC, still a few weeks to go before the next milestone.  Getting through the NT scan is really the next big hurdle.

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? 
Probably not. I'm just ready to leave 2018 behind and try and embrace what 2019 will bring (hopefully only good things)

kjr9519

1. How many weeks are you? 13+1

2. Previous loss(es)? MMC at 12 weeks

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, I’m not feeling nearly as nervous as I was before my 12 week appointment, but I still haven’t been able to feel excitement and like we’re actually going to have a baby in June. I’m able to trust that the baby is okay now, though. I think it’s just going to be a slow process. I’m still feeling nauseous, but I think it’s starting to slowly let up. Very slowly. I’ve been having a lot of sciatic pain, which was getting in the way of me being able to move at all some evenings, but I found some stretches that relieve it, so I’m happy about that.

4. Any appointment updates? I had an appointment last Wednesday that went pretty well. We got to hear baby on the Doppler. I have my 16 week appointment scheduled for 1/9.

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’m so bloated, but it’s definitely not a bump yet. The bloating won’t go away no matter the time of day. It’s a tiny rant. I would much rather start to get a real bump, though.

6. Any milestones coming up? Thankfully, I passed them all.

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I don’t know. I might make one because I have a few changes I need to make with time management. I’m usually not big on New Year’s resolutions (I prefer to make resolutions throughout the year when I feel a change needs to be made). But, the New Year might be a perfect time if I start to feel better and once I get past all of the holiday craziness.

coco2787

I feel weird saying welcome to people in a PGAL thread since it's a hard place to be, but welcome @pbtoast.  Glad to hear things are going well in your pregnancy so far.

I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow @meatballs37

Yay for a great appointment @sparklingdiamond!  

I understand your anxiety about being team green @eleven_ .  I think either way it's hard, for me knowing our last baby was a girl made it a lot more devastating when we lost her because it had changed the connection I felt to the pregnancy, but at the same time I was glad to know.  

That sounds like such a nice Christmas @srscott3  

I like that resolution idea @dntstpbelieveing, I might adopt that for myself.  

pbtoast

@carleym93 I love that. Pregnancy is surely a whole lot of waiting so the reminder to try to find peace in that is valuable. 

@coco2787 Thanks for the welcome. It’s certainly a “club” no one wants to be a part of but the support is invaluable. I can tell this is a great group of ladies!

nmbrcrnchr1

1. How many weeks are you? 15w4d

2. Previous loss(es)? Ectopic in Feb2018

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, pretty good. I’ve been feeling movement, although nothing consistent and only when I’m sitting still, which rarely happens over the weekend so I was nervous but today at work I felt a few kicks so my mind is at ease for now. Physically, nausea is gone but these headaches/migraines are awful. I don’t like taking medicine but I have to to function. Also, I feel like I’m getting sick, sore throat and all so I’m really hoping that doesn’t amount to anything.

4. Any appointment updates? Dec 27th for routine Doppler, BP, Weight check

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Only 2 days left of work for me this year, I cannot wait for a break! 

6. Any milestones coming up? Nope

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? Yes but need to think of a good, realistic one.

antera23

@meatballs37 I’m so glad your ms is going away! It’s a great feeling! 

@pbtoast welcome to our board! I’m so sorry to meet you on this thread. We have a wonderful group of women on here. 

@sparklingdiamond I hope you had fun in Portland! I live an hour away and hardly ever go I’m so glad your appointment went well today! 

@eleven_ horray for feeling like a human again! 

@srscott3 i’ll be thinking of you this Thursday and hoping your appointment goes well. 

@dntstpbelieveing I really like your New Years resolution. 

@carleym93 I really appreciate you sharing what your pastor spoke on. It touched my heart and helped me to hear those words. 

@TJtheGoat I love that we are the only ones who know! 

@coco2787 I’m glad you were able to find the heartbeat on the Doppler. It’s the best feeling. I’ll be thinking about you on Wednesday. 

@kjr9519 how you’re feeling is completely understandable. It also took me awhile to actually believe we will have a baby June. *hugs* to you my friend. 

@nmbrcrnchr1 how cool that you can feel movement! 

sarcat87

1. How many weeks are you? 12w 6d

2. Previous loss(es)? 1 MMC earlier this year 

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally I'm feeling positive. We got our NIPT results back today and they're low risk! I didn't know that we have to do another set of blood tests for genetic screening though. So, that will be coming up in a month or so but feeling grateful for the results right now. Physically I am feeling okay. Still tired. I think I see a little baby bump forming though and that makes me happy. 

4. Any appointment updates? No appointments until mid-January

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Feeling anxious about getting off the progesterone which is funny because it has been such a hassle inserting it 2X a day and having to wear a panty liner everyday. Today is my last day of 2X day then I'm starting 1X a day until 14 weeks. Doctor said placenta should definitely be fully in charge of progesterone production by 14 weeks so I should feel totally safe to stop using it by then but I feel worried about it. It's like a security blanket. 

6. Any milestones coming up? We'll be announcing our pregnancy and the baby's gender this week and that's really exciting. 

7. GTKY? Are you going to do a New Years resolution? I haven't thought about it. I'm not too big on NY resolutions. 

meatballs37

Appointment in an hour and a half. I’m still laying in bed and know I better get my butt moving because I have to take DD by myself. I hope she is in a good mood with zero tantrums. Two weeks ago she sang Christmas songs for people in the waiting room. She’s kinda a ham at 2. 

rant: I love DH. But I asked him to pick up aloe Vera gel for my Doppler last night (I’ve just been using leftover pre seed lol). He comes home with aloe Vera lotion. Ugh. I told him it wasn’t going to work for the Doppler. And he’s like yeah, they had the after sun gel and I figured, it’s not sunny out, why would you need that? 

carleym93

@meatballs37 FX for an uneventful appointment! Oh husbands 😂 

ncm1919

@meatballs37 that’s the most husband thing ever. Lol

sparklingdiamond

@meatballs37 Good luck today and hope your daughter cooperates.  My son is 4 and it's still a crapshoot what he will do when waiting lol.

@pbtoast Welcome to the group!  Sorry about the cold. I've just been dealing with one for a few days so I can't imagine 4 weeks!

@eleven_ I think I would feel the same way about being team green.  I'm sorry you have anxiety about it.

@srscott3 I had that happen last week .I had felt at least one movement a day then nothing for a couple days and it freaked me out.  Then I felt it again.  I can't wait until we all feel consistent movement.

@dntstpbelieveing I love that idea for a resolution!

@carleym93 I love when you hear messages that just seem meant for you.

@coco2787 I'll be thinking of you Wednesday and hope everything is still on track for you!

@antera23 I keep trying to convince DH to move to the Portland area lol.  So far a no go ugh!

kjr9519

@meatballs37 I’m hoping your appointment goes well. 

meatballs37

Baby looks good! DD was an angel. I feel like buying a lottery ticket. 

dntstpbelieveing

@meatballs37 yay! I am glad you had a good apt! (that that DD was an angel!)

eleven_

@meatballs37 Yay! I'm so happy to hear that the appointment went well    And I'm sorry, but your husband's reasoning behind the aloe lotion made me snort. Totally something my DH would do 

Dcwtada

@meatballs37 so happy for your great appointment!

I still haven’t felt movement yet, although I was sure I did a couple days ago - I just haven’t felt anything since so I think it was wishful thinking. I didn’t feel my last pregnancy until almost 20 weeks so I am trying not to dwell on it too much. 

Officially calling myself self in the second trimester now at 14 weeks. 

PGAL has been tough lately, it’s almost too emotionally exhausting to check in here if that makes sense - I love to support and check in on you ladies but it’s tough for me to contribute much. I promise I am not ignoring, just lurking more lately than not. 

eleven_

@Dcwtada I think we all understand that feeling. There are weeks where I am able to offer tons of support, and there are some weeks where it takes all of my energy just to check-in. I'm so sorry you are having a rough time lately. I always think that I will feel better as I get further along in the pregnancy, but then I still have days that are so hard to get through. I hope you start to feel some movement soon so it can bring you some peace 

TJtheGoat

@meatballs37 I’m glad your appointment went well and DD behaved. 

@Dcwtada I understand how you feel. I get anxious when I log in and see a bunch of messages in PGAL. I’m always worried it will be bad news.

nmbrcrnchr1

@meatballs37 yay!!! I’ve been super busy at work and remembered you had an appt so I took a quick break to check out how it went. Glad DD cooperated as well 😁

pbtoast

@meatballs37 YAY for a good appointment and a cooperative toddler. Gotta love the aloe vera lotion situation--I can so relate with my H.

@Dcwtada I haven't felt movement yet either. The other day, the doctor said it seemed like LO was moving a lot while she was chasing him around my uterus to listen to his heart. So hopefully soon we will start feeling something!

antera23

@Dcwtada I know how you feel. We will be here. You can participate when you’re ready *hugs* 

@meatballs37 I’m so glad your appointment went well! 

I found the baby’s heartbeat on the Doppler last night. It really helps my PGAL brain to have it when I need it. 

meatballs37

DH brought home the right aloe Vera. And I found baby for the first time in literally 2 seconds. Hmmm maybe pre seed wasn’t the best option for lubricant. Just thought I’d let you all know not to use pre seed 🙈